i wonder when can i eva find de happiness i lost... now i question myself whether i did de right thing b4... but since i hv alr lost it.. might as well try gettin over it.. sighs
dearest frens hu have awaez been there for me, i thank u all veri much.. all of u make my life so much easier to live and i feel realli blessed.. but sadly i cannot giv anithin in return to all of u.. and for dat i feel ashamed.. but there is nth i have dat i can offer... all i can do is pray and take comfort in knowing dat de lord will answer my prayers...
dearest lord, i do so love u, but right now i feel realli distanced from u.. i no longer noe de right things to do.. within me a battle of my own happiness and the happiness of others rages and i cannot do anithin about it.. i can nv be so selfless to sacrifice all i hv for others... but i want to.. im realli torn in between doing the right thing and the easy thing... i can awaez give up and care juz for myself.. but i cant do that, but neither can i sae i give up all i have for others... wad am i supposed to do??
dearest family, i thank u for simply being there.. though i may not show it, i still do love all of u.. its just de recent spates of events have left me helpless and weak.. i no longer hv the strength to put up a farce at home. i cant pretend to be happi... so forgive me.
my dearest new memb of de family, i do noe dat i love u veri much, and as an elder brother all i want is for u to be happi, but i no longer trust myself to even help u.. im afraid that u will lose ur happiness but im also afraid to lose u.. if u can, tell me wad i shud do.. how do i choose?
dearest me, can u please find the positivity u once held, the energy and strength to smile so dat others can fell happi around u.. can u please find the faith that u once held so strong, the belief dat everything is wonderful and worth loving. please piece ur dreams and hopes together again, please start laughing, smiling, loving, dreaming, believing, hoping.. please please please please..
please and dearests [aollovin]
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Friday, September 29, 2006
i can describe the exact way i feel wif just a song.. i think its realli cool how i can find a song dat can realli describes everything i feel..
Torn [letoya luckett]
(verse 1:)
a part of me wants to leave you alone.
a part of me wants for you to come home.
a part of me says i'm living a lie.(and i'm better off without you.)
a part of me says to think it through.
a part of me says i'm over you.
a part of me wants to say goodbye.
a part of me is asking why...
(pre-chorus:)
a part of me wants to leave.
but a part of me wants to be here with you.
and everytime i think we're over and done you do something to get me back loving you.
and you got me just torn.
(chorus:)
torn in between the two. (oh yeah)
cuz i really wanna be with you.
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (i really want to be with you)
leave you alone.leave you alone.
and you got me just torn in between the two. (in between the two)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (you alone)
leave you alone.
leave you alone.
(verse 2:)
there were no issues when we started out.
it was cool.
it was everything that love's about.
but something happened.
plus i feel it's over now.(cuz i can't understand you now.)
now oh(i just can't understand you now.)
a part of me says it's all my fault.
a part of me says "he ain't what you want."
a part of me says to get my bags.
a part of me says i can't do that.
(pre-chorus:)
a part of me wants to leave.
but a part of me wants to be here with you.
and everytime i think that it's over and done you make me fall back in love.
you got me just torn.
(chorus:)
torn in between the two. (between the two)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone.(you alone)
leave you alone.
leave you alone.
and you got me just torn in between the two. (torn in between the two)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (really wanna be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (telling me i should leave)
leave you alone. (alone)
leave you alone. (alone)
(bridge:)
so many times i... (i was ready to go)
so many times i... (had my foot out the door)
so many times i... (i thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man)
now i'm sitting here and i'm so confused.
cuz i keep fighting myself for you. (i don't know how much more i can take but i can't feel this way)
(you got me so torn)
(chorus:)
torn in between the two. (oh yeah)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (i really wanna be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone.
leave you alone.
leave you alone. (but i don't know)
and you got me just torn in between the two. (should i stay or should i go)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (i don't know)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (you alone)
leave you alone.
leave you alone. (you alone)
and you got me just torn in between the two. (i'm torn in between the two)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (i really wanna be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (but i don't know)
leave you alone.
leave you alone.
(repeat 3x)
and you got me just torn in between the two.
cuz i really wanna be with you.
but something's telling me i should leave you alone.
leave you alone.
leave you alone.
realli torn [aollovin]
Torn [letoya luckett]
(verse 1:)
a part of me wants to leave you alone.
a part of me wants for you to come home.
a part of me says i'm living a lie.(and i'm better off without you.)
a part of me says to think it through.
a part of me says i'm over you.
a part of me wants to say goodbye.
a part of me is asking why...
(pre-chorus:)
a part of me wants to leave.
but a part of me wants to be here with you.
and everytime i think we're over and done you do something to get me back loving you.
and you got me just torn.
(chorus:)
torn in between the two. (oh yeah)
cuz i really wanna be with you.
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (i really want to be with you)
leave you alone.leave you alone.
and you got me just torn in between the two. (in between the two)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (you alone)
leave you alone.
leave you alone.
(verse 2:)
there were no issues when we started out.
it was cool.
it was everything that love's about.
but something happened.
plus i feel it's over now.(cuz i can't understand you now.)
now oh(i just can't understand you now.)
a part of me says it's all my fault.
a part of me says "he ain't what you want."
a part of me says to get my bags.
a part of me says i can't do that.
(pre-chorus:)
a part of me wants to leave.
but a part of me wants to be here with you.
and everytime i think that it's over and done you make me fall back in love.
you got me just torn.
(chorus:)
torn in between the two. (between the two)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone.(you alone)
leave you alone.
leave you alone.
and you got me just torn in between the two. (torn in between the two)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (really wanna be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (telling me i should leave)
leave you alone. (alone)
leave you alone. (alone)
(bridge:)
so many times i... (i was ready to go)
so many times i... (had my foot out the door)
so many times i... (i thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man)
now i'm sitting here and i'm so confused.
cuz i keep fighting myself for you. (i don't know how much more i can take but i can't feel this way)
(you got me so torn)
(chorus:)
torn in between the two. (oh yeah)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (i really wanna be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone.
leave you alone.
leave you alone. (but i don't know)
and you got me just torn in between the two. (should i stay or should i go)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (i don't know)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (you alone)
leave you alone.
leave you alone. (you alone)
and you got me just torn in between the two. (i'm torn in between the two)
cuz i really wanna be with you. (i really wanna be with you)
but something's telling me i should leave you alone. (but i don't know)
leave you alone.
leave you alone.
(repeat 3x)
and you got me just torn in between the two.
cuz i really wanna be with you.
but something's telling me i should leave you alone.
leave you alone.
leave you alone.
realli torn [aollovin]
Thursday, September 28, 2006
up till now i stil dunno if if i can over get over it.. its de right thing to do but nobody eva siad it was de easiest thing to do.. nobody lyks losing a loved one.. neither do i.. but if its de onli thing dat can ensure happiness for my di den i will willinli do it... i juz wish it din make me so upset..
i realli wish dat i could just drown out all my sorrows.. not wif alcohol(please NO!) i mean can use drinks not?? hahas.. anibody heard of drownin sorrows by drinkin coke or pepsi?? mayb ribena? lols.. nahs dun think it will happen.. im gonna hv to face it in de end..
im so confused.. im lost and i realli dunno wad to do
sclub (say goodbye)
chorus:
sometimes goodbye though it hurts,
in ur heart,
is de only way for destiny.
sumtimes goodbye though it hurts,
is de only way for u and me.
though its de hardest thing to sae,
i miss u all in everyway.
so say goodbye,
but dun u cry,
coz true love never dies
sad and confused [aollovin]
i realli wish dat i could just drown out all my sorrows.. not wif alcohol(please NO!) i mean can use drinks not?? hahas.. anibody heard of drownin sorrows by drinkin coke or pepsi?? mayb ribena? lols.. nahs dun think it will happen.. im gonna hv to face it in de end..
im so confused.. im lost and i realli dunno wad to do
sclub (say goodbye)
chorus:
sometimes goodbye though it hurts,
in ur heart,
is de only way for destiny.
sumtimes goodbye though it hurts,
is de only way for u and me.
though its de hardest thing to sae,
i miss u all in everyway.
so say goodbye,
but dun u cry,
coz true love never dies
sad and confused [aollovin]
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
been bloggin lesser recentli.. i dunno if its becoz of the growing workload and stress i and everyone are facing.. or is it becoz im juz simply not in de mood?
told my mum all my results on mondae.. she was fumin mad.. said sum pretty nasty and mean stuff.... nearly caused me to hyperventilate.. ahh wells.. its not like i din expect her.. i alr knew wad she was gg to sae aniwae..
budden.. (i realli have to thank my tuition teacher and god) my mum went to call my tuition teacher to ask if de paper i did was realli tuff.. and my tuition teacher said it wasnt and den she went on to speak up for me.. she said i had realli improved and have been constanly workin hard for my math.. de reason dat im not doing well is bcoz i have a serious psychological prob(lols.. yah im mad), she said i was too nervous and i kept focusin on how badly i wud do and it became a self fulfillin prophecy.. and den she also told my mum not to freak out and play it cool wif me.. she also told my mum dat i shud learn how to relax bcoz she said it was no longer a workin hard problem.. coz i alr did and i knew my stuff.. but i freak out durin de xams..
so now my mum is totalli not mad at me.. shes realli realli nice to me now.. she even told me not to worri bout de firz 3 mths.. cannot den cannot lors.. nvm lah.. dose were de exact words.. but sumhow it made me feel worse.. i feel lyk i let her down.. oh man.. i realli wanna work hard..
durin de past 3 daes, i had a veri troubling time too.. my friend was seriousli messed up by relationships probs and he realli nded hlp and sumone to share his probs.. well dat was pretty much all i could do.. it was realli saddening for me to see my friend so sad and all i can do is juz listen.. i realli wanna do more.. well i gues i did and it worked
i told de lord dat i wud give up de most impt thing to me if he were to let my friend and his gf be happi together.. hahas.. it worked.. de lord realli answered my prayer.. thankew so much my lord.. budden now.. i feel im about to lose de most impt thing to me alr.. it realli makes me damn depressed but i noe i will tell myself its worth it so dat sumone else can be happi instead... i juz wish it din hurt so much..
i realli hope de bth of u can stay happi together... god bless =)
not realli been in a happi mood recentli.. maybe dis is just part of life where we go thru a realli dark time.. but i noe dat dis darkness wun last foreva and happiness awaits me as long as i keep livin and try stayin as positive as possible..
(life goes on "leAnn rimes")
Oooh, life goes on, and it’s only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye cuz you cant go back
Oooh, its a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where Im at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I cant go back
loves!!! [aollovin]
told my mum all my results on mondae.. she was fumin mad.. said sum pretty nasty and mean stuff.... nearly caused me to hyperventilate.. ahh wells.. its not like i din expect her.. i alr knew wad she was gg to sae aniwae..
budden.. (i realli have to thank my tuition teacher and god) my mum went to call my tuition teacher to ask if de paper i did was realli tuff.. and my tuition teacher said it wasnt and den she went on to speak up for me.. she said i had realli improved and have been constanly workin hard for my math.. de reason dat im not doing well is bcoz i have a serious psychological prob(lols.. yah im mad), she said i was too nervous and i kept focusin on how badly i wud do and it became a self fulfillin prophecy.. and den she also told my mum not to freak out and play it cool wif me.. she also told my mum dat i shud learn how to relax bcoz she said it was no longer a workin hard problem.. coz i alr did and i knew my stuff.. but i freak out durin de xams..
so now my mum is totalli not mad at me.. shes realli realli nice to me now.. she even told me not to worri bout de firz 3 mths.. cannot den cannot lors.. nvm lah.. dose were de exact words.. but sumhow it made me feel worse.. i feel lyk i let her down.. oh man.. i realli wanna work hard..
durin de past 3 daes, i had a veri troubling time too.. my friend was seriousli messed up by relationships probs and he realli nded hlp and sumone to share his probs.. well dat was pretty much all i could do.. it was realli saddening for me to see my friend so sad and all i can do is juz listen.. i realli wanna do more.. well i gues i did and it worked
i told de lord dat i wud give up de most impt thing to me if he were to let my friend and his gf be happi together.. hahas.. it worked.. de lord realli answered my prayer.. thankew so much my lord.. budden now.. i feel im about to lose de most impt thing to me alr.. it realli makes me damn depressed but i noe i will tell myself its worth it so dat sumone else can be happi instead... i juz wish it din hurt so much..
i realli hope de bth of u can stay happi together... god bless =)
not realli been in a happi mood recentli.. maybe dis is just part of life where we go thru a realli dark time.. but i noe dat dis darkness wun last foreva and happiness awaits me as long as i keep livin and try stayin as positive as possible..
(life goes on "leAnn rimes")
Oooh, life goes on, and it’s only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye cuz you cant go back
Oooh, its a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where Im at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I cant go back
loves!!! [aollovin]
Thursday, September 21, 2006
TSK TSK TSK.. been such a long time since i last updated... hmm 4 daes.. well not realli inde mood for bloggin lahs.. and i seriousli so dun wan to talk about my results...
well been realli realli depressed and worried for de past few daes.. includin todae.. i realli have no idea how to break my horrible results to my parents.. of coz partly is bcoz i noe dat they will be so angry and disappointed and they gg to keep harpin on how much tuition they hv to pay.. blah blah blah... but i also feel guilty for not being able to improve from my mid year.. i promised myself i wud do better.. but i din.. in fact i did worst..
but the most frustratin thing is dat i put in far more effort den wad i put for mid yr.. i work so hard for my chem and amath.. and yet dis are my two worst subjects.. why is dis so??!! its very demoralizing and disappointin to see hard work doesnt pay off...
i shall not mention results animore.. instead i wanna thank my frens for being there to help and support me.. wifoout u guys.. i wud moz probably hv sunk into depression and devastation..
my sun nu, reuben, taikoon hu were mostly arnd me when i got back my results.. u guys nv said a single thing to bring me down even though my sun nu got so good results.. lols.. so thankew alls.. and of coz for de encouragin words..
and i also wanna thank loy, fab, ck and ziq for showin me concern... although i may not hv told u my probs.. i realli do appreciate u all askin... of coz thanks to fab for being willin to listen to my incessant complaints and nonsense, sry if i bored u to death.. hahas.. and thx to loy hus singing made me forget my probs temporarily.. although ur phone pissed me off.. LOLS!!! and ck hu made me rmb de lessons i forgot and ziq for juz being there.. hahas.. thank u all veri much!!
of coz thank u my lord for answerin my prayer and tellin me u still love me, i will nv forget wad u hv dine for me.. until now ure de onli one hu can make me feel realli safe and secure.. smth which i hvn felt for a long time.. i do so love u.. praise de lord!!!
kaes.. typin dis post made me a lil happier.. lols.. tmr things.. hu cares.. lets juz care bout todae man.. my lord, i leave my life in ur hands.. and i noe dat my life will be beautiful!!!
loves!!! [aollovin]
well been realli realli depressed and worried for de past few daes.. includin todae.. i realli have no idea how to break my horrible results to my parents.. of coz partly is bcoz i noe dat they will be so angry and disappointed and they gg to keep harpin on how much tuition they hv to pay.. blah blah blah... but i also feel guilty for not being able to improve from my mid year.. i promised myself i wud do better.. but i din.. in fact i did worst..
but the most frustratin thing is dat i put in far more effort den wad i put for mid yr.. i work so hard for my chem and amath.. and yet dis are my two worst subjects.. why is dis so??!! its very demoralizing and disappointin to see hard work doesnt pay off...
i shall not mention results animore.. instead i wanna thank my frens for being there to help and support me.. wifoout u guys.. i wud moz probably hv sunk into depression and devastation..
my sun nu, reuben, taikoon hu were mostly arnd me when i got back my results.. u guys nv said a single thing to bring me down even though my sun nu got so good results.. lols.. so thankew alls.. and of coz for de encouragin words..
and i also wanna thank loy, fab, ck and ziq for showin me concern... although i may not hv told u my probs.. i realli do appreciate u all askin... of coz thanks to fab for being willin to listen to my incessant complaints and nonsense, sry if i bored u to death.. hahas.. and thx to loy hus singing made me forget my probs temporarily.. although ur phone pissed me off.. LOLS!!! and ck hu made me rmb de lessons i forgot and ziq for juz being there.. hahas.. thank u all veri much!!
of coz thank u my lord for answerin my prayer and tellin me u still love me, i will nv forget wad u hv dine for me.. until now ure de onli one hu can make me feel realli safe and secure.. smth which i hvn felt for a long time.. i do so love u.. praise de lord!!!
kaes.. typin dis post made me a lil happier.. lols.. tmr things.. hu cares.. lets juz care bout todae man.. my lord, i leave my life in ur hands.. and i noe dat my life will be beautiful!!!
loves!!! [aollovin]
Monday, September 18, 2006
todae.. i think i hv wad is known as SCSAS (Self Centered Selfish Asshole Syndrome), when i kena dis syndrome.. i wud start thinkin alot of myself.. think of my own happiness, think of how bad ppl has treated me, how bludy F***ed up everything is... when actualli it isnt de case..
i hate this kinda daes... probably partly due to mondae blues.
my lord.. sumtimes i find it soo hard to focus on other ppls happiness instead of my own.. i find it veri hard to go all way out juz to make ppl happi. i realli wish sumone wud take care of me for a change.. i realli wish sumone wud actualli giv a damn how i feel.. i wish sumone be there to let me noe dat im not alone.. but nahs... i nv eva get dat.. its too good to be true... ahh wells.. i think this paragraph is just de effect of my sickness
sumtimes i wonder whether wad i work so hard for actualli goes thru or am i just seen as sum kinda hypocritical shit dat tryin to play goody two shoes and act holy and all.. well i seriousli dunno...
todaes post is so all about me.. and its damn sickenin.. i hope it wears off soon.. so i can go bck to my life... im sorri about wad ive said above and i think i may regret writing this ltr.. budden.. now i feel realli shitty.. maybe i'll come delete dis post ltr.. ahh wells.. todae, i hate myself..
i hate this kinda daes... probably partly due to mondae blues.
my lord.. sumtimes i find it soo hard to focus on other ppls happiness instead of my own.. i find it veri hard to go all way out juz to make ppl happi. i realli wish sumone wud take care of me for a change.. i realli wish sumone wud actualli giv a damn how i feel.. i wish sumone be there to let me noe dat im not alone.. but nahs... i nv eva get dat.. its too good to be true... ahh wells.. i think this paragraph is just de effect of my sickness
sumtimes i wonder whether wad i work so hard for actualli goes thru or am i just seen as sum kinda hypocritical shit dat tryin to play goody two shoes and act holy and all.. well i seriousli dunno...
todaes post is so all about me.. and its damn sickenin.. i hope it wears off soon.. so i can go bck to my life... im sorri about wad ive said above and i think i may regret writing this ltr.. budden.. now i feel realli shitty.. maybe i'll come delete dis post ltr.. ahh wells.. todae, i hate myself..
Sunday, September 17, 2006
WOAH YEST WAS GREATS.. lols.. fabian, aloy, ck, terin, her fren and me went to Escape. it was funs! but haziq wasnt able to go with us.. sobs but dun wry man, we sure plan another trip where we can ALL go.. =)
supposed to meet at lot 1s mac at 8.15.. i woke up at 6.20 lahs.. due to a veri bad fit of coughing.. and after about 15 mins of vomiting and coughin.. decided it was to late to go bck to slp so went to get ready instead.. as usual super kiasu me brought one set of extra clothes and an extra shirt for emergency uses.. den went to de bus stop to go lot 1 alr
met aloy and terin firz at de mrt station.. lols.. dey were lyk walkin pass me den i went up to dem and looked at them den dey were lyk "oh its u arhs" LOLS!!! kaes.. den we go mac.. and waited for de rest..
ck and fab arrived not too long ltr.. dey were super friendli and they lyk shook hands wif me.. hahas.. in case u din noe, we din order anithing in mac and we were juz enjoyin de air con and seats.. i think de manager were pissed wif us man... tsktsk.. but it was damn farnie.. den we waitd quite long for terins fren.. hahas.. but its ok lahs.. we left mac at bout 8.45 den go cck mrt station.. and on our way to Escape
i realli dun nd to describe out train journey right? but i'll mention sum funni stuff during it..
1. sumbody were scannin de two girls wif sum kinda sicko look, and den i lyk nanny lyk dat ask them come and stand furthur away.. LOLS!! but dat man is disgustin!!
2. fabian carried a bag dat looks suspicious, i told aloy i shud probably call de cops.. LOLS!!
3. when fabian and ck sat together playin my ngage, they looked realli compatible.. so i askd terin and aloy to snap photos.. alas, ck realised.. LOLS!!
hahas.. pretty farnie huhs? lols
we reached pasir ris lyk 1hr ltr.. den took a bus to escape.. de bus was koyak lors.. no air con and looked super old.. LOLS! (girls are vain, they rather stand being hot and stuffy den open de window and mess thier hairdo. LOLS!!!!!) reached Escape bout 5mins ltr.. and we proceeded to pay the tickets
16.50... shud hv brough my mum dbs card.. got 15% discount.. >.< nvm... paid and enter... de firz ride we spotted was the choo choo train.. meant for 3-4 yrs old.. but wes till took it aniwae.. de person in charge of de ride was laughin at us lehs!!! hahas.. we were laughin lyk mad at ourselves too!! hey did i mention it was HOT!!! aloy sat in de front of de train and rang de bell lyk an ice cream uncle.. (yes uncle i wud lyk butterscotch please...LOLS!!) den we alightd decidin to be less retarded and go to de safety deposit box..
stored all my stuff and paid one buck.. and den i realised i FORGOT MY MONEY!!! paid one mor dollar juz for moi money... kinda dumb, well im dumb.. so i guess it matches.. hahas terin said wanna go take de turnin turnin ride.. fab din wanna sit.. so i accompany him go take other rides.. we decided to go bumper boats.. and there was lyk only two of us.. lols.. spray him abit onli lahs.. im nt evil.. hahas.. den we stopped and went to wait for the rest. budden they were takin it again.. so we decided to take it too.. ooo it was scaree.. fab closed his eyes.. but i think it was realli nice of him to take it wif me.. when he din wan to in de firz place.. thankews!! actualli it was pretty shiok.. den b4 de ride i and fab were lyk " how long is de ride?" den de guy said less den one min den fab was lyk hes lying lors.. de las time i cnted was one and a half mins!!.. lols.. so farnie
den after dat we went to take the family coaster and i sat wif ck.. heys de coaster was quite fun.. but it wasnt meant for our age lahs.. LOLS.. den we decided to each take one carriage coz there was juz nice six of us.. ahahas.. de girl laugh at us.. but she was nice too.. she sumore ask us take again.. lols!! kaes.. we wered oe wif it.. and proceeded to the......
... AEROPLANES!!! LOLS!!! another kiddy ride..!! again six aeroplanes and six of us, so each one one carriage.. we were lyk makin jokes on how we were lyk flyin planes.. and i suggested we sing a song.. "i believe i can fly" budden onli me and terin sing a few lines de rez all lyk quiet.. hahas.. i luaghed at myself den decided to shut up.. den enough wif the kiddy rides lahs.. terin, her fren, ck and loy want go take pirate ship. but fab wantd to take smth else.. so i accompany him lors..
but i was thirsty so we go to burger king to get sum drinks.. fab went toilet wif specific instructions on not to buy drinks for him, but being de evil me, i stil bought it aniwae.. lols.. den he was lyk " why u lyk dat??!!" hahas.. im evil arent i? i think i made him feel guilty.. but dat wasnt my intention, i mean we go out hv fun, nth wrong wif wantin to treat ppl to drinks mahs.. hu cares bout de money man.. we went there to hv fun!!
den we go take ferris wheel, we squeeze into one carriage and den de guy was lyk eyeing us.. hello!!! we arent gay lah!!! we just wantd to talk lors..!! how to talk in separate carriages!! i asked fab to sing.. LOLS budden in de end we ended up talkin bout singers instead.. hahas.. heck it was fun!!.. we saw the other 4 takin de pirate ship twice lahs.. lols.. den we got down and headed to the pirate ship
den terin they all still wanna take again lors.. though durin de third time.. aloy kena SEASICK!!! he looked realli pale.. i think 3 times is just too much for him lahs.. i think it quite affectd him thruout de dae.. hmms..
den we go hauntd house.. make sum silly jokes wif the guy in charge.. i was super scared since terins fren told me suddenli will hv ppl chasin us.. eee... i was lyk grabbin ck as i walked lahs.. eeee... budden suddenli realise nbdy was gg to chase us lah.. so i relax... a little little bit.. lols.. and den we got out.. wif a funni accident, at de last part, i think de gurls chiong lahs.. and dey poked aloy in de eye and hit fabs head!!! they were lyk " WAH LAOS!!! OUCH!!!" and den i was lyk "WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!" okay i admit.. im a tad bit sadistic!! aloy was lyk holdin his eye cursing at terin. LOLS!!!
okae den we decided to go hmms.. i cant rmb!! was it bumper boat or go kart.. i think it was go kart.. fab and ck din take.. so they go take other stuff.. we waited after a long queue lahs.. and durin de queue, aloy ask me sing unfaithful.. i was out of tune!! lols!!! ohhhs and aloy realli has a nice voice.. woots lahs.. well of coz man, hes my shifu!! den we took de cars. and den when i turn arnd de my car went horizontal lahs!! and i blocked de way.. LOLS!! so embarassin!! did i mention i was dead last.. sad lors.. hahas..
kaes.. den we got take bumper boat.. sprayed each other wet silly, i wasnt too wet though.. lols.. but terin and her fren were soaked.. lols.. so they go take de spinnin ride.. i cant rmb de name!! to dry their hair.. i also go chou re nou goa nd take wif them, de other three guys din, they went to take other rides.. during de ride, terin was lyk tellin me to sign ole.. den we realli sang while her fren slept in de ride!!! super funni!!! took the ride twice den got dwn.. den we go find de guys.. realised they took the lying dwn spinnin thing.. they were dizzy man.. lols.. but they looked ill so the girls decided they dinw anna take animor.. and i cant take it alone lahs.. so we went to eat alr
during eats.. i had a cough so i cudnt share de drinks so aloy went to get a small cup and boy is it small lahs.. den he pour for me.. so nice right?? hahas... realised fabian had super digestive system.. he could finish eatin and go to de toilet straightawy to pas it out.. INCREDIBLE... 0.0
lols den we go take other rides..
i think if i were to describe everything else.. this post would be far too long!!!!!!!!! so i think i shall leave de rest in my memory instead.. sry guys!!
just b4 we were abt to leave, aloy and me were alone on a bench so he asked me to sing b4 de rest got here.. so i sang lors.. "something about u" by jamelia.. i think i sang badly.. hahas.. den fab and ck came join us.. and dey sae dey missed me singin.. okaes fine den,, i shall sing again.. still terrible if u ask me.. den it was fab's turn to sing!!!! woots.. it was nice, he sang unfaithful by rihanna.. i think i shud bai him wei shi also( get him to be my shifu)
den we left for pasir ris shoppin centre at bout 3+ coz aloy had tuition and he nded to go home.. was suppose to go home wif loy, coz if he go home alone veri sian lors.. budden ck followed him home, so i follow fabian go window shoppin.. budden pasir ris shoppin centre was PATHETIC!!! so i suggested we go simei east point instead.. so off i and fab went.. and den.... we got off de wrong stop!!! we stopped at tampiness lahs!! den iw as lyk ehhh.. is dis simei???? LOLS!!! den we realised it was tampiness!! den we ran up de escalator.. which for u fyi was gg down.. LOLS!! we laughed lyk siao!!! ahahas.. so farnie lahs
den dis time we got off at de right stop.. and we go east point!! lols.. de firz place we went was a clothes shop which along de way fab was tellin me his story.. it was a rather sad one.. hais.. nvm.. lets not mention sad stuff on a happi dae.. den i realized after dat dae fab did not realize we were in a clothes store!! LOLS!!!! he said he was too engrossed in tellin me his story.. lols.. so cartoon lors!!
den we go walk walk and found a realli realli big lan shop.. woahs.. but fab said if i din play, he also dun wan.. den i say i juz watch.. he also sae dun wan.. den i sae i treat him.. he din want it even more.. so we decided to go see other lan shops.. maybe got cheaper price.. den in de end de other one was too small and xuper packed.. den we go arcade lors.. along the way.. we exchange mor stories and experiences, asked mor qs, crap, tell jokes. lols.. FUN! den at de arcade.. we changed 8 bucks.. actualli fab got the card!! budden spoil!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!! so we had to buy a new one.. den we go play racing.. i saboed fab lahs... i keep dying lors.. den he also got to stop playin.. man i suck big time lah... de we go play wrestlin.. so cute.. de graphics were of coz nth to boast about.. but the punchin kickin slammin was pretty fun i guess.. but we lost all de rounds though.. ahahas.. de we go play sumore racin and again i saboed fab.. oh yah we go hit mouse too.. hahas.. got twenty tickets LOLS!!! so fun!! lame yes i admit but fun!!!! LOLS!! btw fab is realli nice lors.. he kept playin games dat de bth of us cud play.. but i onli payed two bucks lehs.. but he still insisted.. thanks so much!!! den we went off to exchange tickets. we had twenty which was enuff for two jelly burgers.. budden!!! got one veri NICE POPO!!! she see we so lil tickets she give us 100 lahs!!!! SO NICE!!!!!! it wa such a great feelin lors.. to see such kindness and niceness.. smth strangers hv nv gave me for a veri long time alr.. i hope dat popo will stay healthy foreva and live tilll a ripe old age mans.. she soo nice.. oh yahs so fab and i exchanged for a potato chips and sum stick biscuits.
and den we decided to go popular.. (btwi duno whether i gt the order right or not.. sry fab!!) go chk out de discs there.. and den fab and i laughd so much when we were talkin bout room raiders!!! OMG IT WAS SOOO FARNIE!!! i seriuosly hv to watch it mor often, SEX ROTATIONAL TOY!!!!! AHHAHAHAAAHHHHHAHAHAHAH!!!!!
after de massive fits of laughter we went to pet safari and den another joke dat made me laughed lyk CRAZY AGAIN!!! but i shall not post the joke coz its kinda mean.. but fab noes wad it is.. im referin to the jeans thing!!! LOLS!!! oh yah de clothes shop we firz entered we went to chk it again.. man the jeans were dirt cheap and damn cool.. love them man..
and den back to animal safari.. saw hamsters which fab wantd to buy for his gf.. they were so cute lahs.. but fab say buy another time lyk for a christmas gift ... ehh de nxt time u go buy rmb ask me go also kaes!!?? lols.. denwe see mor animals, i marvelled at de way cute golden retreivers which fab cud enjoy becoz dey were in cages.. hes scared of dogs..
okae! bout time we left alr.. damn thirsty... so we go burger king again!! hahas.. i bought a coke.. and den fab bought a chicken sandwich.. i realli wonder where all de food goes to.. im damn full lors.. but he can still wolf down a sandwich and say hes still not full!!! omg!! and hes onli 45 kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! i wana kill myself.. im so fat lahs...!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kaes den we headed home, board de mrt and den we met terin and her fren hu juz finish playin at escape.. so coincidental... hahas.. it was peak period and there wer so many ppl.. no seats too..!! my legs were lyk jelly alr!!
den fab and i said bye to de gurls at j.e interchange.. and we went to cck mrt station.. fab said if he cudnt find a sit, he would start doing a pole dance.. LOLS!!! but luckily.. there were seats.. oh my poor poor legs.. we chatted smore and den alighted at cck, were supposed to take photos!! but den fab said he also cnt send to de com.. i also lors.. so we din take ani in de end.. i wanna cry!!! nvm nxt time..
den we bth boarded 188.. which fab offered to take wif me coz i was afraid i cudnt get home.. thx so much!! i hope i din cause too much inconvenience.. >.< i had to borrow 55c frm him though.. i paid him back one dollar.. budden he managed to giv it back to me.. nvm.. i shall giv him double de amt nxt time.. whahahas.. kaes.. go home alr.. walk home singing stacie orrico's "im not missing u" hmms.. nah im lying.. i do miss u guys.. lols!!! it was such a great dae.. and one dat i wud nv forget lahs.. thx so much fab, aloy, ck, terin and ur fren!!!! and special thx to fab for gg to east pt and hangin out wif me.. it was super enjoyable too!!!!!!!!!!
at night.. there was smth sad happend, but i shall leave it till later to talk about it..
my lord, thankew so much for such wonderful frens to hang out wif and play wif, thankew so much for lettin my hv de time of my life.. thankew soo sooo soooo much.. loves ya BIG TIME MAN!!!
loves!!! [aollovin]
supposed to meet at lot 1s mac at 8.15.. i woke up at 6.20 lahs.. due to a veri bad fit of coughing.. and after about 15 mins of vomiting and coughin.. decided it was to late to go bck to slp so went to get ready instead.. as usual super kiasu me brought one set of extra clothes and an extra shirt for emergency uses.. den went to de bus stop to go lot 1 alr
met aloy and terin firz at de mrt station.. lols.. dey were lyk walkin pass me den i went up to dem and looked at them den dey were lyk "oh its u arhs" LOLS!!! kaes.. den we go mac.. and waited for de rest..
ck and fab arrived not too long ltr.. dey were super friendli and they lyk shook hands wif me.. hahas.. in case u din noe, we din order anithing in mac and we were juz enjoyin de air con and seats.. i think de manager were pissed wif us man... tsktsk.. but it was damn farnie.. den we waitd quite long for terins fren.. hahas.. but its ok lahs.. we left mac at bout 8.45 den go cck mrt station.. and on our way to Escape
i realli dun nd to describe out train journey right? but i'll mention sum funni stuff during it..
1. sumbody were scannin de two girls wif sum kinda sicko look, and den i lyk nanny lyk dat ask them come and stand furthur away.. LOLS!! but dat man is disgustin!!
2. fabian carried a bag dat looks suspicious, i told aloy i shud probably call de cops.. LOLS!!
3. when fabian and ck sat together playin my ngage, they looked realli compatible.. so i askd terin and aloy to snap photos.. alas, ck realised.. LOLS!!
hahas.. pretty farnie huhs? lols
we reached pasir ris lyk 1hr ltr.. den took a bus to escape.. de bus was koyak lors.. no air con and looked super old.. LOLS! (girls are vain, they rather stand being hot and stuffy den open de window and mess thier hairdo. LOLS!!!!!) reached Escape bout 5mins ltr.. and we proceeded to pay the tickets
16.50... shud hv brough my mum dbs card.. got 15% discount.. >.< nvm... paid and enter... de firz ride we spotted was the choo choo train.. meant for 3-4 yrs old.. but wes till took it aniwae.. de person in charge of de ride was laughin at us lehs!!! hahas.. we were laughin lyk mad at ourselves too!! hey did i mention it was HOT!!! aloy sat in de front of de train and rang de bell lyk an ice cream uncle.. (yes uncle i wud lyk butterscotch please...LOLS!!) den we alightd decidin to be less retarded and go to de safety deposit box..
stored all my stuff and paid one buck.. and den i realised i FORGOT MY MONEY!!! paid one mor dollar juz for moi money... kinda dumb, well im dumb.. so i guess it matches.. hahas terin said wanna go take de turnin turnin ride.. fab din wanna sit.. so i accompany him go take other rides.. we decided to go bumper boats.. and there was lyk only two of us.. lols.. spray him abit onli lahs.. im nt evil.. hahas.. den we stopped and went to wait for the rest. budden they were takin it again.. so we decided to take it too.. ooo it was scaree.. fab closed his eyes.. but i think it was realli nice of him to take it wif me.. when he din wan to in de firz place.. thankews!! actualli it was pretty shiok.. den b4 de ride i and fab were lyk " how long is de ride?" den de guy said less den one min den fab was lyk hes lying lors.. de las time i cnted was one and a half mins!!.. lols.. so farnie
den after dat we went to take the family coaster and i sat wif ck.. heys de coaster was quite fun.. but it wasnt meant for our age lahs.. LOLS.. den we decided to each take one carriage coz there was juz nice six of us.. ahahas.. de girl laugh at us.. but she was nice too.. she sumore ask us take again.. lols!! kaes.. we wered oe wif it.. and proceeded to the......
... AEROPLANES!!! LOLS!!! another kiddy ride..!! again six aeroplanes and six of us, so each one one carriage.. we were lyk makin jokes on how we were lyk flyin planes.. and i suggested we sing a song.. "i believe i can fly" budden onli me and terin sing a few lines de rez all lyk quiet.. hahas.. i luaghed at myself den decided to shut up.. den enough wif the kiddy rides lahs.. terin, her fren, ck and loy want go take pirate ship. but fab wantd to take smth else.. so i accompany him lors..
but i was thirsty so we go to burger king to get sum drinks.. fab went toilet wif specific instructions on not to buy drinks for him, but being de evil me, i stil bought it aniwae.. lols.. den he was lyk " why u lyk dat??!!" hahas.. im evil arent i? i think i made him feel guilty.. but dat wasnt my intention, i mean we go out hv fun, nth wrong wif wantin to treat ppl to drinks mahs.. hu cares bout de money man.. we went there to hv fun!!
den we go take ferris wheel, we squeeze into one carriage and den de guy was lyk eyeing us.. hello!!! we arent gay lah!!! we just wantd to talk lors..!! how to talk in separate carriages!! i asked fab to sing.. LOLS budden in de end we ended up talkin bout singers instead.. hahas.. heck it was fun!!.. we saw the other 4 takin de pirate ship twice lahs.. lols.. den we got down and headed to the pirate ship
den terin they all still wanna take again lors.. though durin de third time.. aloy kena SEASICK!!! he looked realli pale.. i think 3 times is just too much for him lahs.. i think it quite affectd him thruout de dae.. hmms..
den we go hauntd house.. make sum silly jokes wif the guy in charge.. i was super scared since terins fren told me suddenli will hv ppl chasin us.. eee... i was lyk grabbin ck as i walked lahs.. eeee... budden suddenli realise nbdy was gg to chase us lah.. so i relax... a little little bit.. lols.. and den we got out.. wif a funni accident, at de last part, i think de gurls chiong lahs.. and dey poked aloy in de eye and hit fabs head!!! they were lyk " WAH LAOS!!! OUCH!!!" and den i was lyk "WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!" okay i admit.. im a tad bit sadistic!! aloy was lyk holdin his eye cursing at terin. LOLS!!!
okae den we decided to go hmms.. i cant rmb!! was it bumper boat or go kart.. i think it was go kart.. fab and ck din take.. so they go take other stuff.. we waited after a long queue lahs.. and durin de queue, aloy ask me sing unfaithful.. i was out of tune!! lols!!! ohhhs and aloy realli has a nice voice.. woots lahs.. well of coz man, hes my shifu!! den we took de cars. and den when i turn arnd de my car went horizontal lahs!! and i blocked de way.. LOLS!! so embarassin!! did i mention i was dead last.. sad lors.. hahas..
kaes.. den we got take bumper boat.. sprayed each other wet silly, i wasnt too wet though.. lols.. but terin and her fren were soaked.. lols.. so they go take de spinnin ride.. i cant rmb de name!! to dry their hair.. i also go chou re nou goa nd take wif them, de other three guys din, they went to take other rides.. during de ride, terin was lyk tellin me to sign ole.. den we realli sang while her fren slept in de ride!!! super funni!!! took the ride twice den got dwn.. den we go find de guys.. realised they took the lying dwn spinnin thing.. they were dizzy man.. lols.. but they looked ill so the girls decided they dinw anna take animor.. and i cant take it alone lahs.. so we went to eat alr
during eats.. i had a cough so i cudnt share de drinks so aloy went to get a small cup and boy is it small lahs.. den he pour for me.. so nice right?? hahas... realised fabian had super digestive system.. he could finish eatin and go to de toilet straightawy to pas it out.. INCREDIBLE... 0.0
lols den we go take other rides..
i think if i were to describe everything else.. this post would be far too long!!!!!!!!! so i think i shall leave de rest in my memory instead.. sry guys!!
just b4 we were abt to leave, aloy and me were alone on a bench so he asked me to sing b4 de rest got here.. so i sang lors.. "something about u" by jamelia.. i think i sang badly.. hahas.. den fab and ck came join us.. and dey sae dey missed me singin.. okaes fine den,, i shall sing again.. still terrible if u ask me.. den it was fab's turn to sing!!!! woots.. it was nice, he sang unfaithful by rihanna.. i think i shud bai him wei shi also( get him to be my shifu)
den we left for pasir ris shoppin centre at bout 3+ coz aloy had tuition and he nded to go home.. was suppose to go home wif loy, coz if he go home alone veri sian lors.. budden ck followed him home, so i follow fabian go window shoppin.. budden pasir ris shoppin centre was PATHETIC!!! so i suggested we go simei east point instead.. so off i and fab went.. and den.... we got off de wrong stop!!! we stopped at tampiness lahs!! den iw as lyk ehhh.. is dis simei???? LOLS!!! den we realised it was tampiness!! den we ran up de escalator.. which for u fyi was gg down.. LOLS!! we laughed lyk siao!!! ahahas.. so farnie lahs
den dis time we got off at de right stop.. and we go east point!! lols.. de firz place we went was a clothes shop which along de way fab was tellin me his story.. it was a rather sad one.. hais.. nvm.. lets not mention sad stuff on a happi dae.. den i realized after dat dae fab did not realize we were in a clothes store!! LOLS!!!! he said he was too engrossed in tellin me his story.. lols.. so cartoon lors!!
den we go walk walk and found a realli realli big lan shop.. woahs.. but fab said if i din play, he also dun wan.. den i say i juz watch.. he also sae dun wan.. den i sae i treat him.. he din want it even more.. so we decided to go see other lan shops.. maybe got cheaper price.. den in de end de other one was too small and xuper packed.. den we go arcade lors.. along the way.. we exchange mor stories and experiences, asked mor qs, crap, tell jokes. lols.. FUN! den at de arcade.. we changed 8 bucks.. actualli fab got the card!! budden spoil!! WAHAHAHAHA!!!! so we had to buy a new one.. den we go play racing.. i saboed fab lahs... i keep dying lors.. den he also got to stop playin.. man i suck big time lah... de we go play wrestlin.. so cute.. de graphics were of coz nth to boast about.. but the punchin kickin slammin was pretty fun i guess.. but we lost all de rounds though.. ahahas.. de we go play sumore racin and again i saboed fab.. oh yah we go hit mouse too.. hahas.. got twenty tickets LOLS!!! so fun!! lame yes i admit but fun!!!! LOLS!! btw fab is realli nice lors.. he kept playin games dat de bth of us cud play.. but i onli payed two bucks lehs.. but he still insisted.. thanks so much!!! den we went off to exchange tickets. we had twenty which was enuff for two jelly burgers.. budden!!! got one veri NICE POPO!!! she see we so lil tickets she give us 100 lahs!!!! SO NICE!!!!!! it wa such a great feelin lors.. to see such kindness and niceness.. smth strangers hv nv gave me for a veri long time alr.. i hope dat popo will stay healthy foreva and live tilll a ripe old age mans.. she soo nice.. oh yahs so fab and i exchanged for a potato chips and sum stick biscuits.
and den we decided to go popular.. (btwi duno whether i gt the order right or not.. sry fab!!) go chk out de discs there.. and den fab and i laughd so much when we were talkin bout room raiders!!! OMG IT WAS SOOO FARNIE!!! i seriuosly hv to watch it mor often, SEX ROTATIONAL TOY!!!!! AHHAHAHAAAHHHHHAHAHAHAH!!!!!
after de massive fits of laughter we went to pet safari and den another joke dat made me laughed lyk CRAZY AGAIN!!! but i shall not post the joke coz its kinda mean.. but fab noes wad it is.. im referin to the jeans thing!!! LOLS!!! oh yah de clothes shop we firz entered we went to chk it again.. man the jeans were dirt cheap and damn cool.. love them man..
and den back to animal safari.. saw hamsters which fab wantd to buy for his gf.. they were so cute lahs.. but fab say buy another time lyk for a christmas gift ... ehh de nxt time u go buy rmb ask me go also kaes!!?? lols.. denwe see mor animals, i marvelled at de way cute golden retreivers which fab cud enjoy becoz dey were in cages.. hes scared of dogs..
okae! bout time we left alr.. damn thirsty... so we go burger king again!! hahas.. i bought a coke.. and den fab bought a chicken sandwich.. i realli wonder where all de food goes to.. im damn full lors.. but he can still wolf down a sandwich and say hes still not full!!! omg!! and hes onli 45 kg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! i wana kill myself.. im so fat lahs...!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kaes den we headed home, board de mrt and den we met terin and her fren hu juz finish playin at escape.. so coincidental... hahas.. it was peak period and there wer so many ppl.. no seats too..!! my legs were lyk jelly alr!!
den fab and i said bye to de gurls at j.e interchange.. and we went to cck mrt station.. fab said if he cudnt find a sit, he would start doing a pole dance.. LOLS!!! but luckily.. there were seats.. oh my poor poor legs.. we chatted smore and den alighted at cck, were supposed to take photos!! but den fab said he also cnt send to de com.. i also lors.. so we din take ani in de end.. i wanna cry!!! nvm nxt time..
den we bth boarded 188.. which fab offered to take wif me coz i was afraid i cudnt get home.. thx so much!! i hope i din cause too much inconvenience.. >.< i had to borrow 55c frm him though.. i paid him back one dollar.. budden he managed to giv it back to me.. nvm.. i shall giv him double de amt nxt time.. whahahas.. kaes.. go home alr.. walk home singing stacie orrico's "im not missing u" hmms.. nah im lying.. i do miss u guys.. lols!!! it was such a great dae.. and one dat i wud nv forget lahs.. thx so much fab, aloy, ck, terin and ur fren!!!! and special thx to fab for gg to east pt and hangin out wif me.. it was super enjoyable too!!!!!!!!!!
at night.. there was smth sad happend, but i shall leave it till later to talk about it..
my lord, thankew so much for such wonderful frens to hang out wif and play wif, thankew so much for lettin my hv de time of my life.. thankew soo sooo soooo much.. loves ya BIG TIME MAN!!!
loves!!! [aollovin]
Thursday, September 14, 2006
had an interesting yest.. made a new fren!! LOLS!! heyos fabian!! u rock =)
i was damn sick yest.. i had cough, fever and constant nosebleeds... and i bled until my mum said i look super pale.. i looked realli realli ill and she was super concernd.. dad.. as usual. said sum not so suitable stuff for the occasion.. but thx for carin niwaes..
todae feelin a lil better.. i desperately takin in all kinda medicine hopin to recover soon, pills.. cough syrups.. but i dun hv antibiotics!! which realli speeds up my recovery.. nvm.. shall rest alot and slowly recover..
yest had conference too!! not veri long though.. but still fun all de same.. sumone said sumthing realli reali sweet to me yest.. lols.. thankew so much arhs.. and dun wy.. i totalli believe wad u want me to believe.. =)
had de emath ppr yest.. during the 2nd paper.. got nosebleed which was realli bad... 5 packets of tissue and each tissue was soaked with blood, the teachers were frightened.. lols.. then they ask me take a rest.. so i rest lors.. then after dat continue..
think i cause quite a commotion.. sry for distractin those hu were bz takin de xams..
oh and thankew so much janani for askin me how i was.. realli appreciate ur concern.. =)
and fangyi too!! thankew guys so much =)
todae is physics.. so no skool for me.. lalalalalala.. it rocks big time!! good chance for me to recuperate.. =) i realli realli miss singin!!! i WANNA SING!!!! nvm.. todae aloy singin for me.. WHEE!!!! finalli get to hear a pro sing.. LOLS!!.. so exciting.. cant wait man..
i think i once said stacie orrico album once sucked.. I TAKE IT BACK!!! Im not missing u ROCKS BIG TIME LAHS!!! fantastic!!! super nice.. lols.. and gues wad shes in singapore!!! WAH!!!!!! she gg to appear on s'pore idol sumore lehs!!! omg omg.. i so admire her singin!! beyonce's deja vu not bad too.. jessica simpson's public affair also not too bad.. christina aguilera too.. im so crazy about music now.. btw.. i wan nathan hartono's album.. i heard him sing on MTV dat dae and its nice lahs.. but cnt find de songs!! sobs..
MUSIC ROX!!! or rather SONGS ROX!!!
yest got s'pore idol.. i watch it and it was good! esp jasmine.. i think her song valentine rox!! she snded realli good too!!! i think her voice is great lehs.. shes gettin more and more composed and her vocals are becomin realli realli good!! i think im supportin her.. lols.. oh jon and hady were good too.. =)
well tmrs de last dae of prelims.. jiayou mans everybody.. after dat can rest for a while and den go for our olvls le.. GOOD LUCKS!!!
loves!!! [aollovin]
i was damn sick yest.. i had cough, fever and constant nosebleeds... and i bled until my mum said i look super pale.. i looked realli realli ill and she was super concernd.. dad.. as usual. said sum not so suitable stuff for the occasion.. but thx for carin niwaes..
todae feelin a lil better.. i desperately takin in all kinda medicine hopin to recover soon, pills.. cough syrups.. but i dun hv antibiotics!! which realli speeds up my recovery.. nvm.. shall rest alot and slowly recover..
yest had conference too!! not veri long though.. but still fun all de same.. sumone said sumthing realli reali sweet to me yest.. lols.. thankew so much arhs.. and dun wy.. i totalli believe wad u want me to believe.. =)
had de emath ppr yest.. during the 2nd paper.. got nosebleed which was realli bad... 5 packets of tissue and each tissue was soaked with blood, the teachers were frightened.. lols.. then they ask me take a rest.. so i rest lors.. then after dat continue..
think i cause quite a commotion.. sry for distractin those hu were bz takin de xams..
oh and thankew so much janani for askin me how i was.. realli appreciate ur concern.. =)
and fangyi too!! thankew guys so much =)
todae is physics.. so no skool for me.. lalalalalala.. it rocks big time!! good chance for me to recuperate.. =) i realli realli miss singin!!! i WANNA SING!!!! nvm.. todae aloy singin for me.. WHEE!!!! finalli get to hear a pro sing.. LOLS!!.. so exciting.. cant wait man..
i think i once said stacie orrico album once sucked.. I TAKE IT BACK!!! Im not missing u ROCKS BIG TIME LAHS!!! fantastic!!! super nice.. lols.. and gues wad shes in singapore!!! WAH!!!!!! she gg to appear on s'pore idol sumore lehs!!! omg omg.. i so admire her singin!! beyonce's deja vu not bad too.. jessica simpson's public affair also not too bad.. christina aguilera too.. im so crazy about music now.. btw.. i wan nathan hartono's album.. i heard him sing on MTV dat dae and its nice lahs.. but cnt find de songs!! sobs..
MUSIC ROX!!! or rather SONGS ROX!!!
yest got s'pore idol.. i watch it and it was good! esp jasmine.. i think her song valentine rox!! she snded realli good too!!! i think her voice is great lehs.. shes gettin more and more composed and her vocals are becomin realli realli good!! i think im supportin her.. lols.. oh jon and hady were good too.. =)
well tmrs de last dae of prelims.. jiayou mans everybody.. after dat can rest for a while and den go for our olvls le.. GOOD LUCKS!!!
loves!!! [aollovin]
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
CALL CONFERENCING ROX!!! BIG TIME!! lols.. its super super cool lahs.. hahas.. i had so much FUN!! hahas.. conferencin buds are ck, loy, ziq, terin... thx so muchs!! hahas... u all realli make me laugh lyk siao...
ck wif his purposely out of tune singin, aloy wif his funni voices, ziq wif his songs and terin wif her actin blur.. hahas.. u ppl crack me up lahs..
thankew u all soo soo much.. i realli enjoy every min of it..
hmms.. todae bio paper.. die... amath paper.. die... okaes.. dats all i hv to sae..
my lord.. i thank u for givin me such wonderful frens.. den joke and laugh wif.. make me so damn hapPI!! thankew v much my lord.. LUV YAS!!!
hahas.. think dats all for now.. tmr is emath. dun realli intend to study lahs... juz read thru formulas can alr.. lols..
loves!!! [aollovin]
ck wif his purposely out of tune singin, aloy wif his funni voices, ziq wif his songs and terin wif her actin blur.. hahas.. u ppl crack me up lahs..
thankew u all soo soo much.. i realli enjoy every min of it..
hmms.. todae bio paper.. die... amath paper.. die... okaes.. dats all i hv to sae..
my lord.. i thank u for givin me such wonderful frens.. den joke and laugh wif.. make me so damn hapPI!! thankew v much my lord.. LUV YAS!!!
hahas.. think dats all for now.. tmr is emath. dun realli intend to study lahs... juz read thru formulas can alr.. lols..
loves!!! [aollovin]
Monday, September 11, 2006
SING SING SING SING!!!!! dats all i can think about right now.. lols.. my bio txtbk lies untouched... my speakers are blaring and im still singin!! heelLoo!! tmrs ur bio xam and ure still singin.. wassup wif u man... LOLS!! lyk i care lahs.. hahas.. i din noe singin was so fun, and i dun noe why i can learn lyrics so quikly but nt de info in de txtbks.. sian.. and i can rmb all de lyrics.. but nt the content in de txtbk.. craPPY!! lols..
no lahs.. but to be serious i realli lyk singing.. perhaps its de onli way i can prevent myself from becomin too stressed.. i realli enjoy the beats and rhythm of songs.. and of coz i love de vOCAlS!! lyk SOOO nice!! im realli fallin in love wif songs and singin man... i can sing all dae wifout stoppin lahs.. it juz feels realli great.. and den when u practising the song, u laugh at urself when u go out of tune!!! and den when u get it alr.. wah shiok big time nehs!!.. hahas.. i dunno whether i got a gd voice or not lahs.. hahas.. but i juz love singin aniwae.. and my sis is realli nice too.. she keeps sayin i sing well.. hmm.. i thinks its being nice onli lahs.. not de truth.. i hope its de truth though.. AHAHAHAS!!!!
el nin yo rocks!!! BIG TIME!!! SMALL TIME!! WAD EVA TIME MAN!!! lols... hmm.. nth more to sae.. go listen urself ba.. but nt everyone may lyk it.. it doesnt hv veri nice lyrics.. but de music is great man..
todae chem prelim, nt bad lahs.. i wrote too much again.. so again din manage to finish all of it.. but im quite sastisfied wif it lahs.. overall shud be fine.. hahas... (cross fingers), GOOD LUCKS TO EVERYBODY!!
tmr is amath and bio.. nt realli veri scared bout amath.. mor of bio.. i hvn finish studyin neh.. im afraid i may fail!!! yikes! i dun want b4 again and again and again.. im sick of b4.. why cant it be lyk b3 or A2.. i noe!! coz im nt studyin enuff.. lols.. DUH!
my lord.. thankew so much for making me realize its realli okay to be an idiot.. though sumtimes it gets realli hard and its extremeli disappointing.. in de end.. u still get rewarded.. lols.. i dunno wads wrong wif me though.. i get happi at the smallest things.. which is good lahs.. but im so hypersensitive dat i make small probs becom big ones and start gettin upset.. pretty silly yah.. why arh? my lord, can u tell me? hahas... LOVE U!!!
kaes.. shud end now, seriousli go to my books now.. wish me lucks yah? hahas.. JIAYOU EVERYBODY!!!! GAMBATTE!!!
oh yahs!!! still hvn tok bout call conferencing!! LOL!!! nvm.. mayb tmr ba.. i shall dedicate one whole post to it.. hahas, btw it was great!! THANKEW TERIN, LOY AND CK!!! =)
loves!!! [aollovin]
no lahs.. but to be serious i realli lyk singing.. perhaps its de onli way i can prevent myself from becomin too stressed.. i realli enjoy the beats and rhythm of songs.. and of coz i love de vOCAlS!! lyk SOOO nice!! im realli fallin in love wif songs and singin man... i can sing all dae wifout stoppin lahs.. it juz feels realli great.. and den when u practising the song, u laugh at urself when u go out of tune!!! and den when u get it alr.. wah shiok big time nehs!!.. hahas.. i dunno whether i got a gd voice or not lahs.. hahas.. but i juz love singin aniwae.. and my sis is realli nice too.. she keeps sayin i sing well.. hmm.. i thinks its being nice onli lahs.. not de truth.. i hope its de truth though.. AHAHAHAS!!!!
el nin yo rocks!!! BIG TIME!!! SMALL TIME!! WAD EVA TIME MAN!!! lols... hmm.. nth more to sae.. go listen urself ba.. but nt everyone may lyk it.. it doesnt hv veri nice lyrics.. but de music is great man..
todae chem prelim, nt bad lahs.. i wrote too much again.. so again din manage to finish all of it.. but im quite sastisfied wif it lahs.. overall shud be fine.. hahas... (cross fingers), GOOD LUCKS TO EVERYBODY!!
tmr is amath and bio.. nt realli veri scared bout amath.. mor of bio.. i hvn finish studyin neh.. im afraid i may fail!!! yikes! i dun want b4 again and again and again.. im sick of b4.. why cant it be lyk b3 or A2.. i noe!! coz im nt studyin enuff.. lols.. DUH!
my lord.. thankew so much for making me realize its realli okay to be an idiot.. though sumtimes it gets realli hard and its extremeli disappointing.. in de end.. u still get rewarded.. lols.. i dunno wads wrong wif me though.. i get happi at the smallest things.. which is good lahs.. but im so hypersensitive dat i make small probs becom big ones and start gettin upset.. pretty silly yah.. why arh? my lord, can u tell me? hahas... LOVE U!!!
kaes.. shud end now, seriousli go to my books now.. wish me lucks yah? hahas.. JIAYOU EVERYBODY!!!! GAMBATTE!!!
oh yahs!!! still hvn tok bout call conferencing!! LOL!!! nvm.. mayb tmr ba.. i shall dedicate one whole post to it.. hahas, btw it was great!! THANKEW TERIN, LOY AND CK!!! =)
loves!!! [aollovin]
Sunday, September 10, 2006
yest was interesting.. when i came home suddenli got so many conversation windows at de same time.. lols.. hahas, sry arh shitien, i din manage to hlp u dl songs.. so sorri.. im such a bad fren.. SORREE!! hahas.. got to noe terin alot more.. chatted a lot.. ahahas.. den after dat she called me.. lols.. i was in a half shock and half expectin state.. quite funni.. lols.. bu we din tok long though.. she said i was veri serious.. lols. it was pretty cool
aloy said he was waking up early, so ask me sms him in de morn.. budden when i did, he din reply lyk till 2 hrs ltr.. hahas.. but its ok lahs.. i dun mind.. awaez ready to comply to ppls wishes.. sides it was fun seeing my hp ring multiple times and me slammin de hp on de bed coz it rang so many time.. "phone, u pissed me" LOL!!
im soooOOOO crazy of tata young's latest song el nin yo.. i watch de mtv and boy is she sexy.. but abit erm, lets just sae we shudnt adopt her style.. lols.. but de song is realli nice.. REALLI REALLI NICE.. the beats are great, the rhythm cool, the instruments used rocks.. and de vocals are near perfect lahs.. lols.. tata young is a good singer.. budden de song is abit provocative lahs.. certain parts.. yah... but it stil rocks big time niwae..
stacie orrico had a new album.. i din realli lyk it.. hmms...
tmr is chem prelims.. eee.. kinda scaree.. hahas.. but im not too worried lahs.. chem is nt realli veri tuff... but i scared i cnt do well.. wahh.. the pressure and stress is great.. nvm.. just do my bez lahs.. same to everyone else.. JIAYOUS!!! GO 4/3!!! we can de =))
my lord, i recovered alr!!! TANKEW TANKEW TANKEW TANKEW sOOOO MUCH!!! it feels great to be able to vocalize again!! yAY!!!!!! i juz loves singing... wifout singin, i think i might go mad.. lols.. LOVE U LORD!!
i feel lyk slacking.. lols.. ziq and ck nds hlp wif hmwk and i hvn helped them yet.. im such a bad person... sobs.. hahas.. nvm.. and den dey nt online now.. hows?? i shall wait.. lols..
loves!!! [aollovin]
aloy said he was waking up early, so ask me sms him in de morn.. budden when i did, he din reply lyk till 2 hrs ltr.. hahas.. but its ok lahs.. i dun mind.. awaez ready to comply to ppls wishes.. sides it was fun seeing my hp ring multiple times and me slammin de hp on de bed coz it rang so many time.. "phone, u pissed me" LOL!!
im soooOOOO crazy of tata young's latest song el nin yo.. i watch de mtv and boy is she sexy.. but abit erm, lets just sae we shudnt adopt her style.. lols.. but de song is realli nice.. REALLI REALLI NICE.. the beats are great, the rhythm cool, the instruments used rocks.. and de vocals are near perfect lahs.. lols.. tata young is a good singer.. budden de song is abit provocative lahs.. certain parts.. yah... but it stil rocks big time niwae..
stacie orrico had a new album.. i din realli lyk it.. hmms...
tmr is chem prelims.. eee.. kinda scaree.. hahas.. but im not too worried lahs.. chem is nt realli veri tuff... but i scared i cnt do well.. wahh.. the pressure and stress is great.. nvm.. just do my bez lahs.. same to everyone else.. JIAYOUS!!! GO 4/3!!! we can de =))
my lord, i recovered alr!!! TANKEW TANKEW TANKEW TANKEW sOOOO MUCH!!! it feels great to be able to vocalize again!! yAY!!!!!! i juz loves singing... wifout singin, i think i might go mad.. lols.. LOVE U LORD!!
i feel lyk slacking.. lols.. ziq and ck nds hlp wif hmwk and i hvn helped them yet.. im such a bad person... sobs.. hahas.. nvm.. and den dey nt online now.. hows?? i shall wait.. lols..
loves!!! [aollovin]
Friday, September 08, 2006
went to orchard todae.... nice. =) put on sum pretty formal clothes.. orchard pretty high cls mahs.. lols... went there to get my hair cut.. hahas.. btw im not gg to sum super high cls place to cut, its juz a shop in LUCKY PLAZA lols.. so dun open ur eyes big big kaes?
reach at about 2 lahs.. went to eat at sum noodle shop at lucky plaza which was pretty good i guess.. den made our way to the salon... uncle lawrence cut my hair lah as usual.. nt dat bad.. though its realli short now.. but i've nv been a big fan of long and excessive elaborate hairstyles so it suits me juz fine =)
paid bout 80 bucks.. my sis, bro and mum cut too.. dats why so ex.. >.< den we went to taka to do sum shopping.. wait.. for my mum to do sum shopping.. was suppose to pick out a gift for sum dunno hus kid.. budden in de end, sidetracked and my mum went to buy sum maternity clothes.. i was there to hlp her pick them.. in case she pick sum overly auntish clothes.. not dat i hv a super fashion sense.. lols.. i was just there to offer advice.. lols..
cheryl!! met ur jon fan there!! lols.. the auntie of the maternity clothes store was a jon's fan.. and when i said i prefer jas.. she was kinda disappointed.. lols.. guess wad.. kens right lahs.. jon is a auntie sha shou (auntie killer) lols.. so funi lors.. btw, she said jasmine was frm de same church as her.. which is lyk super cool lahs.. ahahas...
after spendin quite a hefty sum of money on de clothes, >.<, we went to delifrance for dinner, it was a bistro style delifrance where dey served all kinda western food.. nice lahs.. i ordered roast chicken and it tasted pretty good, the lobster bisque rocked! had this greenish mussels dat had sauce on dem.. yums.. lols... quite full le.. so left and went to taka again to do sum walking.. exercise after eating is good for digestion =)) my bro bought sum silly plane magnets which he though were toys.. and for ur fyi, its 6 bucks for sum super small magnets.. tsktsk
den after dat went home le.. todae in a realli cool mood.. hahas.. probably coz recoverin fast.. hahas.. but it was an expensive dae which amounted to abt more den 400bucks.. oh dear.. so ex lors.. but it was fun =) been a long time since i hanged wif mum, sis and bro.. quite nice =)
my lord.. thx for de speedy recovery.. realli appreciate nt hvin to swallow knives animore.. hahas.. btw is a unicorn classified sorcery? hahas.. niwae love u my lord =)
found something todae that i can realli relate to... i totalli agree with wad it says.. well... and i notice.. i have a white hair growing out of my forehead... kinda icky.. hmms but its pretty strange too.. makes me realli wonder.. but nah its kinda stupid... but anione hu swears they wun laugh is welcomed to ask me wad isz about.. lols..
kaes.. to my clsmates and fellow schoolmates.. hols are almoz over prelims are back.. JIAYOU!!!!
loves!!! [aollovin]
reach at about 2 lahs.. went to eat at sum noodle shop at lucky plaza which was pretty good i guess.. den made our way to the salon... uncle lawrence cut my hair lah as usual.. nt dat bad.. though its realli short now.. but i've nv been a big fan of long and excessive elaborate hairstyles so it suits me juz fine =)
paid bout 80 bucks.. my sis, bro and mum cut too.. dats why so ex.. >.< den we went to taka to do sum shopping.. wait.. for my mum to do sum shopping.. was suppose to pick out a gift for sum dunno hus kid.. budden in de end, sidetracked and my mum went to buy sum maternity clothes.. i was there to hlp her pick them.. in case she pick sum overly auntish clothes.. not dat i hv a super fashion sense.. lols.. i was just there to offer advice.. lols..
cheryl!! met ur jon fan there!! lols.. the auntie of the maternity clothes store was a jon's fan.. and when i said i prefer jas.. she was kinda disappointed.. lols.. guess wad.. kens right lahs.. jon is a auntie sha shou (auntie killer) lols.. so funi lors.. btw, she said jasmine was frm de same church as her.. which is lyk super cool lahs.. ahahas...
after spendin quite a hefty sum of money on de clothes, >.<, we went to delifrance for dinner, it was a bistro style delifrance where dey served all kinda western food.. nice lahs.. i ordered roast chicken and it tasted pretty good, the lobster bisque rocked! had this greenish mussels dat had sauce on dem.. yums.. lols... quite full le.. so left and went to taka again to do sum walking.. exercise after eating is good for digestion =)) my bro bought sum silly plane magnets which he though were toys.. and for ur fyi, its 6 bucks for sum super small magnets.. tsktsk
den after dat went home le.. todae in a realli cool mood.. hahas.. probably coz recoverin fast.. hahas.. but it was an expensive dae which amounted to abt more den 400bucks.. oh dear.. so ex lors.. but it was fun =) been a long time since i hanged wif mum, sis and bro.. quite nice =)
my lord.. thx for de speedy recovery.. realli appreciate nt hvin to swallow knives animore.. hahas.. btw is a unicorn classified sorcery? hahas.. niwae love u my lord =)
found something todae that i can realli relate to... i totalli agree with wad it says.. well... and i notice.. i have a white hair growing out of my forehead... kinda icky.. hmms but its pretty strange too.. makes me realli wonder.. but nah its kinda stupid... but anione hu swears they wun laugh is welcomed to ask me wad isz about.. lols..
kaes.. to my clsmates and fellow schoolmates.. hols are almoz over prelims are back.. JIAYOU!!!!
loves!!! [aollovin]
Thursday, September 07, 2006
oh man.. its been such a long time since i last blogged!! i think its partly bcoz of prelims.. as i had to study when ppl were taking a break.. sobs.. and partly becoz i FELL SICK AGAIN!!!! it totalli sux man.. and quess wad?? its exactly de same problem!! its a bludy throat inflammation again!!!!!!!!!!! even swallowing saliva is painful and so is drinking water! why does this keep happening to me?? its so unbearably painful!!! oh man.. i wanna recover soon.. i hate being sick during the hols.. it totalli sux big time lah.
i had geog and amaths xam on mondae. i gues amath was ok.. i cud do quite alot of questions.. though i was still unable to complete the entire ppr.. i hope can get at least b3 or 4.. its alr a marked improvement lahs... and den i had geog.. i had to thank sum ppl, so i knew it was coniferous and not deciduous.. lols.. im cheatin lors.. and guess wad.. i cudnt finish geog!!! omg lahs.. i think i wrote alot this time.. sobs.. so no time to finish de rez.. feel lyk crying.. if i dun get at least a b3, ms ridz will be disappointed.. wah dat sux lahs.. ive come to realise dat ms ridz is actualli realli ok.. esp outside of cls.. hahas.. i guez my perception of her chnge 180 degrees when she was so nice about writing my testimonial.. it was damn nice of her.. although i hvn got it yet.. lols.. but thx alot niwaes. she wasnt angry abt me missin geog too.. she was teriibly nice about it.. hahas.. so was mrs leong.. she was mor concernd bout me doing well den takin de ppr asap.. which is sooo nice of her.. =) thankew!!!
i dunno wad to sae about my life now.. i onli noe dat im becomin mor and mor unbearable to my parents.. dat night my mum scolded me.. which i highly suspect was due to probs at work and she was takin it out on my sis and me.. which made me feel damned pissed.. this is so wrong lah.. when she scolded me, i actualli retorted bck in a veri cold and sarcastic tone.. when she scolded me, i looked at sumwhere else as if i didnt care.. well firz it was because she was desperately cooking up reasons to scold me.. i mean lyk " i dun want to have to awaez pick up ur shoes, wad u think i am? ur maid?" dis is so obvious dat its juz her taking her frustration out on me lahs.. and she blames me when my tuition teacher doesnt come.. HELLO? do i luk lyk my tuition teacher?? so yah.. i was damned pissed when she scolded me, so i was rly rude to her as well.. but i guess i shudnt do dat.. i realli shudnt.. ooo i hate when i do things out of anger.. sry mum.
i noticed this world realli revolves arnd money.. everything is about money lahs.. i hate it.. since when can love be shown thru money, since when is love measured by how much money is spent.. which my mum nevers fails to remind me how much shes payin for my tuition fees. drats.. im badmouthing ppl again.. but its kinda lyk an awful truth... and its reality.. but its not me i guess.. money.. is... crappy... (budden, why dun i lyk spendin money then? kinda dumb lahs)
i think i have a acute annual delayed musical response syndrome(AADMRS).. hahas.. i lyk old contemporary singers lors.. which is wierd, coz they arent old time singers, but niether are they up and in.. nor hip and happenin... im refering to marion raven.. lols.. ive fell in love with end of me!!.. the vocals are so cool!!! esp when u hit the right note and drag it!!!! omg its super nice.. heres and eg " this is the LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaST of illusIONs" wah nice man.. did i mention de acoustics..? woah.. super cool i luv it!!!!!! hahas.. when she was in m2m, she sang realli well too.. hahas... im so suffering from AADMRS
i miss SINGAPORE IDOL!!!!!!!! i wanna CRY!!!!!! nvm todae got result show.. i had tuition mahs.. den after dat i was feeling damn ill.. so i just sit on de study room chair and stone... lols.. how i wished i stoned in front of the tv instead... sobs.. nvm.. must watch on saturdae.. =)
my lord, i dun undst why u inflict me with de exact same pain as b4, and made it worst... it realli hurts alot.. everytime i swallow smth, its lyk swallowing a knife.. and no matter how much i pray, u wudnt take de pain away.. although u did lemme slp wifout wakin and realisin de pain.. but when im awake.. it hurts lyk hell.. i pray my lord u wud allow me to recover soon... i stil love u =))
i dled a rather basic graphic design prog called wizardbrush.. but its nth compared to adobe photoshop cs2 which is lyk super duper ex lahs... i wonder how come my sun nu and clara hv.. its lyk sooo ex.. i also want lehs... aiya but compared to paint... wizardbrush is much much more sophisticated... hahas.. de pics turn out ok too.. the effects are ok... quite nice lahs..
kaes.. think i shud stop bloggin alr.. hahas... i wanna go slack now.. wif this bludy throat i dunno how im gonna study lahs... damn suay lors.. anibdy noe of good remedie for curing and relieving de pain?? if have plz leave sum behind lehs.. shall be eternalli grateful
clara said i was lyk shunda.. i surmise its not anithing good... well i dunno, i gues sumtimes i dunno where to draw the line b/w jokes and being serious.. although i have to admit im gettin mor and mor uncontrollable... i guess i shud apologise.. well sorri clara... if i pissed u off in ani way
but i realli dunno wad it take to please everybody lahs.. i try to shift into different forms of myself to suit each individual, and honestly.. its quite tiring.. sumtimes i even forget to change my form, den make ppl unhappi, well i noe nbdy ask me to do it and its my own fault.. but sumtimes i wonder, if anione actualli gives a damn how i feel. when i feel angry, ppl sae im being unreasonable, when im sad, ppl sae im being problematic, when im too happi, ppl sae im too nonchalant. i guess i hv nbdy to blame.. i brought this all upon myself, and if i were give the same choices, i wud still choose de same thing.. oh wells, we live wif our choices, we do wad we can.. im not gg to regret.. if dis path was meant for a wierdo i'll be de wierdo den
loves!!! [aollovin]
i had geog and amaths xam on mondae. i gues amath was ok.. i cud do quite alot of questions.. though i was still unable to complete the entire ppr.. i hope can get at least b3 or 4.. its alr a marked improvement lahs... and den i had geog.. i had to thank sum ppl, so i knew it was coniferous and not deciduous.. lols.. im cheatin lors.. and guess wad.. i cudnt finish geog!!! omg lahs.. i think i wrote alot this time.. sobs.. so no time to finish de rez.. feel lyk crying.. if i dun get at least a b3, ms ridz will be disappointed.. wah dat sux lahs.. ive come to realise dat ms ridz is actualli realli ok.. esp outside of cls.. hahas.. i guez my perception of her chnge 180 degrees when she was so nice about writing my testimonial.. it was damn nice of her.. although i hvn got it yet.. lols.. but thx alot niwaes. she wasnt angry abt me missin geog too.. she was teriibly nice about it.. hahas.. so was mrs leong.. she was mor concernd bout me doing well den takin de ppr asap.. which is sooo nice of her.. =) thankew!!!
i dunno wad to sae about my life now.. i onli noe dat im becomin mor and mor unbearable to my parents.. dat night my mum scolded me.. which i highly suspect was due to probs at work and she was takin it out on my sis and me.. which made me feel damned pissed.. this is so wrong lah.. when she scolded me, i actualli retorted bck in a veri cold and sarcastic tone.. when she scolded me, i looked at sumwhere else as if i didnt care.. well firz it was because she was desperately cooking up reasons to scold me.. i mean lyk " i dun want to have to awaez pick up ur shoes, wad u think i am? ur maid?" dis is so obvious dat its juz her taking her frustration out on me lahs.. and she blames me when my tuition teacher doesnt come.. HELLO? do i luk lyk my tuition teacher?? so yah.. i was damned pissed when she scolded me, so i was rly rude to her as well.. but i guess i shudnt do dat.. i realli shudnt.. ooo i hate when i do things out of anger.. sry mum.
i noticed this world realli revolves arnd money.. everything is about money lahs.. i hate it.. since when can love be shown thru money, since when is love measured by how much money is spent.. which my mum nevers fails to remind me how much shes payin for my tuition fees. drats.. im badmouthing ppl again.. but its kinda lyk an awful truth... and its reality.. but its not me i guess.. money.. is... crappy... (budden, why dun i lyk spendin money then? kinda dumb lahs)
i think i have a acute annual delayed musical response syndrome(AADMRS).. hahas.. i lyk old contemporary singers lors.. which is wierd, coz they arent old time singers, but niether are they up and in.. nor hip and happenin... im refering to marion raven.. lols.. ive fell in love with end of me!!.. the vocals are so cool!!! esp when u hit the right note and drag it!!!! omg its super nice.. heres and eg " this is the LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaST of illusIONs" wah nice man.. did i mention de acoustics..? woah.. super cool i luv it!!!!!! hahas.. when she was in m2m, she sang realli well too.. hahas... im so suffering from AADMRS
i miss SINGAPORE IDOL!!!!!!!! i wanna CRY!!!!!! nvm todae got result show.. i had tuition mahs.. den after dat i was feeling damn ill.. so i just sit on de study room chair and stone... lols.. how i wished i stoned in front of the tv instead... sobs.. nvm.. must watch on saturdae.. =)
my lord, i dun undst why u inflict me with de exact same pain as b4, and made it worst... it realli hurts alot.. everytime i swallow smth, its lyk swallowing a knife.. and no matter how much i pray, u wudnt take de pain away.. although u did lemme slp wifout wakin and realisin de pain.. but when im awake.. it hurts lyk hell.. i pray my lord u wud allow me to recover soon... i stil love u =))
i dled a rather basic graphic design prog called wizardbrush.. but its nth compared to adobe photoshop cs2 which is lyk super duper ex lahs... i wonder how come my sun nu and clara hv.. its lyk sooo ex.. i also want lehs... aiya but compared to paint... wizardbrush is much much more sophisticated... hahas.. de pics turn out ok too.. the effects are ok... quite nice lahs..
kaes.. think i shud stop bloggin alr.. hahas... i wanna go slack now.. wif this bludy throat i dunno how im gonna study lahs... damn suay lors.. anibdy noe of good remedie for curing and relieving de pain?? if have plz leave sum behind lehs.. shall be eternalli grateful
clara said i was lyk shunda.. i surmise its not anithing good... well i dunno, i gues sumtimes i dunno where to draw the line b/w jokes and being serious.. although i have to admit im gettin mor and mor uncontrollable... i guess i shud apologise.. well sorri clara... if i pissed u off in ani way
but i realli dunno wad it take to please everybody lahs.. i try to shift into different forms of myself to suit each individual, and honestly.. its quite tiring.. sumtimes i even forget to change my form, den make ppl unhappi, well i noe nbdy ask me to do it and its my own fault.. but sumtimes i wonder, if anione actualli gives a damn how i feel. when i feel angry, ppl sae im being unreasonable, when im sad, ppl sae im being problematic, when im too happi, ppl sae im too nonchalant. i guess i hv nbdy to blame.. i brought this all upon myself, and if i were give the same choices, i wud still choose de same thing.. oh wells, we live wif our choices, we do wad we can.. im not gg to regret.. if dis path was meant for a wierdo i'll be de wierdo den
loves!!! [aollovin]
Saturday, September 02, 2006
sumtimes it gets so hard to do things dat u noe are neccessary but causes so much hurt, tie break.. its time lyk dis where i question myself whether i did de right thing.. but im willing to give up de thing i treasure most if ultimately it helps.. i will break de ties of frenship i have to do wad i have to do. u alr noe wad my greatest weakness is, im afraid of losing my frens.. i realli am, so i wud do anithing to keep them, but this deters me from doing the thing dat i noe have to be done...
but im willing to give up the greatest happiness i have to give sumone a chance at finding his/her own happiness.. even if i hv to lose dem.. and everytime i lose sumone, i feel lyk my heart is being torn into two, i feel damn guilty and lousy... and i feel lyk such a loser.. but i dun mind.. if i have to feel lyk a loser to tear dat person away from sorrow and expose him/her to the truth, den so be it.
maybe in time, ppl wud undst wad im tryin to do, maybe not,, but im gonna take dat chance, i place my faith in dat person and i believe ppl will find thier way into de light, happiness, joy and laughter again. and den i will noe my sacrifice has not been in vain.
im not tryin to act noble and place myself as sum kinda person hu nds revering and respect.. thats not wad i want.. im not tryin to be sum kinda saint or holy messenger... because im NOT, all i wanna do is just find de warmth dat is in everybody, i want them to discover hu they trueli are, because i have lived in anger, hate and sorrow b4, and i noe its an extremely empty and painful thing to go thru. i dun want ppl to go thru wad ive been thru, i dun want pp to be unhappi bcoz i noe wad being unhappi is like.. i juz want ppl to find the hope and miracle in their life.
i never gave up tryin though there are times which i almoz did, but no, i held on, mostly with de help of my lord, and i gave wad i cud... i admit there are many times when i have been unkind, bad tempered, childish and irritating.. i do admit, and i noe it will still happen becoz im onli human after all.. i will nv find perfection in me becoz im not.. there will awaez be times when i will do foolish and stupid things.. but so wad.. get on.. theres no point in sittin and sulkin... it doesnt solve anithin. and so will others, there will awaez be ppl hu make mistake, but isnt it impt to 4giv them as well? wudnt u wan sumone to do de same for u when u do smth wrong? so find forgiveness in ur hearts... when u forgive, u not onli bring happiness to others, but urself as well. dun u feel tired hating, dun u feel tired being angry.. i now i did..
and to ppl hu think im juz blindly following the lord, ure wrong, although the bible saes obey all of gods word, but no i hv nt done dat.. in fact de lord said it is impossible to please everybody, but no i disagreed and i told him theres no harm in tryin. and he says for ppl to go to heaven u nd to accpet christ, and again i disagreed and said that the lord created evry single one of us, so we are all his children and we shud all hv the right to enter the gates of heaven to be with him again. no one shud be deprived of dat. and i also asked him to let me enter hell instead and let all hu do not believe enter heaven instead... becoz i have had the privilage of being loved byhim, but others have not. but i refused to force ppl to convert as well, because i believe love shud come from the heart and not from duty... so no i dun blindly follow god, im not one of those super stonch christian, but i do love god alot.. i realli do, and i noe he will forgive me and allow me to speak freely...
for 15 years of my life, i hv been a self centered, selfish, hateful and angry person... i hated de world for makin me sad, i hated de ppl hu brought misery to my life, i hated evryone and anyone except myself... but in doing so, i wasnt happi, i was nv truely happi, i know de temporary joy u recieve when u see ppl u hate suffer, but its even more fulfillin and wonderful to see dat u can make ppl sad, smile. thats all i wanna do, all i want to do is giv ppl hu are unhappi a chance at being happi... is dat wrong? is it wad u call a busybody and extra? well even if it is, its not stopping me. even if de world has to hate me, even if i lost all my joy and hopes, i wun stop.. i do wad i can..
my lord.. i noe dat urs is de one and onli way.. but if u love me, help me... i dun want to be ever alone, i can lose evrythin but i wud want u to awaez stay wif me..
life isnt a roller coaster, it isnt a crossroad, isnt a drag, isnt a job nor a mission or wadeva u think it is. life is living wif happiness, trust, faith, hopes and dreams. if u cant even live life den u dun noe wad life is, so dun presume u do.
loves [aollovin]
but im willing to give up the greatest happiness i have to give sumone a chance at finding his/her own happiness.. even if i hv to lose dem.. and everytime i lose sumone, i feel lyk my heart is being torn into two, i feel damn guilty and lousy... and i feel lyk such a loser.. but i dun mind.. if i have to feel lyk a loser to tear dat person away from sorrow and expose him/her to the truth, den so be it.
maybe in time, ppl wud undst wad im tryin to do, maybe not,, but im gonna take dat chance, i place my faith in dat person and i believe ppl will find thier way into de light, happiness, joy and laughter again. and den i will noe my sacrifice has not been in vain.
im not tryin to act noble and place myself as sum kinda person hu nds revering and respect.. thats not wad i want.. im not tryin to be sum kinda saint or holy messenger... because im NOT, all i wanna do is just find de warmth dat is in everybody, i want them to discover hu they trueli are, because i have lived in anger, hate and sorrow b4, and i noe its an extremely empty and painful thing to go thru. i dun want ppl to go thru wad ive been thru, i dun want pp to be unhappi bcoz i noe wad being unhappi is like.. i juz want ppl to find the hope and miracle in their life.
i never gave up tryin though there are times which i almoz did, but no, i held on, mostly with de help of my lord, and i gave wad i cud... i admit there are many times when i have been unkind, bad tempered, childish and irritating.. i do admit, and i noe it will still happen becoz im onli human after all.. i will nv find perfection in me becoz im not.. there will awaez be times when i will do foolish and stupid things.. but so wad.. get on.. theres no point in sittin and sulkin... it doesnt solve anithin. and so will others, there will awaez be ppl hu make mistake, but isnt it impt to 4giv them as well? wudnt u wan sumone to do de same for u when u do smth wrong? so find forgiveness in ur hearts... when u forgive, u not onli bring happiness to others, but urself as well. dun u feel tired hating, dun u feel tired being angry.. i now i did..
and to ppl hu think im juz blindly following the lord, ure wrong, although the bible saes obey all of gods word, but no i hv nt done dat.. in fact de lord said it is impossible to please everybody, but no i disagreed and i told him theres no harm in tryin. and he says for ppl to go to heaven u nd to accpet christ, and again i disagreed and said that the lord created evry single one of us, so we are all his children and we shud all hv the right to enter the gates of heaven to be with him again. no one shud be deprived of dat. and i also asked him to let me enter hell instead and let all hu do not believe enter heaven instead... becoz i have had the privilage of being loved byhim, but others have not. but i refused to force ppl to convert as well, because i believe love shud come from the heart and not from duty... so no i dun blindly follow god, im not one of those super stonch christian, but i do love god alot.. i realli do, and i noe he will forgive me and allow me to speak freely...
for 15 years of my life, i hv been a self centered, selfish, hateful and angry person... i hated de world for makin me sad, i hated de ppl hu brought misery to my life, i hated evryone and anyone except myself... but in doing so, i wasnt happi, i was nv truely happi, i know de temporary joy u recieve when u see ppl u hate suffer, but its even more fulfillin and wonderful to see dat u can make ppl sad, smile. thats all i wanna do, all i want to do is giv ppl hu are unhappi a chance at being happi... is dat wrong? is it wad u call a busybody and extra? well even if it is, its not stopping me. even if de world has to hate me, even if i lost all my joy and hopes, i wun stop.. i do wad i can..
my lord.. i noe dat urs is de one and onli way.. but if u love me, help me... i dun want to be ever alone, i can lose evrythin but i wud want u to awaez stay wif me..
life isnt a roller coaster, it isnt a crossroad, isnt a drag, isnt a job nor a mission or wadeva u think it is. life is living wif happiness, trust, faith, hopes and dreams. if u cant even live life den u dun noe wad life is, so dun presume u do.
loves [aollovin]
Friday, September 01, 2006
i shall blog for ppl todae.. hmms.. i promised i wud nv get angry ever again, i promised i wud try to make ppl smile, i promised i wud onli listen and not speak, and i promised i wud be kind to no matter was.. but todae im gonna release myself from these promises, well heres to ppl hu think ur lifes sux(includin myself):
(start message) "u DO NOT have the followin bloody rights
- to think ur life sux
- to remain angry and sad
- to hate the world
- to hate urself
- to think de world shud change for u
- to think ppl will change for u
- to think the whole world owes u ur happiness
- to hate ppl
- to think dat everybody else is at fault xcept urself
- to complain
dats all i can think of for now, if i do hv more, i wil post them..
u wanna noe why u dun have the bloody rights stated above? because there are a unreasonably large amount of ppl hu are sufferin more den u! a whole load of ppl hu are more unfortunate den u, more tragic and sad things happening in thier life den ur miserable crap which makes u hate life. wake up ur bludy idea man! u noe wads the prob wif u ppl, u are GREEDY, u always want more den is enough, u want more den u can get, and u want more even though u alr have everything.. and when u dun get wad u want, u throw ur stupid childish tantrums and shed ur self pitying tears.. u wanna noe wads sad? try living ur lifes by counting ur fingers, try losing all ur loved ones, try losing an arm, limb, try losing the ability to speak, see, hear, taste and feel, try being sexualli abused, try living with deformity. wad not enuff for u? not enuff for u to think dat ure stil damn hell fortunate? " (end message)
alright.. deep breath.. im sorri i had to sae all those horrible things, im sorri i had to punch u so hard on the face, im sorri i had to smash ur self created misery haven.. but dun u reallit hink dat ure realli mor fortunate den so many others.. wad ure going thru now.. its realli nth compared to wad many others are gg thru now..(myself included). but i do noe dat life is full of happiness.. so much things dat we hv yet to learn about and so much to smile about.. yes ppl out there have to face those terrible tragic events, but we dun hv to, and noone is sayin we hv to, its gods gift dat we can be happi, and its our right as well.. we muz be happi becoz we have been given the ability to create our own happiness.. dun cry.. why cry.. why shed tears.. god gave us tears to not cry of sadness but to shed tears of joy.. we werent given anger to be unhappi, but given anger to stand up for wads right, we werent given sorrow to be sad, but to appreciate how great it is to be happi..
i have experienced sadness, felt unloved, felt despair and helplessness, i do noe dat its natural to wanna feel sad when bad things happen.. i do not attempt to undst the amount of pain u go thru, and i also undst dat life may nt awaez be fair.. i have had my own share of them, and i still will, and so will u.. but dat doesnt mean we shud give up our happiness, our hopes and dreams.. i do not expect all of u to be happi all de time too.. but i do hope dat u will at least try, dats why i wanna make ppl smile.. i lyk seeing people happi.. isnt it so wonderful to see sumone break out in laughter. see sumone falshin a smile.. the joy reflectd in thier eyes.. i tried gvin wad ppl wanted for them to be happi, but i realized dats not the way... to make ppl smile.. wad i nd to do is gv them back hope, love and faith.. alright.. i'll end here, my lord, thankew for being with me.. and to those hu agree, wish me lucks..a nd to those dat still feel sad.. well, i'll do my best =)
benjamin.
(start message) "u DO NOT have the followin bloody rights
- to think ur life sux
- to remain angry and sad
- to hate the world
- to hate urself
- to think de world shud change for u
- to think ppl will change for u
- to think the whole world owes u ur happiness
- to hate ppl
- to think dat everybody else is at fault xcept urself
- to complain
dats all i can think of for now, if i do hv more, i wil post them..
u wanna noe why u dun have the bloody rights stated above? because there are a unreasonably large amount of ppl hu are sufferin more den u! a whole load of ppl hu are more unfortunate den u, more tragic and sad things happening in thier life den ur miserable crap which makes u hate life. wake up ur bludy idea man! u noe wads the prob wif u ppl, u are GREEDY, u always want more den is enough, u want more den u can get, and u want more even though u alr have everything.. and when u dun get wad u want, u throw ur stupid childish tantrums and shed ur self pitying tears.. u wanna noe wads sad? try living ur lifes by counting ur fingers, try losing all ur loved ones, try losing an arm, limb, try losing the ability to speak, see, hear, taste and feel, try being sexualli abused, try living with deformity. wad not enuff for u? not enuff for u to think dat ure stil damn hell fortunate? " (end message)
alright.. deep breath.. im sorri i had to sae all those horrible things, im sorri i had to punch u so hard on the face, im sorri i had to smash ur self created misery haven.. but dun u reallit hink dat ure realli mor fortunate den so many others.. wad ure going thru now.. its realli nth compared to wad many others are gg thru now..(myself included). but i do noe dat life is full of happiness.. so much things dat we hv yet to learn about and so much to smile about.. yes ppl out there have to face those terrible tragic events, but we dun hv to, and noone is sayin we hv to, its gods gift dat we can be happi, and its our right as well.. we muz be happi becoz we have been given the ability to create our own happiness.. dun cry.. why cry.. why shed tears.. god gave us tears to not cry of sadness but to shed tears of joy.. we werent given anger to be unhappi, but given anger to stand up for wads right, we werent given sorrow to be sad, but to appreciate how great it is to be happi..
i have experienced sadness, felt unloved, felt despair and helplessness, i do noe dat its natural to wanna feel sad when bad things happen.. i do not attempt to undst the amount of pain u go thru, and i also undst dat life may nt awaez be fair.. i have had my own share of them, and i still will, and so will u.. but dat doesnt mean we shud give up our happiness, our hopes and dreams.. i do not expect all of u to be happi all de time too.. but i do hope dat u will at least try, dats why i wanna make ppl smile.. i lyk seeing people happi.. isnt it so wonderful to see sumone break out in laughter. see sumone falshin a smile.. the joy reflectd in thier eyes.. i tried gvin wad ppl wanted for them to be happi, but i realized dats not the way... to make ppl smile.. wad i nd to do is gv them back hope, love and faith.. alright.. i'll end here, my lord, thankew for being with me.. and to those hu agree, wish me lucks..a nd to those dat still feel sad.. well, i'll do my best =)
benjamin.
hahas, as pro,ised i shall post bout de results.. todae.. joakim was out.. i dunno whether its a good or a bad thing, but i do noe its a SAD thing.. and its a real pity esp since he has started to improve... alots.. hahas.. but i guess hes realli tired and alr gave his best shot lahs.. so lets juz wish him all de best yahs? lols... btw i saw nurul at s'pore idol as a spectator.. sobs i still miss her voice.. and did u noe, jasmine is actualli quite a good singer, esp when she sang christina aguilera songs.. not bad lors.... hahas.. well dats about it lahs.. but i guess things arent over yet, the was-idols will be is-idols again, mayb nt this yr, mayb nt nxt yr, but sum dae lahs.. lols..
i wanna rave about this new song i heard recentli!!! OOOOoooo!!! SHOOOO nice!!!!!!!!!! hahas, its called 'falco' and its sang by hitomi shimatani, it has a real catchy tune and sum kinda egyptian effect which is lyk realli realli cool.. alas... jap song, and jap lyrics arent the easiest thing to rmb, hahas.. i think i probably nd a week if i wanna learn by listenin, if i take de effort to realli go memorise, den prob about 3 daes.. but nahs.. dats too tuff.. right now just luk at lyrics and sing lahs.. ITS SHO NICE!!! i shall go hunt for the music code to put on my blog so everyone can hear it.. lols... VERI NICE!!! lols... ok.. i shall go enjoy it nows.. lols
loves!!! [aollovin]
i wanna rave about this new song i heard recentli!!! OOOOoooo!!! SHOOOO nice!!!!!!!!!! hahas, its called 'falco' and its sang by hitomi shimatani, it has a real catchy tune and sum kinda egyptian effect which is lyk realli realli cool.. alas... jap song, and jap lyrics arent the easiest thing to rmb, hahas.. i think i probably nd a week if i wanna learn by listenin, if i take de effort to realli go memorise, den prob about 3 daes.. but nahs.. dats too tuff.. right now just luk at lyrics and sing lahs.. ITS SHO NICE!!! i shall go hunt for the music code to put on my blog so everyone can hear it.. lols... VERI NICE!!! lols... ok.. i shall go enjoy it nows.. lols
loves!!! [aollovin]
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