Sometimes stuff just become increasingly meaningless. You look at the life you're living and ask what are you actually living for.

I've come to realize change is inevitable. No matter how much you abhor it and regardless of whatever futile resistance you put up. If circumstances would permit it, i would want to remain that naive and silly person i used to be. You know that kind of "i can live outside from reality no matter what they say and what they do" mentality? Yea, i yearn for that dumb mentality.

it simply would hurt much less than facing certain truths in your life.

but i guess it's time to stop those airy-fairy nonsense about idealism and deal with reality. It's not time to be a helpless weakling at the whims of everyone. You have to protect yourself because no one will do it for you. It's pointless to place all your hopes and dreams on people who will just disappoint. POINTLESS.

i hate what's happening to me. but i guess it cannot be helped. As much as i want things to be simple and fine and dandy. FAT HOPE lah.

damnit.

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yang: hahaha omg if it is the same guy, i think he should be placed on ads, warning people to keep away from him. its god damn gross. hahahaha.

The classification of disgusting includes acts that are gross and to a certain extent, disturbing. so tell me, how does one shave with a pair of scissors? Apart from which do it in a public place where the masses have access to your unholy act of removing facial hair with a pair of scissors! god bless us all.

However shocking it may be, i saw something worst and i deem myself a victim to a considerable amount of ill fortune to witness these sick and unnerving event. some old man actually used 2 coins as a form of tweezers to pull his facial hair out. and for the love of god, his facial hair was white and his skin was in all forms loose and sagging. so yes. tell me about the epitome of disgusting.

i swear if being disgusting was an unlegal and unlawful act, these men would be spending a PRETTY long time in remand prisons. but sadly and surely, this would then include buttscratchers and nosepickers, which would include nearly the entire population. ew.

SO PEOPLE, my plea to you! act with grace and proper behavioral mannerisms. keep those low, unsightly, upsetting acts to the bare minimum. BEHAVE IN A ETIQUETLY RESPONSIBLE MANNER. please?

hahaha. but seriously, it is damn gross. yuck.

anyway, the chalet rocked. although i would think twice before killing an ant again. and im sorry liwee for dragging you into my karmic consequence. and sihui and ade as well. sincere apologies. i promise to not kill excessively again. lol

breakfast sucked. i consider myself a loserish cook. haha. sorry guys.

and i will never be tanned. how sad. once a BA NA NA, always a BA NA NA. hahaha

dance revolution can be so fun when you have the entire arcade to yourself. hahaha. anyway i think we rocked right sihui? hahaha. we rocked as well as stones. hahahaha

so good luck to all my gals. i sound like a pimp. wahahahaa. but really good luck. and dont worry, i know you all can make it. every single one of you. :)

i had a nice conversation with ade today, and i really do realise that i am in every sense of the word, fortunate, to have friends like these. i can be myself with them, i dont have to hide anything and be whoever i want to be. hahaha. i really appreciate you guys. so thanks a lot. all of you.

thank you god.

okay, so maybe elliot yamin is another AI contestant. with little looks to boast about. but hey... his voice is... GOOOD.

WAIT FOR YOU.

if only i had a voice like him...


tough luck.

ahahaha.

off to fall asleep hearing "wait for you"

seriously... damn kick ass good.

omg. and its raining now and the song is so damn sad. what a nice oppurtunity to emo. haha too bad im over emo. nevermind, i shall emerse myself in the song.. ahhhh

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hey clara, merry xmas already?? lol. abit too early.. and talking about xmas, thats when my retests are. shit. lol.

rahhh.. ade, you wait.

i really want to get you out of my head. because everytime i see your face i feel frustrated. its bloody irritating to close my eyes and see your face. i dont want to remember anything! so do me a favour and get the hell out of my head!

i just had to get that out of my system.

damnit.

so i realize that some guys can be equally dumb as those typical bimbos on the street.
they talk like this.

guy A: heyy
guy B: heyy
guy A: whats up mannn
guy B: taking the bus mannn, you lehh
guy A: yeah mann.. same mann..
guy B: haha, really? what bus mannn
guy A: "insert bus no. here"
guy B: yeaaahh, same mann.. coool mann..

seriously, when i heard it, i could barely resist the urge to just push them onto the road. speak properly for heaven's sake. if not, dont speak at all. what losers.

haha funny.

tomorrow is OP. damn.

im fat and ugly. part 2 of the sad and fugly life of ben. whats new?

so tonight i'll wish for the moon to drop down. random.

bye.

yang: hahaha, jiayou jiayou. i know what it feels like to be piled under lots of work as well. lol. but i didnt make it out alive. ahaha.

yanz: heyy, haha, hELLO!!! long time no see.. how are you?? take care yea..