hahas.. notice my life is realli different now.. its so much more interesting den how i used to be.. i finalli feel lyk a teenager man.. rather den a homesick sicko.. lols.. i rmb i nv use to go out.. and everytime i plan to go out, smth wud crop up and in de end it wun happen

now is lyk so different!! i even sneak out of de house juz to go out!! yah its a bad and naughty thing to do.. lols.. did i sae naughty?? snds wierd.. lols.. but yah.. been sneakin out.. twice.. and twice is juz b4 de olvl exams.. LOl!!!

bleah not lyk i care aniwae.. i juz wanna go out and hv FUN!!! esp wif loy!!! lols.. i hv to make up for all de lost time.. all de time i was nth but a dull boy.. LOL!! yea.. i juz so love life now.. dis sat gg to orchard.. FUNFUNFUNFUN!!!!

went to causeway pt todae.. it was BIG, but den nth much lors... timezone was nice.. play table hockey wif loy.. i lost.. hahas.. we walked de entire shoppin centre in bout 1 hr and a half.. lyk there wasnt realli much to see la.. but we stil crap and joke alot.. so every min was juz plain fun..
enjoyed it so mucH!! hahas.. bet this sat will be even better!!

i think im probably gg to go out lyk every 3 daes once during de hols.. not dat im gonna spend much ba.. juz go out and hang.. woots.. seek out hangin partners and juz HANG.. LOlS! of coz my bez bud wud nv be forgotten!! hahas...

i love nokia 5300.. so shiok lahs!! 1.5k songs.. lyk wth.. im so gonna get it for my bdae nxt yr!!! loy wants it too!! but muz save 138 bucks.. nt ez lors.. hahas.. i muz hlp too!! i sponsor 38 bucks!! LOL!!! but u gonna hv to find de other 100 urself hors.. unless i strike 4d, den i buy for u.. LOL!!

two more daes till de Os are over.. 3 more daes to orchard.. juz cant wait.. ever heard of a full time slacker/outdoorholic? ME! ME !! LOL!!..

この生命を賭けて護りたい愛に出逢い!!! [benj]

when u feel cheated and used.. wad wud u do?? not sure.. but i bet it wun be anitin nice.. hais.. when u expect sumone, or rather u tot sumone was a good person, wif integrity and kindness, warmth and sincerity.. but in de end this person turns out to be a crook, sumone wif no conscience, no heart, no compassion.. hu thinks only about oneself..

it sux doesnt it? esp when u tot u can trust this person, esp when u once treated this person as one of ur closest fren.. but in de end, amounts to nth more than a lowlife.. wad are u suppose to do den? when u feel angry and hurt, but u juz dun wan to see dat he degrades ani furthur...

but then u feel dat u dun wan to do anithing, coz u hv ppl hu are worth more attention, worth more time.. worthy of more kindness and effort.. lols.. im realli creatin my own headaches.. wad shud u do then?? help? or juz ignore..?

i dun want to waste my time on ppl hu doesnt appreciate, treat me lyk trash, why shud i? but i cant just let myself see them slip into a road of no return.. wad shud i do wad shud i do?? >.<

ahh heck lahs.. juz wait for the solution to come to me eventualli..

i hate fakers and hypocrites. i hate thieves and liars.. i hate ppl hu doesnt give two hoots how other ppl feel.. i hate myself for hatin ppl.. lols.. i realli do.. but im realli onli human after all.. i hv feelins too..

hahas.. loves!! [ benj]

four more daes of olvls.. 7 more daes to extreme fun.. 2 more daes to causeway? 12 more daes to Prom.. 14 more daes to a shoppin spree in thailand. so many countdowns.. so little time.. LOL!!! juz cant wait for these daes.. ExCitEd

ahhs.. life is nice for me now.. i feel nice and happi.. do so love it.. well its hardly a surprse considering i hv so many wonderful things.. and i do so love them.. LOLs..

aiya todae sumthing bad happend i guess.. kinda lyk a misunderstanding, which lead to temperatures rising and angry words to come out.. but it was settled lah in de end.. which is good .. coz i think things turned out even better.. hees.. dun count ur disasters till they happen

i fell in love with dis SUPER NICE SHIOK LOOKING shirt in lot 1's man studio.. OMG LAHS!!!! i WANT!!!! but i dun noe how expensive it is though.. but iw as hopin to get it b4 nxt sat, den i can wear to orchard.. its FREAKIN NICE LORS!!! i MUZ have it.. hahas

oh yah, saw it coz on fri went wif loy to lot 1 to eat lunch, emath start at 2.30 mah.. so go eat b4 dat lors.. den after we ate kfc.. laugh at sum ugly hairstyle, we left to walk around.. i DO thing lot 1 is boring.. dere was hardly anithin to do...
oh yah!!! there was this freakin nice bag there lah!! lyk so fell in love wif it.. BIG time.. not as much as the shirt.. but its was freakin nice too... den went to LEVIs to chk out de jeans.. nth special
den saw converse.. loy fell in love wif a..... BASKETBALL.. -.- LOL!! yah, he said de ball was freakin nice.. hmms.. if u ask me.. its juz 4/3(pie)(r)cube LOL!!! nth special...
went to look at shoes.. and at giordano, there was this shoe dat look exactly lyk mine.. i was lyk.. wth lah... considering de shoe was frm bodyglove.. Copeecats.. lols
it was fun lors.. though nth much to do.. lols.. cant wait till de nxt time.. hahas

so far the Os has been okae lah.. hope will get better.. kae ppl.. juz chiong abit mor.. den plan ur fun and GO CRAZEE!!!! keep cool and good lUCKS!!!

loves!!! [benj]

wahs.. time passes so fast.. so so so fast.. u might not believe it but now im onli left wif amath, chem, emath and hist.. and of which 2 i dun hv to study, one i onli nd to juz read thru and only de last is a study subj.. wahs.. i feel so free alr lors.. so so free...

im gonna be so sastisfied wif my life bcoz i hv so many great ppl arnd me!!! of my my best bud has been.. well DE BEZ!!! lols!!! and my other frens as well.. they rock too! hahas.. im so gonna look forward to nxt sat.. im GOIN ORCHARD AND GO CRAZY!!! hahas.. yea..
firz i shall go HMV.. chk out de latest music craze... woots!!
nxt is off to cineleisure for lunch and a wild time at de arcade!!
den is off to walk around.. mayb we cud go to takashimaya to chk out de ex clothes den can onli see cnt buy... =((
den.. hmms... walk sumore lors.. mayb go eat ice cream... OOOooooOOO... den after dat mayb PARAGORN.. erm to gawk and de stuff?? LOL!!!!
LOL!!! i dun care lahs.. all i noe im gonna hv so much FUN!!!

tmr is emath paper 2.. shud be fine la... mayb juz chk out a few forms and read thru shearing and stretchin.. yupsyups... den prob spend hours tokin on de phone again... LOL!!! i seriousli lyk obasan man.. BLEAH!!! too bad.. ahahas

i cant believe i can finally sae dis.. olvls gg to end le.. DUN STUDY SO HARD!!!! plan ur fun now man... it makes studyin so much less painful lahs!! WHEEeee... hahas.. i lyk slacker lyk dat.. but im not lors.. is juz dat chem and amath i rly prepare alot alr lors..

my lord.. u hv no idea how much u hlped me... not one time did u not answer my prayer.. thank u so so so much...

i have my bez fren, my great frens, a great god, a good family... i guess it shud be enuff.. =))

loves!!!!! [benj]

oh man... its been such a long time since i last blogged.. guess ive kinda been bz.. either wif studyin or chattin online.. it cud be playin too.. but hahas.. yea.. juz din take time out for bloggin..

but i wanna blog about wad i cud sae is de most happy or de most wonderful ting dat ever happend to me b4 lahs... i found a best fren.. and sumone hu treats me not lyk trash nor use me lyk im sum kind of toy... i nv felt so blessed b4

b4 this, i guess i cud sae i made 2 realli big mistakes.. i place my trust in de wrong people, did things dat i shudnt have to do.. wasted my time feelin sad and upset.. and end up feelin lyk ive been sorely used and den thrown away.. but im over dat now..

im realli glad i found a best fren sumone hu i can juz go crazy wif.. crap about everything under de sun.. laugh so much dat my stomach hurts.. even singing!! den invite over to my house to hv more fun.. LOL!! this are de things dat make me feel lyk im de luckiest person on earth

when sumone tells u dat they will be frens wif u 4eva.. its de best present dat u can eva recieve.. esp when it doesnt come wif bears made out of commas and fullstops.. and swt words.. but sincere, real life words... words dat arent done out of convenience but wif real feelings

when sumone tells u dat ure de best fren and bud they eva have.. its also de best present u can eva recieve... esp when it comes wif EXCLAIMATION MARKS!!! LOL!!! its even better den winning big sweep lors.. den u juz sit and umchio!!! LOL!!! yes it snds extremeli ridiculous but dats wad i did aniwae.. LOL!!!!

its realli times lyk this when u feel nth in de world can go wrong.. and esp when u can tell urself dat all dat u did was not for nth.. and dat when u sincereli care for ur frens, dey will give u back de same treatment...

hahas... till now im still in disbelief.. from how nice it feels to be so appreciated.. to be treated as sumone impt... and esp when de person saes it out.. its been a long time since i eva felt this way..
rly rly long time.. but its worth de wait.. realli realli worth it...

i hv no doubts now about a lasting frenship btw two best buds.. i wun doubt animore lyk b4.. hahas.. i may hv met ppl hu hurt me, hu treat me lyk crap, and take advantage of me.. but i hv even more ppl hu cared for me and are my frens hu wud nv hurt me...
my clsmates, esp de prom ppl im gg wif... hu i share de most laughs and joy wif..
angeline, amanda hu i awaez go back home wif and took so many photos together
yj, benja, weiling hu have been realli great frens durin my times in 4.1
and then theres those hu are not in my skool like ziq, ck(hu i tell my stories to) and terin hu helped me even when she nded hlp herself, huan min, my dear mei hu awaez smiles and my cuz, val, hu i made rly good frens wif again
and then theres de lord... hu wud i have none of these if it wasnt for him
and de last person, but definately not the least, aloysius!! hahas.. hu gave me de happiest times of my life and made me believe in frens again.. de culprit guilty of de above actions.. LOL!!! thankew so much!!! and lyk u said, frens 4eva means FRENS 4EVA!!!! and bez frens at dat!! =))

im truely happi wif wad i hv.. and i shall no longer live in de darkness of my past and forget de pain i once went thru.. i wun deny there will be more times when i might be hurt by others again or by myself.. but as long as i hv all my great buds and my greatest pal, i noe i will make it..
i promise myself dat..

[all my life] by K-Ci and Jojo
I will never find another luva sweeta than you,
Sweeta than you
And I will never find anutha luva more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are
Close to me you're like my mother
Close to me you're like my father
Close to me you're like my sister
Close to me you're like my brutha
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

And all my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinkin' of.....baby

Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinkin' of, I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug
I really love you

And all my life, baby, baby, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you, baby
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me
You're all that I ever known

When you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow
You turned my life around
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile on your face all I see is a glow
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile on your face all I see is a glow
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

realli glad i have my great buds and my greatest pal!!! loves!!![benj]