today must be friends day or something. it was wonderful to meet so many friends purely by chance. must be like fate or something you know. ade, cheryl and sihui at the mrt station and amanda on the bus! haha.

and no, erika is purely single. in case she thinks im in her way of hitching some pie kia. hahahaha. and thanks for always food shopping with me!! X)

today was tiring regardless. no idea why. no more ringing pain in my head.

oh.

i cant find smarties like i wanted to.

so i'll just gratify myself with saying smarties size.

HOHOHO

well you deserved it anyway, right erika? HAWHAWHAW

and...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELA YOU LAZY PIG WHO NEVER COULD GET TO WALKING!! LETS GO BALCONY SOMETIME!!

woah, its sunday again. the worst two days of school start in like 19 hours. thats not very much time left to enjoy but plenty to dread and feel sian about.

but amazing things have been happening.

last wed, jere and yizhen headed down to cck with me and erika. i never thought i'll ever meet such train enthusiasts but i enjoyed it very much anyway. there was a large emphasis on clouds and laughing at the newly crowned lao kui king. hahaha. they went to my house after and we played hide and seek.

its so exhilarating especially when you hide in a toilet with two doors and yizhen had to choose the door that jere was at to escape. HAHA

friday cartel, AGAIN was lessthanthree lah. thats only expected. X) i bet if i could laugh myself to death i would. all the drama about pushing ants, butterflies and pearls... food and friends and fat friend. what else could i ask for

and yesterday...

O M G

first my parents brought us to swissotel for high tea since we had vouchers. AND THE FOOD WAS HEAVENLY. especially the dessert, cheescakes, chocalate mousse, choc fondue, brownies............... oooooooo.
then shopping at marina sq. no not clothes but i did get a new mini sound system with woofer, speakers and all. music never did sound the same again. and and and i bought breaking dawn. OOOOOO
AND FIREWORKS FESTIVAL! it was darn fabulous marvelling at the sights and sounds.

i sound like some twit describing my days. but these are things in my life that i wouldnt trade for a million dollars. maybe a billion. HAHAHA no, kidding.

what Precious Moments, Priceless Moments better lah

HAPPY 17th DEAREST AH CHU!!!

and see, i purposely put your name in the purply white musk colour to make your day even more white musky. and i manage to incoporate floral prints into your birthday although they just made my butt more itchy in the end. (okay i typing this right after i send you the info overload msg) HAHAHA

for your info, or for anyone for that matter, erika says the funniest things. this in direct contrast to carine is, carine is the funniest thing not say the funniest things. HAHAHH. okok fine, i know if i call you gong you are going to say im ignorant.

I ADMIT. i am ignorant. and i didnt know muhatma ghandi is not muhammad ghandi. (i dont even know if i got his name right) eh, you people sniggering at me arh, dont pretend you know he's hindu okay? tsktsk. at least im honest. but as othello says "honesty's a fool".

hahaha.

couple dance was full of nonsense and shrieks when people had to dance with jere. but its okay, at least you dont jump instead of tap. actually i just wanna make my point is that fat people dont tap, they stomp lah. so its not really my fault. you never heard of an elephant doing a tapdance.
imagine...... HAH! i bet you're really imagining a elephant in a tophat and tap dancing now. LOSERrrr. HAHAHAHAHA

okay today's post is full of rubbish. yup. lichu included. HAHAHA.

cya'll

there shouldnt be a reason why i dont update everyday. okay maybe there is cause im supposed to be buried in my books and notes mugging the time away. yeah like real.

if life's like yizhen's green tea everyday, i would be one happy and skinny boy. but too bad, according to ben, life's about eating and eating and looking in the mirror squeezing my disgusting fats and moping and groping about how humongous i am.

you might as well slap a label on my forehead reading "LOSER", no wait make that "FAT LOSER". HAHAHAA..

i really need to go back to the toilet. AGAIN.

and here's something i still cant forget.

ben: i wear contacts
erika: but i cant see them leh
ben: yeah, cause my contacts are just nice on the eye.
carine:(looks at my eye) oh yahhh, his is really just nice on the eye.
erika: really?? ohhh

actually i dont wear contacts. how my dear blur queen saw them is still a mystery to me. HAHAHAHA carine!! stop being so gonggg. hahahaha

thank you kell for being a good listener. :)

and i realize im just a big assed busybody.

wooo me.

HA

and there goes the national day holiday. bah.

i dont really have much to type, i think.

i enjoyed friday. sorry eric.

no kbox, but its okay lah.

okay. i shall stop typing like that. hahaha

beep beep boooop.

hahahahahaha

its plain silly.

well now i see.

being bulimic is silly. its also childish and not to mention attention seeking. so yes, i'll stop acting like a spoilt brat.

liking someone is silly if i have to behave so hypersensitively. well there's no way around this except to simply let go of whatever feelings i have and move on.

my voice sucks. and straining it everyday doesnt help. i'll just sing for fun and im sure my friends wont mind my awful singing. i think. haha

not eating is just plain torture, but eating in moderation is important too.

maybe studying is getting a little on my nerves but all i have to do is just try my best. just really try my best and im sure it'll all turn out alright.

tmr is going to be a great day. im just sure of it.

i really dont have much to say

except, im sorry.

hahaha, jere described my blog as angsty. i guess that's quite a appropriate description.

okay i'll try not to.

well the mood in school has been pretty tense. i feel prety stressed up sometimes. a little choked as well. perhaps that would account for my irritability but that is little excuse for having a short fuse.

i dont think that thing helps.

yizhen!!! my mind is all in a whirl now. ahhhhhh...

but i think i've decided already anyway.

all of a sudden im drowning in all these negativity.

blooop. blooop.

hahahaha, see, im incorporating humour into my post.

boxing the sheep HAHAHAHA

if i have to go on another stupid, meaningless outing again, i swear i'll have more than a fit. you can drive around singapore all you like, for heaven's sake, do it without me. i wonder why i dont have time to do all my homework.

arghh. okay, enough about the rage im in.

friday's have always been wonderful. whether it's with jere, kell, lichu or its with, chenting, erika and yizhen, it's been more than wonderful times. i think its people like them who keep my life sane and bearable. otherwise i might just blow up like mount vesuvius. KABOOM.

i think im about to reach a crisis.

a personality crisis.

i've never stayed so mad before. its not in me to harbour grudges and not to constantly dwell on angry things. i like to forgive and better still, forget. but all of a sudden i find myself unable to do so.

i find myself so petty and pathetic. its so childish to stay mad at your parents for so long. its also so disgusting to be a "attitudinal" student.

in the past, i would probably put all the blame on myself. i mean it is true, im only treated badly if i acted badly. it makes sense. but now all im doing is pushing the blame on others. im not in the least bit understanding. im not being sensitive to peoples' needs.

all i care about is myself, MYself, MYSELF. its all me myself and I I I I.

give me one good reason why i shouldnt hate myself.

nope, cant find one.

im better off stuck on a distant planet in solitary confinement in some far, unknown, dark galaxy. then i can spend all day and night thinking all about myself.

urgh. im so disgusted at myself i dont even want to look at myself in the mirror.