omg, finally stupid blogger is working again.

woah, the past few days have been a bitch. first its being sick then the internet decides to go and fail me. the days without internet is pure torture, its like being confined in a box, sealed and shipped away to some dark corner of the universe like Malta(like where the hell is that?).

ok shit im being very melodramatic.

hahaha.

so instead of accessing E-lects i celebrated my newfound 'freedom' by playing DOTA. and the worst shit part is i didnt enjoy it. F***.

sometimes you dont have to be a woman to be a doormat. you just need to be... ah, nvm.

so is this one of those times where everything starts to take a turn for the worst? i dont know. and i dont like it. because suddenly the world around me seems a whole lot darker and more menacing. people are becoming horrible, dark, insidious people with foul intent lurking at every corner.

shit. im making this sound very depressing.

well shit bitchshit aside,

thank you very much, all of you, for the lovely lovely birthday present.

and thanks ff and erika for taking so much effort to go find it and get it. really wouldnt know what to do without friends like you.

damn...

im feeling..

AMBIVALENT

i cant take this

it felt like i didnt have a holiday. seriously. so im feeling kind of short-changed and bitter. i just thank god that this week has an extra long weekend.

havent touched a single bit of holiday homework. how can i anyway.

hahaha you wouldnt believe the things erika, yizhen and me could do. we were at cartel on friday from 5.30 to 10 doing absolutely nothing except laughing, talking, laughing and talking again. of course there were the occasional throwing of bread, tissue paper and all sorts of rubbish at one another which just sent the people around us into a foul mood(like we care).

lol. its just amazing.

i wish everyday was like that. life would be simply delectable.

one of my 3 wishes would definitely be having these friends for life.

btw. i cant believe im like 19 alr. damn old.

haha wth. it was my birthday like 4 days ago and im blogging about it only now. it just goes to show how much importance i'm according it these days.

nah, its not that i think its not impt. its just that its not a big deal anymore. im just glad and contented that my friends have done something for me one way or another.

thank you 1408 for the SURPRISE birthday cake! honestly i was surprised. loll.

thank you erika and yizhen for getting the cake. and thank you anyone who tried so hard to keep it a surprise. LOL.

thank you all for the sweet and touching birthday msges i recieved

thank you ade, cheryl and shitien for being utterly laokui and singing happy birthday to a phone! loll. it was really very sweet. ((:

thanks dad and mum for the cash gift. very practical indeed. lol

thanks to those who made an effort to wish me a happy birthday on facebook.

okay. that should be all. and honestly, i know like almost everyone i've thank here will not be reading this but i'm typing it here anyway.

lol

oh and thank you god. for everything.

i have things i wanna say but i cant say here. which sucks because that defeats the purpose of a private blog. wth. lol.

nvm.

im falling ill i think. sore throat coming and i think im running a temperature. must be SIMUN honestly. its making me very sick. very very sick indeed.

hmm, im not sure what i want to put here.

i think i just wanna start by thanking the laokuis AGAIN. haha for things i'll tell you all when we're alone.

i cant wait to kbox tmr. and im really afraid SIMUN is going to screw it up for me. KNN. nono. kns. HAHAHA

i love fridays. its just the best day of the week. and the only day i get to hang out properly with the class.

need to get a haircut alr.

its getting ugly.

chem tuition in 10 mins time. less if she decides to come earlier. and im thinking its totally the wrong day to come, not after all the shit that happened today. its so disgusting i think i just wanna puke.

actually i really feel like puking but nvm. not the point..

i hate gurusharan singh for being a complete fker who didnt mark my essay for not attaching my plan and checklist. go die.

i hate dionne ng for kaobeikaobuing early in the morning for things so trivial it makes me wanna smack her face.

simun really irks me. REALLY REALLY irks me

okay... i need to talk about happier stuff.

there are things about the laokuis, jeremy and kell that i really appreciate. i really do. but im not going to say cause its going to seem so insignificant and silly. hahahaha.

i played a game with mc and got my hand looking real ugly now. so much for sadistic games. hahahaha

on the eve of a test filled day i actually dotaed. TERRIBLE.

in the end im posting this after my chem tuition. lol.

and the song im listening to now is so... quaint.

the lord really answers your prayers.

so be careful what you wish for.

but i do so love you dear lord.

i didnt like today. and no yizhen, im not saying it as if its your fault.

on the contrary, i think im a lousy friend who doesnt know what to do when people are upset except feel really sad and getting the urge to cry as well.

how pathetic can i get.

on the other hand, no matter how sad it was today, i hope you enjoyed the little birthday surprise today, kell. sorry we couldnt cel it on the actual day for you though. ):

caught the movie push with carine and erika. i liked it cause it was the typical guy kind of action show with special effects and all. but it was mind boggling at the same time.

i hope the rest did well. havent heard from them yet.

and im feeling honestly confused about stuff.

i dont ever know what i'll do without my friends. and even if it was sort of random, i still felt like i had to say it.

yizhen called me a starter. but i see it more as a busybody. yuck.

i think im a real busybody.

and i wonder why they call nosy people busybody. their body very busy meh? i know mine isnt. im still as fat and lazy as ever.

so maybe im not a busybody after all.

im just a nosy parker.

and i wonder why they call it a nosy parker. why cant it be lazy orcharder? or lazy gardener?

HAHAHAHA.

this is suppose to be a senseless post. i need to stop the emo stuff alr

sometimes its better to not have any idea what's the ending going to be.

honest.