wah, this is a bus-train moment of inspiration post. lol, i cant believe i actually think of what i can blog about on my way home from school.

okay, the first thing i really have to get off my chest is these bunch of dumbass girls on the train. and they were talking real loud and damn alot. i mean its okay if the stuff is interesting and all but seriously, the conversation was just....

odd.

girl 1: cao fan lor
girl 2: hahaahaha, add the sushi cao fan arh
girl 1: no lah, the cao fan you must roll.
girl 2: hahahaha, rollrollrollrollrollrollrollrollrollroll hahahahaha

omg. wtf.

im so glad i have people who even though i talk nonsense with, is a sort of make sense, funny and lame sort of nonsense.

not rollrollrollrollrollrollrollrollrollroll.....

:(

LOLLLL!!

and i wanna say, i like people who wear their hearts on their sleeves, as retarded as it may sound. lol. i mean people like that are just so easy to read and easy to understand.

i dont think i wear my heart on my sleeve though. but i want to.

hahaha, im glad i have quite a few friends who do though. they make my life rather blissful and awesome.

unlike some who just are simply unfanthomable and hovers around or are just plain mean. these are pain in the asses. pain in the asses that i dont regret knowing or can live without but pain in the asses nonetheless.

hahahaha yz, stop laughing while reading this.

omg, michael jackson is dead.

even if im not a fan, its super shocking news. and kinda sad too.

shinee likes michael jackson one leh. bet they will be sad.

lol.

im kinda sad. i think. and im trying to figure out how to use this in a gp essay.

lol

kidding.

im not making much sense.

i think its just one of those bad nights. one of those really bad nights when i feel really awful about everything. everything sucks. i hate everything. at times like this i feel really thankful i have things like family.

which no matter how much i hate or how much im upset with will never give up on me.

i dont have much things like that in life.. not many people who are like that in my life too.

i think i deserve this.

i deserve this (what i think is a) awful life.

wanna run away to another world.


i know all these will pass by tmr morning. but right here right now, i feel like im in a personal hell.

which i deserve too.

lol

im so scared... really so scared

omg, lol. i never thought i said this but i like alot of fahrenheit's songs from their recent album. LOL. shit, and i always thought they were just a bunch of goodlooks with no real quality. ouch, i have to take my words back.

lol.

but compared to S.H.E's, they are still just chui. HAHA

and compared to SHINee, wah, no comparison at all. oops. HAHA

kbox tmr!! AHHH. HAAAA. HAAAA.

if only i didnt have tuition b4 that. )))):

OMG! KBOX TMR

and btw, my sister knows how to say omg. lol. wth right

get togethers has always been awesome. thanks cheryl for making such a great one happen. hahaha.

so the Gang met up for a bbq at cheryl's place. as usual, we were hyper and noisy and incredibly lame. LOL. taking all sorts of HAHA photos, candid/unglam ones. its habitual alr, i think. ((((: the food was great too but we had a couple of sotong crackers instead of sambal sotong and fish that sticks to the aluminium foil. HAHA.

the few of us who could stay later went to make a few unbelievable shots with fire sparkles. i will upload them.... WHEN I GET THEM. lol.

ah, i miss the Gang. and its been 6 mths since the last full gathering. we should totally have more of these.

laokui kbox next week. I HOPE.

hahahaha

i miss simply having fun with friends and ignoring the ... distasteful parts of life. which includes hw, sch, exams and emoing. esp dwelling on dotage. ))):

who said sentosa was so-expensive-nothing-to-see-also. lol. i miss sentosa like mad.

lately my stomach has been acting very weird. and its gross yes, but my waste has taken on a funny sort of colour too. ive been getting very weird eating habits and cravings as well. and the worst thing ever,

i just threw up.

it sort of makes one kinda worry dont you think.

lol, but im not fretting, im just feeling very sick now.

like i might pass out any moment.

yikes.

and then my mum says she has this weird lump at her neck, now that im worried.

i know how much i rant about her all the time but i know i just cant do without her. and thats the simple truth. god bless her.

studied with jere. and the rest i'll keep to myself.

and no yz, im not bored of hearing you talk about stuff. really. (:

the problem with me is i always jump to conclusions. that much i've ascertained now.

and im quite upset about it.

especially when it comes to the tea-cup ride im on now.

its funny how much dotage can make you upset. both literally and figuratively.

for me that is.

and no yz, im not referring to anything about you ok. lol.(i rmb the thing we said b4. that out blog posts cnt be ambiguous.) loll

maybe i'll try to forget dotage. and get over it. but i dont think it'll be easy and i'll be able to do it.

):

i will fail all my exams

but i think i will pass my chem paper...

even if i take it tmr.

yea, im very sure i would pass it,

if the chem paper tested purely only on ionic equilibria.





hahaha,

so you know the extent of my progress now.

r nrhh mlg hvvrmt blf. r slkv gsv mvcg grnv cv nvvg dv droo ..... 'tvg xolhvi'

i just watched something called perfect weapon on national geo. okok, lame i know, but thats not the point. it was some documentary about the creating super powered high tech weapons.

like this automated thingy that can fire 1 million rounds in a minute.

but instead of being like awfully impressed and going, woah, damn cool. i feel only sick in the stomach thinking of of it would potentially be a weapon against people. and that is, DISGUSTING. and i dont care if people call me a wuss or some pussy or a coward. because in the end, using those weapons, regardless the reasons, is paramount to murder.

ITS DISGUSTING AND IMMORAL.

i hate guns.

the people who invented them should probably rot in hell forever, though i think he alr is.

why cant people invent something like an impenetrable shield that can protect everyone. like a forcefield generator or something. and dont give me the bullshit that its unrealistic because making a gun that can fire a million rounds is supposedly unrealistic as well.

you see, people are just disgusting creatures who seek to destroy one another to ensure their own survival.

so in the end, we higher evolution beings are the most barbaric of them all.

its a sad world.

i just thank god, im not surrounded by such people.

thank you god

anw, spent the day out with yz and pam, hahahaha, we were totally on a shopping spree looking for all sorts of things. and finally settling down at starbucks to study which only gave me a real headache and pure hatred towards ionic equilibria.

but it was a awesome day anw. more please.

and how come you two never take photo with me ):

lollll

dotage.

i like this word. no, not simply for the fact that is looks like its somehow related to DOTAge. lol. its just such a fitting and quaint word. for me that is. ahahaha.

i keep sleeping these 2 days. and its not cause im not getting enough sleep, its simply because im that bored with nothing to do. i refuse to touch my notes or anything else. zzz.

the weird thing is how im like always half conscious during these "naps" yet at the same time dreaming. and i dream about everything or anything, from monsters, to magical powers, to sad stuff and about dotage.

dotage dotage dotage dotage. haha, i just like this word. i shall use it as a code word. hahahaha. shit, damn odd. hahahaha

nvm. im allowed to be delirious cause i just woke up.

study session tmr. YES. and it would conveniently include some shopping. hehehe.

i do not like the sun setting, it becomes so much more depressing and irritating. and i HATE emoing. its so, excessive, spastic and redundent. jialat, since when did i have such an adverse reaction to emoing. but its just something that cant be helped. so i think i better get use to it.

lol.

kbox, bvball, badminton, biking, rollerblading, dota, dotage, sentosa, shopping,
)))))):

i dont like my blog layout anymore. the green quite irritating.

im so zzzzz right now.

and zzzzz doesnt even mean anything. lol.

omg, everyone's mugging like mad, staying up through the night to study, preparing for tuition, etc etc. and im like idling at home doing absolutely nothing. and no on believes me when i say that.

and its not like as if im wasting my life away hooked on a game or something, nor am i like spending all my time going out and having fun. im just at home, doing NOTHING. why cant i just direct this time to mugging????

urgh.

i dont like this feeling, not doing anything, im not even emoing, lol! that sounds so weird but nvm. i still think im on the tea-cup ride. its getting abit rocky and uncomfortable, it makes me wanna puke and really upset. but i just refuse to get off.

zzzzz.

im wasting my time and life on ... and i dont think i should.

zzzzz.

monday's studying session faster come! i need some distraction!

zzzzz.

kbox next friday faster come!!! i really am missing it.

and WHY DIDNT THE BADMINTON OUTING materialize?? and when am i ever going to get to play beach volleyball again????

ZZZZZ.

see, im so zzzzz right now.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

lol

i feel like....

im changing.

HAHAHAHA, that just sounded either really cool (like in a xmen mutation kinda cool) or it sounded entirely spastic like puberty or smth. LOL

NO! im not undergoing puberty, i wish, what with the growth spurt and all, but no its not happening. sadddd. )))):

but yeah, i really think im changing and its a change i never would have expected. suddenly i feel like playing sports, suddenly i feel like emo is so irritating and i should totally just sleep it off. suddenly i feel like, i can just bochup about things, suddenly i feel like dressing up is so overrated. LOL, i cannot believe i said that leh.

HAHAHAHA

okok, yizhen thinks its a good change.

i hope it is too.

but seriously, i never expected it. really.

and honest to goodness, i seriously miss beach volleyball. i WANNA PLAY. LIKE NOW. and roller blading, and biking and badminton. even swimming in the sea. AH! I WANNA PLAY! NOW!

make the exams go away leh

it was on the way to msia that i heard wang xin ling, 翅膀. lol. and it was cause my mum was randomly playing it on a disc she found in my dad's car. luckily she did, cause i realize i dont have this awesome song in my ipod and i cant stop listening to it.

寂寞是不需要被原諒的原諒
愛情終於是被你刪除的過往
天黑天亮 都顯得迷惘
我在哪裡失去了方向

lol, i like.

im feeling kind of lost now. lost and a little confused. its like being on those spinning rides, like the teacup thing you know, that spins and spins. and it spins so fast everything becomes a blur except the person you're riding with. but even the person is become sort of blurry and you cant see that person clearly any longer.

thats exactly how i feel. its like the world around me is just flashing by while i concentrate solely on 'unblurring' the person in front of me.

oh and like the ride, im the one spinning the teacup. which means, all this, is self inflicted.

i should have just went on the merry-go-round and i wont have this sort of problems. but too bad, im alr on the tea-cup ride and i dont feel like getting off. not until i stop spinning anyway.

lol, okay, its all either very metaphorical or im just bullshitting away like nobody's business. but nvm, its for myself to understand anyway.

my irritating cough wont go away. and im like some sick dog confined at home. BAHPOOEY. lol, wth was that. hahahaa. and the new ps games i got from msia is damn gross. one of them is damn M18. it has like topless women with huge bosoms. and they dont even bother to censor it. eeargh. and on top of that, the gore is just... just... gory. LOL. you push swords thru eyeballs, rip off heads, slice bodies in half... bet its what those people like freddy and jason play on boring mrt rides.

lol

okok, really very bullshit.
hahahahaha

i stop playing dota for a very long time and i lost today. which means its something you have to practice almost everyday. omg. and the mid years are less than a month away. ayeee..

if i still cough like a sick dog tmr, im not gg to maths tmr. )))):

hahaha everyone blogged about it the moment they got home. LOL.

i loved today. it was one of the most fun, exciting, and bloody tiring day ever. LOL

yeah, the Usuals rock.

cant wait for the next similar thing. bet it'll be even better.

and thanks jere. ahaaha

okay, it started out kinda wrong. but today turned out to be very okay indeed. actually more than okay.

lol, eh yizhen, this part is directed to you.

i had no idea that it was actually affecting me so much without even me knowing it. but after just now, im really more than just relieved and glad. im really happy that its over and not only that, we're just as great as ever. hahaha. and i know its kinda cheesy to say all this. so its going to only happen once. im glad its like friends forever just like ive always wanted it to be. OKAY! i feel really cheesy now. lolll

dear lord, thanks so much.

thurs!!! ooooo cant wait....