ah gong, i miss you. i really do

while giving erika a dressing down on how she should just stop letting her thoughts wander. and rmbing how lichu has the exact same problem. i cant help but realize how ironical(or hypocritical) that i suffer from the exact same problem and the near impossibility of extricating myself while going on and on about how they shouldnt do that.

i wonder what sort of person ppl see me as, sometimes.

the mind is a wondrous thing indeed.

NOT.

and ive got to admit, even though shinee is the best, most fabulous band ive ever known, it gets kinda boring listening to the same songs over and over again.
and i cant watch their videos anymore cause stupid youtube banned the account

urgh


lichu: hahaha your hair was okay after all right. see i told you so. and we should have another shopping trip again when we really actually BUY something. and we should go christmas shopping too man.

angel: oh, i nearly did, i was sitting on the floor and my eyes were just wide open and i got a serious case of goosebumps. SUPER scary. and damn wierd too. so yours also spoil ar? or really got smth. EE. HAHAHA. haha oh and it was cool meeting you that day (:

lummie: YAH, like wahlao, stupid scary drawer gave me the fright of my life lah. i really thought got ghost or smth. HAHAHA eh you felt earthquake b4! damnsian, i didnt feel it. HAHAHA. okay im abit mad and i havent seen you in ages..

oh, my butt hurts.

oh, my legs are sore.

oh, im so tired

oh, today has to be one of the best day of my life

oh

so its not that bad after all.

even if the weather was oh so bad.

hahahaha

was about to look for a new blogskin but while browsing thru the countless full of nonsense crap i gave up. then went back to look at my skin and realize there cant be a more accurate representation of me. that big fat lizard you see there. the only thing wrong being the two words that says "love him". too bad i cant change it if not it would be "beware, mons on the loose" haha

i guess thats just the way i am.

and im sick of it too.

lol.

i hate the hols, then again i find myself helpless without it.

mmhmm.

allow me to tell you a scary story, well even if you dont allow, i'll tell it anyway.
haha.

because of my ailing mother who is putting discreetly, currently not in her full strength, so being the extremely good son(my foot), i decided to help pack her room. of which i may add is a nearly unsurmountable task which requires me to trek over mountains of clothes, oceans of bedlinen and rivers of toys and milk bottles.

in the end, however, i managed the impossible making the room spick and span.

but to my horror, there was this drawer which remained left open. so i closed it and went on to continue picking up the nitty gritties. then i looked at the room again and saw that darn drawer opened again. i could have sworn i closed it but attributing it to my horribly failing memory, i decided to just ignore it and close it again.

and then as i was about to leave the room, everything was in place. that drawer was opened again.

something was very wrong.

so i closed the drawer and this time sat in front of the drawer to see what was wrong.

.

..

...

....

AND IT JUST BURST OPEN!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!





okok, so i may be a little extreme it didnt burst open lah.

but honestly, it really did move a little and then gradually open. which is really very terrifying for someone who was watching slowly and then seeing it slowly opening.


VERY FRIGHTENING.

oh i forgot to add a resolution, so actually

is the cupboard spoil lah.

hahaha,

but it was scary right.

anyway, today was fun shopping with lichu. hahaha, it was long overdue. even if we both had exhaustion creeping upon us. and lichu doesnt like her hair. hahaha, i think its ok lah.

and on a side note, my dad bought me a 8 gig memory card for the psp. really nice so now i can have more sleepless nights. not that im not thankful. hahaha, and im NOT being sarcastic

i dont know. but im tired of any emotional baggage i have been carrying for what seems like the longest time. i know i always lived by the one principle about follwing your heart, as corny as it may sound.

and im not regretting anything or am i wishing everything would have happened otherwise.

but sometimes i wish ben would just do away with all those jazz and just get on with life like a normal person would. worrying about Alevels, worrying about good scores, worry about the car i'll be driving, the job i'll have, blah blah etc etc.

im quite tired of dealing with everything that has to do with feelings. and i wished i relished those days when everything was numb.

feelings are overrated. for me at least.

things would be so much simpler if giving girls spa boiled eggs and old man pieces of gold would constitute the bulk of my life and whatever time i have left, i spend brushing my sheeps and cows and talking to them.

fantasy was always my kind of thing

when i plugged in my ipod in what seems like the longest time ever, ive realized my taste in music has changed in the strangest ways.

like how my first favourite song was from ateens who disbanded. i think. but at that time cant help falling in love with you was always in my head. hahaha

and then it was the sclub season, woah, in fact i still like them. again, another band which broke up. bah. never had a dream come true is still a classic "emo" piece. i think. hahaha

then it was cyndi wang age i think, cause of my sister who made me listen to honey. when you have to listen to it everytime you're in the car you sort of get hooked on it too. no matter how weird it sounds when i go "honey, honey"
urr...
waha.

and then the rnb age, woah, destiny's child, rihanna, jojo, mario vazquez and blah blah, then it sort of merged with mainstream pop, hahahaha. i still rmb how seriously odd everytime i sang buttons by the pussycat dolls.
real freaky. wahaha

AND THEN DBSK!!! which was seriously all naz's fault. hahaha, i still rmb hearing rising sun in the woodlands library for the first time and hooked ever since.

oh which means it was the kpop/jpop age already.
wah hen kuai.
hahahaha

the dbsk craze went on for so long i swear i can sing more than 10 songs in jap already. hahahaha.

AND last but not least, SHINee!! hahahaha, which was liying's fault.
omg, im afraid of starting an entire tirade of shinee. so better stop here

hahahaha.

okay fine i know this stuff is totally boring. but i feel like i just have to type this.



anyway, im still playing the psp but im getting really bored of the Polly pocket like characters with disproportionate heads and bodies, who never ever change their clothes, ee. and then i cast so many spells until i started casting them in my dream too.
which is taking it abit too far.

wingardium leviosa!

urr...


hahahahaha

lichu: how come? everyone's getting stomach problems, kell too, this is bad, take care of yourself okay. the weather has been really cold. hahaha. i say it like its a bad thing. lets go shop soon! once you're more free (:

cheryl k: HEY! wah long time no see! congrats in enduring that awful on hell of a shitty Alevels! lets have lots of fun now! hahaha, yeah kbox! OOOOO! and we can play that new game you devised!

okay, math tuition in 15 mins. new tutor and all, not exactly the ideal way to start a sunday. i say start, because i woke up at 12, hahaha. ah whatever, i just hope the tutor doesnt laugh at my hopelessly futile math power because according to me, 8 divided by 2 is E+3.

WAHA

ive decided to go on a crash diet again which means my precious 10 dollars that i spent buying some sumptous famous amos cookies will go to waste. the littlemisses are about to finish their Alevels, heh, that would mean more kboxing activities in time to come. oooo. hahaha

im really not looking forward to math tuition. ee.

and somehow, i dont know how exactly, things are different already. i think. and its not really agreeing with me, just like how yest's porridge is churning in my stomach now. hahaha, what a fantastic anology.

waha.

haha shit, okay, i know i've been obsessing over SHINee like for the longest time alr. and suddenly i just feel like i've got to admit dbsk's voices are stronger. okay there, i said it.

bah, now i feel like i've let SHINee down.

but i still like shinee more! WOOOOOO

and, its back to harvest moon now. im kinda tired of swinging and slashing away at monsters that look like cat fishes gone wrong and ugly pig like monsters that resembles me.

lol

omf, shineesubs account got suspended! and where the hell will i get to watch shinee eng subbed videos on youtube. THE HORROR. how can this actually happen? WHY?? those blind, cockeyed, stupid, brainless idiots should just go bug some other copyright infringing stuff you know and just leave shinee alone. urgh.

and suddenly i feel so deprived.

AH.

sl yesterday, and i never thought i'll say this but recess should be banned, at least in ntps it should. and they should focus more on languages because the children were communicating in shrieks. and trust me, young boys have amazingly high voices. ANYWAY, hahaha, other than that, it was great spending time with the kids.

lunch and arcade after with 1408. which was real enjoyable.

it was hopscotch with erika and ff later and ben and jerry after. which was again all lessthanthree.

i was dead tired when i got home. and of course when you're forced to watch JoJo's circus just to keep your sister entertained, you will fall asleep. because it is absolutely boing to hear how jojo has a pet lion called goliath. and btw, goliath doesnt eat ppl, so apparently the kids program is all for keeping lions as pets.

poppycock!

HAHAAHAHA

anyway, it was great to spend the day out.

and yizhen's good news is hardly good news. in fact i swear next year will be an extremely unpleasant one. god bless me.

and im going to ostracize youtube. BAH

chenting: NO! shinee looks good with or without hair. they are just that good! HAHAHA but yes, i would like them with hair too. lol. ooo, okay, you can stow me away on some ship and send me to korea! hehehe

yizhen: omg, yizhen, didnt i tell you, im with shinee now! you are going to see less and less of me, im very busy listening to them recording their all new album, oh but im trying to convince them to sg so i can meet up with you all! update you soon!!
HAHA!!!!

im feeling a need to rant.

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well, if you were a victim of my continuous ranting, you would probably understand the whole SIGN language. yeah, its a pun, to express the mounting feelings of discontent and frustration.

not to mention a whole lot of angry.

hahaha shit. okay. enough ranting.

SHINee news time. the upcoming, or rather already widely popular korean pop band has just had a video for their latest song AMIGO. at this point in time, i guess the most appropriate reaction would be, WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

and wtf, you know they have the karaoke version in their "kboxes" alr. and stupid pathetic, lousy, deprived singapore still thinks fergalicious is New. wth. why didnt i treasure my time in Korea. ah.

fri was kinda nice i guess. if only we could have spent the time looking for blah, looking at new clothes instead. or maybe went kbox singing or something, or even watch hsm3.

if i could sum up my life with three letters it would simply have to be

KNS

something's wrong with me today. and im too old to blame it on raging hormones, i think. short fuses, quick temper, sharp language and monosyllabic things have the least association with me. but today i manage to achieve all of that.

i would like to say im nothing but a F*ed up mistake whose life is one mistake after another. this repititive pattern ultimately manifests into a damned creature whose sole purpose in life is to bring misery to everyone including himself.

i should probably clarify that im not a nobody. because a monster isnt nobody, a monster is something worse than a nobody.

the word exist should not even exist in my vocabulary..

the more appropriate and suitable words would be annihilate, extinction, plague, bane, and any other degratory terms you can pile on me. heaps and heaps of them.

sorry world.

owing to the morbid and distasteful nature of the post, i shall attempt to paraphrase it in a more comical manner

if benjamin were in a movie,
he would play the character that everyone runs away from, he would be the best zombie with a man-eating score of 24978253789283. he will of course in the end be vanquish by the classic hero, dying a gruesome death that is all so gratifying to the viewers, who will cheer when he's gone.

if benjamin's life were a book,
it would be priced at a all new record breaking price of 10c who will be sold by the peddlar who sits there selling similar items like a paper clip from 1973 and a staple from 1876(they are all the same, rubbish), of which a awfully kind soul will buy out of goodwill. he will then throw the book away in the next ten seconds, at the same time cursing and swearing that he was idiotic enough to buy it.

if benjamin were a drink,
it would be the next biochemical weapon developed by terrorists to destroy the whole world. it would start a worldwide epidemic that turns everyone into me(the horror). you would see my name on testube bottles in secret laboratories that says incurable terminal disease only to realise that the cure simply requires you to wish really hard that benjamin will disappear.*wish*wish*wish* tadahh

if benjamin were a nightmare,
wait. i already am.


hahaahahahaha

lets not talk for another week. i will enjoy it very much.

haha

"It's OK, Euphe. Someday you'll have a ponytail as beautiful as mine."


very funny. really