i din blog yest.. grahhh.

went out for flag day wif george yest. and i have to say its de most ridiculous flag day i have EVER done. hahahas, we met at yck, took a cab to de meetin area and found a stupendously long queue. there was so MANYY people.. hahas and whilst queing halfway, i, the smart aleck tot i found a place with a shorter queue (that place was de returning, ooops) and and and.. de funnie thing is dat all de AJ people started following me. hahas. so yea, felt lyk a big time idiot. wahahahas.

den finally the lady decided to let us AJ people jump de queue coz it was rly ridiculously long and there were so few of us. hahas, dat lady rawks la.

okayy den we headed out to braddell and went to glasshouse fish and co. hahas, damn shiok lahs, i miss fish and co lahh.. and de fish and chips were great. hees. yups after eatin we left for eunos.

arriving there, we started doing wad we did for de last flag dae. but guess wad, nOt a SINGLE person came and give me.. lyk wth.. so we stood there for lyk 20 mins and george proposed changing area. so we did, we decided to go geylang..

but in de end, we just sat 154 and headed all de way to bukit timah.. i think de ride was about 50 mins long.. bwahahahas, so slack can?? and and and, in de end, we actually alighted at bukit timah and took 67 to CHOA CHU KANG!!! AHHH, its lyk practically gg home alr.

but waitt.. its not idiotic.. let me tell u how idiotic it got. I WENT HOME!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! coz we rly din do anth at all, other den bus rides, mrt rides, lunch.. we din do flag day at all. so in de end, we had to go my house and get coins to stuff de bag. and omfg, i actually paid 10 dollars worth of coins to fill up de bag. EFFFFFFFFing flag day lah. i think dat day alone, i spent 35 bucks.. F U C *

okayyy.. and den.. i had to go all de way back to BRADDELL. AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

den after returnin de bags of coins filled wif OUR own money.. we went out for dinner at toa payoh hub. okayyy.. i feel lyk de greatest idiot of de world.

so yea, imagine this,

cck - yck - braddell - eunos - geylang - bukit timah - cck - home - cck - braddell - toa payoh - cck.

so yea, tell me ive not lyk travelled at least half de singapore.. grahhh..

hahas, but travelling and money aside. i was really happy yest. i hvn felt so happy for a long time alr. it was in all sense, expensive, tiring and draining but.. i was rly happy. hahas, after all hanging out wif ur best fren.. its more den i can ever ask for. so yups. i am happy. so thx man, for the great day. i rly genuinely enjoyed it.

yupsyups. so concludes de day. hahahas, i wonder if theres a prize for most incredibly lazy flag day person.. wahahahas. and most stupid as well.. and lame and dumb and........

hahahas. yups.

replies:

angel: hahahahas, rlyy?? TY!!! hahahas, i love her eyes.. yups u tc too!!! and yaH!!! i'll see u dis saturday!!! aHHHH cant WAIT!!! lol. XD

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i feel bad because im suppose to update my blog everyday. but im not doing it. so from now on i shall! yups. i will.

went out wif the 4/3 gang on mon. had a great time at orchard. hahas, we shopped, ate, rented movies and took neos. and a new totally rad wallpaper for my phone. hahas. damn nice. and i miss them veri much. will b seeing u guys soon!!

cant upload any photos coz my camera is wif che, grahh.. i actually forgot to take it back.. stupid absent minded me. sry che for de inconvenience. shyt it man. no cam. no photos. ><

i miss wasting my life away lyk wad i did today. just watchin tv, wakin up rly late, eating, more watching tv, playin sum lame online games.. yups, i do miss dis sort of life.

i rly dun wan to go into de emotional part of my life right now. i think its rly scary, bcoz last time no matter how hard things got, i wud still face dem. even if i had to cry alot. but now, i refuse to face them. R E F U S E. mayb this is my mind's way of protecting me.

but im happy i guess. becoz i dun hv to face my probs. im just smiling away, mayb not truely happy, but at least im not sad. and de great thing is dat i no longer giv a damn about myself. serious. its great la. this way, i can do wadeva pleases everyone. yups

i love u my lord. i hv no idea why i suddenly say this, but wifout u, i think i wud have been dead by now.

hahas. okaes, long time since i replied all de tags. rly sorry.

replies:

edwina: hey edwina!! hahas so u must have tagged using ur LT. hahahas ty veri much!! and thx for talkin to me dat day. i rly appreciate it veri much. u rawk la edwina.

yang: lol. yups. The Vilage. wad happend?? how come u feel down?? oh dearr.. u muz tell me ok?? and juz call me anytime. im not sure if i can hlp, but at least i can hlp listen. kk?

sophie: hahahas, its not rly a survey la.. its more a questionnaire.. but hu cares wad its called anw.. hahas. ure in de camp now.. and i miss u alot lahh.. once u come out lets go out.. OK?? hahas. hearts!!

yanz: heys amanda DA JIE!!! hahahaas.. same old benj?? lol!! yah i guess so ba. or mayb ive changed.. im also not rly sure.. lets meet up soon to find out okKKK?? hahahahas!! tc lots too!! cya real SOON.

syafs: heys my sweet dearr.. hahas, i wud if i had my cam wif now.. so upsettin.. i dun hv my photos!! grahh.. dun wry, real soon real reall soon.. ILU TOO!!!

siokxin: hahas, yah im not only exasperating, im irritating, upsettin and incredibly stupid as well. haiz. yah i hrd it alot of times liao. but yea, im cheerin uP!! u too also ok!!?? i believe things will b fine for u. god bless.. hearts!!

hantu: yes.. i nd one.. *hugs back* tyvm. hahahas

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its over

Four voices perfectly blending right from the start.
Oh, I'm afraid thats ending, and my world is falling apart.

It's over, and I feel so alone,
This is a sadness I've never known.
How did I let the sweetest of dreams slip away?
And I'm afraid the hurt is here to stay.

Promises made, not meant to be broken from a long time ago.
Oh, so many words still unspoken, tell me how I was to know.

It's over, (it's over,) never thought it would be.
Why in the world did this happen to me?
How could I let the sweetest of dreams slip away?
And I'm afraid the hurt is here to stay.

I go round and round and round in my head,
Wanting to take back whatever I said, (whatever I said.)
No one was right, (no one was right,)
We all made mistakes, (we all made mistakes,)
I'm ready to do whatever it takes.
Please, don't let it be

Over, no, this is not how it ends,
I need my sisters, my family, my friends.
Don't wanna let the sweetest of dreams slip away, (the dreams slip away.)
'Cause if it's over, then the hurt is here to stay.
(Don't let it be over.)
Please don't let it be over.
Please don't let it be over.



tell me.. if its over..
becoz i cant take de pain.
and i cant take de hurt.

wad a horrible song. its rly terrible. bcoz its just so scary. and i rly dun wan to feel this way. im lost in a sea of sadness, and every wave threatens to push me into oblivion, every current drags me furthur under. it wun be long till i drown.

it hurts to struggle.

i rather drown.

end it for me.

sumone.

anyone.

becoz i cant go on this way.

hahas, omg, my internet connection is not up yet. i aM VERY ANGRY. yes. i am.

again, im bloggin wif de skool library's computers. grahhhh. pissed. big time.

btw, de previous post is not mine, i wanted to do de list of questions but gave up halfway and sum smart aleck helped me go post it. hahas. okaes, coz i forgot to log out frm de lib com, so i guess de person was probably helpin me to do a favour.

i rly miss my internet connection, no msn, no bloggin, no surfin of the net, no finding of lyrics, no updating myself on de latest songs. so yea. life wifout a internet connection is effing disgusting.

and did i mention my entire phone line is dead as well?? I CANT MAKE PHONE CALLS!!! i think singtel is really bad lah. ok, dis may be considered slander, but i rly feel, my opinion, and it may be entirely groundless, is dat singtel rly does a bad job wif de new mio generation. okay shant sae more.

i rly miss my secondary skool frens. ALOT. and i rly wna find a dae dat i can go out wif dem. but dis sat is out.. grahh.. "be a lawyer dae" mayb sundae.. hmms.. shall make arrangements.

alot of things has been happening in my life.. mostly rly upsettin i guess.. and a few happi. i guess sumtimes life rly gets kinda down.. but its ok. i'll go on living. an stay strong. im not, but i have ppl hu i love and dun want to leave behind. and god doesnt wan me to go yet.

todae de guy is comin to fix my internet, my hopes arent high though. haiz.. i rly wan my internet connection back.

i miss bloggin everydae. and i miss seeing all my frens tags.. and replyin them as well.

replies:

naz: HEYS!! ure sittin beside me again!! bwahahaha. i heart nazeehah!!! wahahas. XD dat daes midsummer night dream was fun.. lets do it again soon!!

fangyi: heys!!! hahas, u came to tag again!! wheee!! lol. rly got arhs?? den u got join not?? u also nv ask me go see!! tsk. lol. aj also have, but i din join. hmms.. nxt yr i shall. hahahas.

yang: hahahas, rly arhs?? i nv rly see np food b4. i miss eatin carls jr and vi lage and sakae and i miss KBOX!!! AHHHHH!!! no lah i din get braces. i took dat list of questions drm my fren, did it halfway den sumone hlp me post b4 i completed it.

siokxin: heys my dear!!! hahas. i want to!!! de moment my internet comes back. i will BLOG EVERYDAE!!! hahas. cya ltr!! im in de library now. and i think ur econs just ended. bwahahhaas.

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bludy freakin hell lah, my bludy internet connection is down again.. im sorry guys, but right now i have to use de freakin skool lib com to update.. bwahahahas.

seriousli.. when de hell is my internet connection is gg to b okayyyyy???? I AM SO ANGRY!!!!! GRAHHH..

nw, finalli all de friggin term tests are over.. okayy yah.. i failed every single one of dem.. but not lyk i giv a damn aniwae... i think dey are lyk all single digits la... grahhhh..

okaes, i shall not hog de com, time for replies!! bwahhahas..

replies:

sophie: hahahas, yah de quiz is damn freakin fun!!! WOOOTS!! i wan more!! miss ya bruda!!!! [although ure sittin beside me now, seeing me type this.. bwahahaas]

cher: OMG!! HEYS!!! hahas!!! life is terrible now larr.. jc life is juz plain horriblee~ wahahas, i dun think i can make it.. anw, u leh?? hows life for u den?? fun not?? hahas.. hope to cya soon!!

yang: wahhh.. so good, got mich in ur cls.. hahas, wad kinda food do they have?? is de food cheap?? hahas.. no lors.. food is veri impt.. wahahas, although food makes ppl fat as well. hahas. miss u auntie!!!

ttk: HEYHEY!! hahas, hey i may b crashin pj one of these daes!! i MISS ALL OF U!!! hahas.. let me noe when u all free kk??

yuzhe: why client?? huhhh?? i rly dun get it.. hahas, lyk veri long nv see u le.. hmms why arhs?? HAHAHAS. cya ltr!!! hahas, im typin this durin my break. see u in gp!!

siokxin: HEYS SIOK XIN!!!!!! miss u~ HAHAHAHAS XD

sophie: wahahahas, too bad i cant go online and get it frm u.. grahhhhhh...

oi shan: wahahahahas, yes super lame man.. budden is i ask u to b lame one, so its OK!! hahahahas. im de lamest of dem all.. woooooOTSS

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im bored while waiting for dinner

Name 3 things in your purse/bag/pocket.
#oxygen, nitrogen and nothing

Name 3 things you do when you're really stressed.
# tom, dick and harry. u did ask me to name them right?

Name 3 favorite places to shop.
# mary, jill and jane. naming again??

Name 3 favorite fruits:
# im tired of naming.. can we do smt else now??

THE WHOS
Who is in the house with you now?
# people.

Who are you thinking about right now?
# you.

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
# my cat

Whose birthday is next?
# dunno leh. my hp is too far away for me to chk

Who do you wish you were with rightnow?
# my cat. hes suppose to be wif me at woodlands now, but he pangseh me

Who did u sms last?
#kaypo

THE WHERES
Where do you live?
# at home

Where is your home phone?
# at home la

Where do you sleep?
# AT HOME!!!!

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
# from my cupboard

Where is the last place you took a ride to?
# town

Which part are you in your house?
# toilet. no im kd. study room la

THE WHATS
What was the last thing you ate?
# food

What color shirt are you wearing?
# the coloured one

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
# dunno. im colour blind

What is your favorite color?
# just said i was colour blind can??

What kind of surgery have you had?
# i had a nose job, multiple breast implants and plastic surgery. yes im britney spears

What do you wear more jeans or shorts?
# i wear 'more jeans'. wadeva that is

What is the last movie you watched?
# dun ask.

What song do you currently hear?
# a nice song

What was your dream last night?
# a blur

THE WHENS
When did you start school?
# when i was at 3. nursery was fun

When is your birthday?
# on my bdae

When did you last go to the mall?
# just now

When was the last time you bought a pair of jeans?
# no money

When did you last burn a candle?
# im not dat careless, i lit it

When did you last see your dad?
# yesterdae

When did you last see your mom?
# just now

When did you last see your best friend(s)?
# just now

omg.. i rly feel damn badd. its been so long since i last blog. im rly sorry. skool's work has been catchin up wif me.. but still dats no reason to not blog everyday. alright.

since its gonna be too hard to try and recollect and write everything down.. i shal just blog bout smth else instead.

my list of resolutions.

1. i resolve to rent a dvd room at the top floor of cine and watch dvds wif my frens!!
2. i resolve to go to kbox at least 3 times in the month of june. and once in may.
3. i resolve to watch spider man 3, shrek 3 and POTC 3. the triple 3. lol
4. i resolve to at least go to george's house to stay at least twice in June.
5. i resolve to deposit at least 100 dollars worth of savings into my bank accnt b4 the end of june.
6. i resolve to study for my common tests during the last two weeks of the june hols
7. i resolve to train myself to never get angry.
8. i resolve to go out wif my old frens at least twice during the june hols.
9. i resolve to take at least 5 neos in from now till the end of June
10. i resolve to fulfil all my resolutions

hahas. okaes.

dun sae too much alr, got alot of tags to reply to, which i shall enjoy doing!! WHEEE!!!

replies:

hantu: lols. yes i shall take up on that offer very soon.. since im pretty weak and useless.. hmms.. hahas. ty oi shan!! ure lyk my guardian angel or my bodyguard.. bwahahas, hantu hantam. hahas.. kinda catchy yah?

syafs: MUAX MUAX MUAX!! I MISS U TOO!!! and ms ng is.. lalala. ok. hahas. our gpp was done in time.. i think i can sing and dance.. bwahahahas, though i was little hlp.. sryyy.. tc my dear!!

siokxin: omg.. NO!!!! how can u be so evill??? arhhhh... lol. dats juz plain horrible lah.. i dun want to kiss alvin.. if i have to kiss him everytime i emo, he wud turn into a veri beautiful princess.. LOL!!!

sophie: hahas. siokxin wants me to kiss a toad like creature mah.. LOL!! kdkd, alvin dun be mad arhs.. hahahas.. i shall cheer up la.. u also kk?? hugggggsss

alvin: hahas hello toadlike creature.. though i doubt u will eva turn into a beautiful princess.. even if u do, it will be one hell of a fugly... bwahhahas.. omg im so mean.. dun take offence arhs.. :X

yang: YES!!! omg i miss mdm hsueh so much cann?? omgomgomg.. lets find one dae and go back and visit her kk?? hahahahas

yanz: heys manda!!! yah lors, de bus ride was so short.. i miss u larr.. u also muz be happi kk?? muz be de bubbly vibrant amanda which i once knew too. god bless!!! cya arnd soon!!! tC!!

Q: yuan!! AHHH!!! dis is de firz time u tag leii.. wahhahas, u todae veri emo leii.. cheer up lahs. i shall buy 4d ok? and if i strike i give u 5% bwahahahas.. and im NOT communist lors. hahahas

angel: HIHIHIHI!!! hahahas, ur bdae party comin soon yah?? rly look forward to seeing u all soOOONNN!!! woooottt!!! hahas.. tc!! miss ya!!!

sophie: hahas repair liao la.. so fierce aiyooo... tsktsk.. hees

fangyi: OOOO!!! HELLO!!! YES!!! LONG TIME NO SEE!!! hahahas, my life is one big mess la, studies a total flop, hows life in pj man?? aiya u sure can one la.. tc yah?? cya sooN!!!

yang: sian ba.. lotsa tuts and tests.. and mid yrs are just a mth awae.. i wna die liao. haiz.. nvm dun talk abt depressing stuff.. how bout u?? poly life suits u not?? one dae muz bring me go visit visit leh and bring me to eat nice food.. i awaez go nyp and eat one.

yuzhe: eeeyer.. econs was juz.. effing difficult man. grahhh.. dun talk abt it. hmms.. yea ure right i guess.. but i dun wan to be so outrightly mean too lei.. its quite hurting.. grahh.. mayb its my own prob la, not others.. hmms.. hahas niwae, u take care too!!! cya in skool!!! and todae was pretty fun.. bwahahhas

sophie: aiyoo.. how come ur dad found out?? nvm.. we shall not go to lesons late again. hahas. i miss u too la.. although i juz saw u todae.. bwahahahas.

siokxin: so kaypo arhs?? lol. aiya i shall be nice and say its u.. LOL!! dun wry bout math la, over liao. i missed my posts too.. :/ lol!! lets go out soon!! and go back to pj!! wahahahas.

sophie: yay!! i finally updated!! and replied all my tags!! bwahahahas.

end replies.

gulp gulp. lol, im drinkin alot of water now. im damn thirsty. and did u noe feeling thirsty all the time is a sign of diabetes?? shudders* lol.

aniwae, firz off.. MY INTERNET HAS BEEN REPAIRED!!! WOOOOTS!!!! thank you you hu fixed it.

okaes. 2nd.. TY ALL!!! hu came to tag at my blog even though its been lyk 5 DAES since i last blogged!! grahh!!! but i love all of u!!! and i see many old frens!!! AHHHH!!! hahas. quite high arhs??

okaes, woodlands pasar malam was fun. although it was hot and my bag was effing heavy. grahh..

ok, i wud rly rly love to reply to those lovely lovely taggs.. ahhh.. budden, im rly damn tired, i tink i pushed myself a tad bit too hard for pe. lalala. wadeva. anw yea to b random, samadhi's cool. wahahas. yes random. and i miss bruda. and my cat hu din go wif me.. and my best girlfren hu wasnt there too.. sians.

okaes, i promise to reply all my tags tmr. i promise.

and btw, i love god.

and u

and u

and uu

hahas. byeee

im so tired. perhaps i shud slp earlier.

i still have pi pending. im lost on hu to pick. which rly sucks. mr tan practicalli throws aside all my candidates. hahas. not dat i mind la. its juz.. troublesome.

ppl are awaez tellin me dat im easily taken advantage off. im not rly sure la. and i dun wan to go think dat way too. i still rmb sumone hu i respect veri much told me once b4, dat better sumone take adv of me den i take adv of sumone.

hahas, i rly agree. and it takes so much strength to think dat way, so yea, i rly wna be lyk her. kind and loving. hahas, ok abit random but, yah.. i rly miss my teacher so much. hahas

but honestly, im quite sick of sum ppl. sum hu just use me indiscriminately. wad am i to u?? a tool?? lyk eff u la. its just ur luck dat im sumone hu doesnt noe how to sae "no". grrr, forget it. i shud probably get use to it alr.

i rly thank god for my best fren. i rly dunno wad i wud do wifout him la. although i admit sumtimes hes awaez pissing me off big time.. but i noe he still is sumone i can depend on.

and den i wna thank god for my best gurl fren. hahas, hu rly makes life so much easier for me.

and i wna thank all the others.. my darlings, my fat piggy, my bruda, bruda in law and everyone else hu i rly love so much. i rly dunno wad i wud do wifout all of u.

and of coz my all frens hu have awaez been there.. esp cheryl.. i rly rly miss hanging out wif u all lahs.

omg, im so emo no lah. hahas

kk, i nda go do pi le.

and sumone is seriousli making me damn mad. im so freaking angry.. but nvm.. grahhh..

replies.

siokxin: hahas, its funnie meh?? it makes alot of sense to me leh.. LOL. i rly wish i had two hearts lors. hahas i rather be retarded.. wait do i?? LOL. hahas i wun lah.. i shall juz do wad seems most right to me.. hmms. yah.. hahas LOVE YA!!!! i'll cya in skool tmr

sophie: hahas i will. although i think it will take a veri veri long time for me to be able to change... hahas. i dun hate myself la, i juz loathe myself. lol. i aM selfish!! and kitty bullied me again!! grahh!! sista <33 bruda!!

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i think im rly lyk a pig. i slept onli 3 and a half hrs de night b4, and yest night to make up for it, i slept all de way frm 10.30 to 12 in de aft. i think i muz b crazy.

been rly upset yest. i rly dunno wad to do. im so lost. tell me wad is de right thing to do?? everybody tells me im being stupid. tellin me im being realli selfish.

i agree.. but yet i still feel smths wrong. i dun want to become a burden. a bane. a hindrance. i rly dun. if im holding u back, den i wud rather go. but yet at de same time, my heart hurts so badly tearing myself away.

my lord, tell me wad to do. my heart's direction is unclear to me. i cnt feel the right way. i do not noe wad is the right thing to do.

aniwae, this is for my two darlings!! siok xin and syafs!!! im so proud of you!!! hahas, preettyy and capable!!! WOOTS!!! U GO GURLS!!! u noe, i juz might join cheer nxt yr... hahas.

alright.. my head hurts.. and i cant stop thinkin.. sumtimes i wish i had two hearts instead of one brain and one heart. dat might make me incredibly stupid, but at least i will awaez noe de right thing to do.

haiz.

replies.

sophie: aiyoo.. u so evil to my kitty arhs?? WAHAHAHAHAS!! but i wna torture it too!!! BWWAAHAHAs. I LOVE BRUDA!!!! and yes kitty is a veri veri veri evil bully.. hahahas

siokxin: i HEART SIOKXIN TOO!!!! WOOOOO!!!!

yang: [answers door] rly arhs?? but at least its less stressful right?? one day muz bring me in go see see arhs?? hows ur course?? u lyk not?? hahas.. heng our teachers dun. but how dey noe wads ur blog add? hmms, yah, my bro is fine now.. though my baby sista seems to hv caught it too. quite worried for her..

yuzhe: BRO IN LAW!!! wahahahas, am i dat nice?? i think ure nicer lors. im not nice de. yes!! i love labour daY!!! WOOOO. TC TOO!!! CYA TMR!!!!

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