woah. not been blogging for de past few days. so sorryy. now lets see..

fridae.

nth much happend la. george din go to skool. and he refused to answer my calls in de morn. kitty sucks.. grahh. hahas, aniwae, after skool, sx and i went for lunch, was suppose to go to kitty's house, but sx foot was gettin wet. so went to ang mo kio hub instead

had subway. wah ex lah. budden, de cookie was sooo niceee.. hahas. kitty joined us later. saw a couple of retards there. they laughed at sx lah. lyk how mean can they get?? we were all quite pissed wif dem. i think dey were laughin at me too. kitty was damn pissed wif dem. kitty rawks lah, but no pt gettin angry over a buncha no brainers..

yups. den after dat, took a bus back to yck, dropped sx on de way. and kitty and i headed home.

i cooked spaghetti for kitty lah!! woot.. and my spaghetti was damn nice.. mwahahahas... both my sis and kitty said so.. lalala, im so umchioing now.. hahAHA.

hmms, due to a long long dae at my house, i decided to not blog abt it. but i was damn happi la. hahas so happi sOOO happiii... lalalalaaaa. ahahahahas

sat.

went to vivo wif kitty, asked sx, but she cudnt make it. ): nvm lah. we ate at carls jr!!! wheee!!! beef fries rawk!!! and carl's catch was damn nice as well.. i love carls jr!!!

den went to look arnd, and yea, we walked de entire vivo lah.. hahas, but it isnt as big as it seems leh. but we din go to every shop though. hahas. went to harbourfront centre as well. the stuff there was cheaper.. hmms yah.

den after gettin bored of vivo, went to plaza sing. den went to new cathay. yups. funfunfunfunfun. though kitty was pissing me off de entire time. yea i made alot of navigational mistakes.. but dunid lyk dat right?? tSK. okok i apologise once again...
SORRYYY

den after dat went to queensway shopping centre. whee hee.. so many shoes to see.. but in de end kitty still din get ani. -.- but he got a bag though.. and dats de bag i wanted my entire life canNN??? lyk gRAHHHH!!!! he stole my bagg!!!! humphs. im sooo upset.

but de bag is rly damn damn nice. wahhhh.. i rly rly rly want it... sobs.. i wna cry lah. so upset can?? grahhh..

den after dat kitty went home. and i went out for dinner wif my family.

hahas ok. see i updated. whooo..

thx kitty for de great time!!! although u gave me a rough time also... make me carry ur bag... sumore keep pissin me off.. thx alot arhs.. bleah.

replies.

sophie: i got stomach upset mahh.. i missed u too!!! sobss.. hahas mayb ur dad buy and play himself mwahahahas... LOL!! aiya u also can go play mah.. or if nt worst come to de worst.. juz giv me lors!! LOL!! hahas, yah im damn happi too!! wOOOO. hahas and rly thx for everything!!

edwina: yes dear edwina im sOO hapPI TOO!!! lol. i sure will. although it will be wierd.. lyk " di, edwina said HIII" LOL!! yups i will.. as much as i can la. LOL. u too OK!!?? mISS YA!!!

liwee: AHHHHH!!! its LIWEE!!!!! OMGOMGOMG!!! hahahas, I MISS U SOO!!!!!! when can we go out larr?? u muz jio me out okokokokokokok?? hahas. u take care too!!! rly rly miss u!!! sobs..

siokxin: S is for SIOKXIN. and i love u too!! SIOK XIN SIOK XIN SIOK XIN WHOOOOO. hahahas.. im so happi too lah.. but u nv go vivo wif us.. sobs.. hahas, tou tou ai ni, kuai le you gu dan.. *wiggle wiggle wiggle. LOL!!!

sophie: benj HEARTS sophie!!!! SISTa LOVES BRUDA!!! WOOOOOOO. ahahahas. miss u la.. hees

angela: LOVE U TOO!!!!! but u left me!!! im so upset... does dat mean frm now on i cant call u dear animore??? sobs.. dat makes me so saddd u noe?? take care too!!!

yuzhe: yahh.. haiz.. but lucky de worst is over.. yes!! we muz cherish our two years tgth.. and not onli two years.. and AALL de years after dat.. u din think u'll be rid of me dat ez do u?? im gonna haunt u for life.. bwahahahas. tc too!! cya tmr!!

syafs: AHHHHH!!!! its my loveliest mistress!!!! hahahas, i heart UUU TOO!!!! SO MUCH!!!! but seriousli, i do miss u much la.. ): when are u gg to kidnap me?? huh huh huh?? hahahas!! cya tmr darlinggg!!

end replies.

relieved. finally.

firz of all, i wna thank 3 most impt people hu helpd me so much during my past few days of utter suffering and despair. thank you, george, siok xin ans sophie. u three were de onli ones hu knew wad happend and were there to keep giving me support.

esp to george hu finally made me see dat there was no pt worryin over the things i cant control. hahas, and for making me cry all my probs out so i din felt so weak and tired.

so thank you all.

and also, i wna thank my class, hu knew i was upset but not why. but still everyone showed alot of concern for me, constantly tellin me that they will b there for me. to cheer up, to smile, encouragin me. im rly touched.

hahas. okaes. i guess i can say wad happend now. on mon, i went out wif soph and george, while we were out, my mum suddenly called me and told me dat my younger brother was seriousli ill. de doctor discovered a lump in his lungs.

of coz, it rly rly frightend, my mum was cryin lyk mad over de fone and i was so worried. we all were so afriad that it may be cancer. we were rly so frightend. and i started thinkin all sorts of horrible things lyk i'll nv get to see my brother again.

it was rly veri veri upsettin. and there was nth i can do. i rly juz felt lyk crying. i was lost, helpless and worried.

i keep imagining dat i will nv get to see my brother again. and i was so frightend to go home fearing it may be my last.

but im so happi noW!! woooO!!! yest my bro went for a check up again, and de doctor certified it was pneumonia. yea, its serious as well, but completely under control and curable. unlyk.. canc**. yea. so im rly veri veri relieved.

im rly sorry for not tellin u guys. i rly din wan all of u to wry. although u were worried abt me as well. but at least its not as bad. i hope u guys undst.

hahas. so yAY i can go back to wrying about other ppls probs again.. i can hlp ppl again!! wheee.. wahahas. its rly a load of my mind. and after gg thru this, i realize, u rly nd to learn to cherish things. and sumtimes when u think life can get no lower, it does. so dun awaez despair. and tell urselves.. things cud hv been worst

but right now. all i wna concentrate on is how to help my best fren. i hurts me to see him so sad. and i rly wna do all i can to hlp. i wish i rly knew how. but im gg to keep tryin aniwae.

so sorri ppl for not bloggin for two days. didnt rly have de mood. and thx for all de encouragin tags!!

replies:

edwina: LOL!! wahahas, dun envy me la. u awaez envy me de. aiya.. upgrade alr ma. bwahahas. besides, i think being a dog is kinda bad :X lol

yang: hahas, yea im really damn lucky.. thx alot clara!!! i think u hlped me alot too man. hees, u tc too yah?? and update me bout ur poly life!! hahas

sophie: omg... u got a ps3?? so gooddd!! so unfair lah.. isz nice?? hahas yah but remove liao. coz fat piggy veri angry.. XD lOL!! ure photogenic also wad.. onli ppl lyk me shud b afraid of de camera >.< haha

tim: aiyo.. why use such coarse language arhs?? lol. btw, wad are u wtfing about?? lol. muz sae ma..

edwina: i where got eat slwly?? huhhuhuh?? i eat veri fast lor.. is there a joke im not gettin here?? hmms.. wahahahas..

Tim: hahas, i dun find it confusing leh. but nxt time, put fat pig lahh.. LOL! den wun be confused le.. hees im so mean. but ure meanest of dem all lors. grahhh.. stop bullyin me!! XP

sophie: thx alot!!! hahas, i thank god u were there to support me if not i think i might have just fallen apart.. ty!!! veri veri much. hahas yea, god noes it all.. and i rly love god!! AHHHH!! lol. so drama.. <33!!!

yuzhe: heys bruda in law!!! TY!!! hahas. no lah im not realli emo. as u can see frm my blog entry. but im still emo lah. LOL!! okaes we shall fan it awae!! dunid A4!! i use notebook size can le!! bwahahhas. yups cya in skool!!!

yang: its my bro thing lors. but lucky its over alr. guess i worried for nth. hahas. but thx auntie!! glad ure awaez there for me.. XD

tim 4/3: LOL!! yea sure no more confusion liao. yea thx alot man. i will. u tc too!!

siokxin: heyyy my 4th dear!! lol. thx alot for being there for me as well. u rawk lah. sumore keep on thinkin on how to make me laugh. thx alot. u also dun b so sad k?? i'll b there for u too. and i shall make u laugh.. at urself!! bwahahahas. cya in skool!!

sophie: hahas yea. its so funnie.. i reply u 3 times in one post. lol. thx alot!!! but im so glad de worst is over.. WOOOOO!!! so HAPPII!!!! u also muz b happi k?? got ani probs muz firz thing come tell me. kk?? hahas.

hantu: hahas!! HEYS!! hahas, so much slp and food.. wahh ltr become a pig arhs.. LOL!! hmms.. doesnt dat mean all fat ppl were once unhappi ppl?? LOL!! kdkd. thx!! i'll take ur advice.. for de slp part la. i dare nt eat too much. hees

end replies.

i rly dun want to go on.

im so scared. i really am.

my lord. pls, help me.

i wud sacrifice my own life if i had to.

*due to a veri violent and horrible reaction to de photo. it has now been removed.

for comic relief.

everybody

laugh.

its rainin so heavily. it kinda makes de surroundings kinda moody and sad. hahas. im letting de weather affect my mood. so wierd yea? kinda sappy too.

sumhow, sumway, theres still smth nagging at de back of my head, gnawing at my mind, tellin me smths wrong. i can exactly pinpoint wad it is. but to hell wif it la, ive been thru enuff to noe dat dis kinda feelings usualli lead me no where.

hahas, i shall dedicate a song to my dear kitty. thx so much.

love doesnt have to hurt [atomic kittens]

I learned a lesson in my life,
but I learned it the hard way.
I don't know why I used to fall in love
with the wrong kind.
Than I'd suffer so much pain,
but I only had myself to blame.
Baby, you came in the nick of time

To show me love doesn't have to hurt
To feel good, it's such a revelation.
With you I can be myself
And always should
Don't have to cry,
Don't have to fight
Don't have to die
Night after night
Show me love
Doesn't have to hurt
To feel good

Thank you baby

Darling now it seems to me
like I've always known you
But I still shudder when I think back
on the lonely times
I used to keep all my feelings inside (deep inside)
From your eyes
I have nothing to hide
Baby, you came in the nick of time

To show me love doesn't have to hurt
To feel good, it's such a revelation
With you I can be myself
I know it should
Don't have to cry,
Don't have to fight
Don't have to die
Night after night
Show me love
Doesn't have to hurt
To feel good

Thank you baby

Lying here beside you feels so fine
Talking about everything
In this heart of mine

Love doesn't have to hurt
To feel good, it's such a revelation
With you I can be myself
I know it should
Don't have to cry,
Don't have to fight
And in your arms
Night after night
Show me love
Doesn't have to hurt
To feel good

hahas. yea. nice song. great lyrics. i rly can relate to it. wth la. emoing again. hahas.

i rly wna go kbox. hahas. i rly miss singin into dat mike, gg crazy and just thoroughly enjoyin myself. its just as magical as neoing. when u just spent all ur energy into singin, juz enjoyin de company of ur dear frens beside u. puttin aside all ur problems, laughin, smiling, being lame. hahas.

hahas, sum ppl are into smoking, drinkin and drugs to forget their pain. hahas, mine seems to be neoing and kboxing. i hv no idea why. perhaps, both includes being in a enclosed space wif de ppl i love. spending dat time tgth juz makes me so happy.

we are in our own world, where we can juz be ourselves. where we can do wadeva we wish. laugh, joke, be lame, make fun of one another in a harmless way, sing, take photos, dance and all the other crazy stuff we do. how cud i not be happi??

and hu says neoing is gay?? i dun think so leh. and i dun care wad evryone thinks. as long as im happi wif my frens, i dun giv a damn. and if those hu looks at us thinkin im gay or smth, it onli means ure jealous, so u cn juz go and stuff ur head.

hahas, yea, i may be image conscious, but im not sacrificin neo for my image.. bleah.

i hv lotsa tuts and studyin to do. yet im not doing them. hahas. im singin away lyk theres no tmr. heck lah. i think i muz be de world's biggest slacker.. omg. i suck lah. maybi rly dun belong in aj. perhaps a withdrawal shud be in order.

i rly dun think i can make it.
i rly shud consider pullin out.
but my parents will not agree.

dis sucks.

its been freakin long since i met up wif my oldies. where are u aLL?? missin u all so much. shall jio u all out one dae.

alright. bye.

replies:

sophie: hahas stupid kitty la, go ruin my ps2. hahas but yea, was veri fun la. no way lors, i'll make him get me a ps3. hahas. kitty may be true.. but hes awaez bullyin me la. irritatin cat. hahas. yah it does snd gay. but i noe wad u mean la LOL!!

siokxin: hahas, no my dear, u are de last.. so u hv to b 4th. aiya dun wry lah, ure my cutest mistress!! wahahas. and dun wry, no one will bully u de la. my other mistresses are all veri lovable. hahas. dats why they are my dears!! yes i love swings too!! hahas okaes, cya on mon!!! love YA!!!

tim: hahas, heys!! yea i noe im fine, but coming frm u.. makes it snd sooo wrong.. LOL!! anw hows life in poly?? update me!! hahas. keep rawkin dude.

alvin: hahas, emoing is not dat gd lors. it makes ppl sad. u dun be so sad lahs. keep happi. life is awaez full of hidden surprises, u nv noe when smth gd might happen. if got ani probs juz come find me ok?? tc!! and smile!!

Tim: hahas BOOOOO!!! no, its not scary.. LOL!! dun blame urself over things dat are nt ur fault ok?? sumtimes we just lose, its ok de, juz win de nxt time!! u can one! i juz noe iT!! tc piggy!! and dun bully me lah. HAHAS!!

angela: my dearest dear!! hahas, that tim is not our cls tim lehs. LOL. aiya dun wry lah. no matter wad, ure de zui da de. hahas. and i still love u equalli much!! LOL!! wah let edwina see arhs, sure scold me, ask me to stop being so mushy de. bwahahas. miss u!!

end replies.

i guess we rly shudnt let de past haunt us. kitty's right. i shudnt let it hold me back and prevent me for finding happiness.

i do believe in you. and i noe dat u will never do anithing to hurt me. and yes i do feel safe. i feel protected. and i noe dat if eva shud i fall, u wud be there to catch me. i sense ur sincerity and warmth. and i guess dats enuff for me.

i rly love my lord. for being so great, for loving me so much. for giving me happiness, for sendin me sumone hu pulled me away frm de darkness. i rly dun noe how to express my love and gratitude for u. but i rly do love u. and kitty and my frens. so much

hahas. ok try nt to emo animore. hahas. tryy..

kitty came to stay over at my house yest. hahas. i was suppose to pick him up frm cck at 6.35, but i was lyk 20 mins late. im sorrY!! i rly din do it on purpose la. lol

he kept complainin and grumbling on de route home. lyk a obasan lyk dat. so old and cranky. LOL!!

we had curry chicken for dinner, auntie's cooking was not bad leh. but de curry was freaking hot la. kitty needed to b served b4 he ate. tsk. typical da shao ye. LOL!! he tried scandalizing me to my sis. hahas, but my sis helped me. nehneh. too bad.

after dinner den we went to my study room to chat online la. den after chatting till 11.30 decided to go slp liaos. but in den end we din end up slpin lahs. we talked. and yea.. cried.. okaes, yea it was super emo.

den after emoing, found out we cudnt get to slp. so decided to go play de ps2. and idiot kitty spoil my ps2. now dunno whether can play nt. TSK la. oh yah, halfway thru playin, kitty complain hungry, so i decided to whip up smth simple. and guess wad, kitty cant cook, not even maggi mee la. lyk sadddd... HAHAS!! but he complimented my cooking. so ok, dun suan him animore. bwahhas

den i think after dat went to slp liao la. coz de ps2 wasnt wrkin liao. and we were kinda tired. and we juz slept all de way to 9. missing de 5.30 alarm. lyk omg. sry alvin!! we rly din mean to pangseh u..

hahas. okaes den we woke up at 9, got ready to go to skool liaos. hahas, however on de way to de mrt station we got sidetracked my mac. LOL, so we decided to just go for breakfast. hahas, hotcakes are nice. i love macs breakfast la.

and yes, kitty is disgusting. he mixed margarine, pepper, salt and maple syrup. hahas, i was more disgusting. i mixed dem tgth and put in on de leftovers of my hotcakes. bwahahas. ok. yah, i nd sum retardedness occasionally. keeps me sane. hahas

ok la. den went off to skool le. spent a short time there and left. took alot of photos wif ms raj, i swear shes lyk de nicest teacher eva. hahas. and since shes so nice, dun scandal abt her la. lol

den after dat, due to certain reasons. i cant post. but yea, i love it so much. it was damn fun lahs. and a new neoprint, which i cant upload as well.. sian diao la. ok nvm. other times den.

i love yest, and todae. and i love kitty!! hahas. and all my darling frens!! btw, siokxin has just been upgraded to 4th mistress, bwahahas, my other dears, plz dun kill me >.< LOL!!

replies:

sophie: bruda!! LOL, i also dunno wad i ate leh. i think it was de ma la mian. too spicy liaos. hahas. nt so sure. i miss u TOO!!! hahas thx, i'll make sure i use it one dae. i probably call at lyk 4 am in de morn. bwahahas..

siokxin: LOL!! i emo meh?? ok yah, quite la. hahas. i also miss u so much. but todae we rly did play alot.. BWAHAAHA!! so fun la. lets play again soon, yah it snds wrong.. LOL!! miss u 4th dear

angela: ANGELAAA~!!! hahas my da mistress i miss u so much also!!! hahas, at least i gotta see u in skool todae!!! WHEEEE!!! hahas, i got a new mistress leh, dun be angry arhs.. LOL!! XP

alvin: heys!! hahas, i can go ur blog le. i think got one of de post u tokin abt me isz?? hahas. i cant tag lehhs, smth wrong wif ur tagboard. will go and see again asap. update la, u hvn update.. >.<

freak it lah. lyk wth can. bludy stomachache, make me unable to attend skool todae. yes i hate u. ure a effing irritating stomachache hu shud juz go and die. AHHH i miss all my frens alr!!

and as usual, i hv such sweet darlings hu send me msges when dey found out i was feelin ill, askin me to take care and sayin dat dey miss me.. TY syafs, naz and kitty!!! im rly touched. :')

i thank god theres family dae tmr, dat means i can make up for todae and be able to meet them all tmr!! bwahahahas. so happi~ seriousli i think i not onli love my frens, i NEED dem. lyk rly lah. i rly rly need dem.

mayb i shud use this chance to lyk complete all my tutorials. hahas. yups. i think i will. cept math la. coz effing summation makes no sense. grahh.. i nd my math tuition teacher!! i kinda miss her.. sobs. hahas.

aniwae. i juz came across de lamest excuse in de world. lyk the ultimate lahs.
BENJ LAMEST EXCUSE to stop wanting to be best frens
"i wan a best fren of de opposite sex"

yes. it is isnt it? and sadly i am victim of dat excuse. so guess wad? yes im stupid. i AM stupid. and not onli dat, i muz be lyk blind and deaf and mute and utterly effing retarded.

im over u. and im over it.

I’m over your lies
And I’m over your games
I’m over you asking me
When you know I’m not okay
You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be tellin’ me
I know you’re not alone

Oh and that’s why your eyes
I’m over it
Your smile
I’m over it
Realized
I’m over it, I’m over it
I’m over

(Chorus)
Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over
( I'm so)
Movin’ on, it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
I’m so over it

I’m over your hands
And I’m over your mouth
Trying to drag me down and fill me with self doubt

Oh and that’s why your world
I’m over it
So sure
I’m over it
I’m not your girl
I’m over it, I’m over it
I’m over

(Chorus)
Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, read my lips

Because I’m so over
(I’m so)
Movin' on, it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
So over it
I’m so over it

(Bridge)
(Oh) Don’t call, Don’t come by
Ain’t no use don’t ask me why
You’ll never change
There'll be no more crying in the rain
No, oh oh
I’m over it

(Chorus)
Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain’t no way to be
How I feel, Read my lips
‘Because I’m so over
(I’m so)
Movin’ on, it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
So over it

I’m so over it
I’m over it

(Wanting you to be wanting me)
(No that ain’t no way to be)
How I feel, read my lips
Because I’m so over

(I’m so)
Movin’ on, it’s my time
you never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I’m so over
So over it
So over it



ty u hu told me de truth. rly appreciate it.

aniwae, i believe god has rewarded my beyonf my farthest dreams. my frens both new and old are de best in de world and can nv be replaced. my best fren cares just as much for me as i care for him. so yea. i am happi. im more den happi, im truely blessed. ty god.

i love u all. and i love u god

replies:

yang: no i still wna thank u. coz u rly hlp open up my eyes too. and u truely care. and u deserve my thanks although my thanks is worth lyk almoz nth lahs. LOL. hahas, i mayb stupid and sad and and wadeva. BUT, i have all my frens. which is lyk wad i said ba, stupid ppl has de most luck.

sophie: wahahas. coz yest rly happi ma. i loved de neos so much. u noe im lyk still lookin at it and admiring it lahs. LOL!! its juz so so nice~ hahas u sae de arhs, a call awae, i might juz take up dat offer anitime yea?? den by dat time to let to regret lo. LOL!! i miss u alr!! ):

end replies.

wah, i ponned alot of lessons todae. lyk wah.. scaryy la. and i almoz got into trouble wif ms raj. im rly sorri ms raj, and i dun blame her for being angry, shes rly such a nice teacher. and she has every right to be angry wif us. im rly sorri ms raj.

haiz, aniwae, went out to orchard wif george, soph and timot. hahas, we went to take neoprint!! wheeee!!! i wna show off!! muahahahas



hahas. so nice right?? and george actualli gave up his firz neo to us. and yes, he kept sayin he took photos wif us. so he was sorta expecting us to be rly rly thankful or smth.. LOL!!

ok fine, i rly appreciate it lah. thx george. and as usual, timot was complainin awae again.. ah wells.. xi guan jiu hao.

i swear de neo machine has magic. coz i rly feel happiness in there. and for dat few moments, i rly forget all my pain and bad stuff. i rly duno how. but im juz so happi. rly so happi. all my close frens wif me, arnd me. and my best fren too. lyk wad more can i ask for?

hahas, den after dat we went to a cafe to talk cock la. we played uno, truth or dare, sum lame games and water gun. yes, george and timot were playin wif water. lyk.. TSK! LOL!! so funni la.

den we went home le. george was emoing. i din hlp much. as usual. i wonder if i'll ever get use to the feelin of being utterly useless. i think i will la. ah wells. im juz gg to leave it up to god.

neos rly do make me happi. thank u guys for rly makin my dae. i loved it. so much.

love ya all!!

replies:

sophie: ure not petty!! ure my best bruda too!!! hahas. i'll try my best to tell u wad i can la. its nt i dun wan sae, sum things i dunno whether i got de permission to sae nt.. but if ihv, i will. i promise. k? hahas, i think he will to. i trust him. i do. i juz dun trust myself.

yang: YAY!!! AUNTIE!! its been so long!!! i miss u so much!! hows skool?? muzupdate me k?? hahas im so flattered.. thx so much!! omg ur advice awaez makes so much sense. i noe wad u mean. and i agree. and i will try. i dun want to be haunted by my past animore. why shud i hurt myself?? thx my dear auntie. yea, i hv alot of caring frens, lyk U!!! which i rly cant do wifout. but yea, i hv my best fren as well. hahas i guess i rly have all de good luck in de world. and plz flood wheneva u lyk man. it onli goes to show dat u care

naz: DEAR NO.2!!! hahas, i rly miss u too. yah, i do miss u alot. im sorry for spending lyk so little time wif u guys. i rly feel rly rly rly bad. and i do do do miss u all so much. ):

hantu: omG!! nO!! im not lyk father. omg nOO. im nth but a pathetic being. hahas, i noe its a joke, but hahas, plz dun eva compare me to anithin lyk erm.. holy?? coz im juz a sinner lyk everyone else.

syafs: DEAR 3!!! i love u too!! so much!! i rly miss u so much. u noe wad, one dae, im juz gonna lyk dedicate de entire dae juz to u and U AND MORE U!! coz i rly do miss u so much. >.<

siokxin: sry siokxin!! hahas, i rly juz cant hlp it leh. hahas, colour my econs notes?? LOL!! okaes.. erm lyk for?? LOL!! ok nxt time u sad, i noe wad advice to giv u. LOL!! i LOVE SIOK XIN TOO!!!

angela: OMG!! all my three mistresses are here!! I miSS U TOO!!! omg.. im lyk so touched.. i love all of u!!! hahas, feel lyk cryin leh. i miss all of u so much.. juz so much..

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im happi. yet strangely frightened.

todae, sumone told me dat he treated me as his best fren... i dunno whether its to make me feel bad or not lah. but lets juz sae its for real.. i will be happi yet rly scared.

thruout my life, i have had treated these 3 people as my best frens. but sumhow or rather, i wud be rly hurt in one way or another. i was used indiscriminatly, was treated as a cash cow, was looked for onli when i was needed.

so yes, im scared. im so scared of hurting again. im so scared dat i will hv to go thru losing a best fren again. and trust me, it hurts.. so much.. and im sick of gg thru things which i realize ive been nth but just a mere ride or toy.

mayb im being paranoid.

i dunno.

but im so scared.

i shud be happi. but ive juz been thru so many terrible experiences, dat theres alr a phobia of being hurt by those i trueli care for. perhaps dats why i nv want to try starting a relationship as well.

but still, i wna believe in my frens and i DO!! i rly want to. but de fear is so strong as well.

i rly dunno wad to do.

my lord, wad am i suppose to do?? is this de answer im lookin for, or juz another future bad exp?? de daes where i felt i was a worthless piece of shit dat shud juz effing go and die has just past 1 mth ago. will i hv to go thru de same thing again?

im scared. but happi. happi yet scared.

wth

im rly lost.

sheet it.

replies:

edwina: hahas, u rly are a good advice giver and a true fren. thx alot. i wun try to shoulder everything la. but if i cud, i much rather carry problems for others. haiz. but yah, i will stay happi and smile. for u guys sake. I SHALL!! hahas. hahas, den u all muz share ur burdens wif me also!!

sophie: hahas u muz be lyk giv up on me liao right?? hahas. NO, i wna cry wif u all. den after dat, i make u all laugh. hahas kk?? and bruda!! is nt i dun wan tell u!! i will!! one dae we juz talk and i tell u everything. kk? dun angry lahhs. X(

angela: DEAR!!! hahas, my queen!! hahas, i dun want to burden my queen lehs.. my queen is de best de, coz my queen will awaez love me!! bwahahahas. MISS YA!!

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its a damn sad dae.

i rly feel so helpless to see all my frens this way. and i see so many crying. sumhow i feel lyk crying but if i cry too, den how can i hlp? i hv to be strong. i hv to.

sumtimes i rly want I REALLY REALLY WANT to just take all ur pain away. i rly rly want to. and juz put a smile on ur face.

i noe wad it feels lyk hurting. i noe wad it feels lyk to be lost and devastated. i noe how life is lyk when u feel u hv no reason to go on. and its bcoz i noe, i rly dun wan ppl to go thru de same shit.

but alvin is right. i cant juz keep takin ppls problems and stuffing it on myself. it doesnt help anyone. but instead i'll share it. i share dat person's probs. and carry de burden tgth. this way, at least dey will now dat ppl are with them. by their side, ready to catch dem when dey fall, sharing their sadness and pain.

dats wad i wna do. i wna share all ur problems, and yet bring happiness and joy whenever possible. i wna see ppl laugh, and smile. and if ppl cry, i wna cry wif dem. hahas. yes, frens dun juz do things demselves. dey do it tgth.

i wun dump ppls problems on myself animore. but i will still feel bad if i cant make ppl happy, if i cant take their pain away. its juz natural alr.

i loves my frens so much. all of u. every single one of u. and it rly hurts me so much to see u all cry. so nxt time i cry wif u all. hahas. yah kinda lame la. but dats wad frens do.

thx alvin. u did help me. and thx for caring so much.

my lord. i still wna make everybody happi. but i will no longer try to dump everything on myself. but my frens welfare are MY responsibility. i wna protect dem and keep dem happi. and i hope u can help me. ty my lord.

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sophie: hahas. ty so much for being there. but im still not quite used to sharing my probs leh. hahas. i rly dun wna bother anione. or juz make things mor diff for ppl. but thx so much. u rawk la.

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yes, im upset. though i dun rly wna explain why.

wadeva la. i hate myself.

freak it.

kitty was kinda sad todae. refused to tell me why though. i wna hlp kitty, but i dunno how. so yes, i hate myself again, ah wells, wads new?

aniwae.. i ponned pe todae, to go j8 and buy stuff. hahas. timot ponned wif me. and sumhow dis snds kinda wrong.. aniwae.. as i was sayin yah, we ponned pe to go get stuff. and on de wae out of skool, we saw kingyin!! lol. and she was lyk free!! lol. so we dragged her along.

yups, hahas, we made alot of jokes on de way lah. timot is SOO irritating.. grahh.. he kepts makinG fun of me lah. stupid idiot. and king didnt rly hlp me either. grahh..

hahas, den we went to take neo!!! wahahahas!! IM SO HAPPI!! once agaIN!! wahahas. so so happi la. yes neos are de onli thing in de world dat make me forget everything and juz be happi.

once again, time to show off!!



isnt is pretty?? lol, its damn cute la. i love neos.. ty king and timot for makin my dae!!

den we decide to neo.. de cheapo way, i used my hps to take photos in de machines.. bwahahas, but due to de sudden disappearance of my cable. i am unable to upload de photos. GRAH!! nvm, nxt time den

we had alot of fun at j8 too, hahas, we were lyk runnin all over de place lyk madmen.. bwahahas. and hitting each other, poking each other. wahahas. so fun~

den after gettin wad we needed, we went home liao. and as usual king was a total brainless being. lOL!! i suspect her head is empty. wait.. i KNOW its empty. wahahas

i rly feel lyk im torned into two. and im starting to piss ppl off. i rly dun wna make a choice.. everyone matters so much to me. i rly duno wad to do. im kinda tired. and im lettin it show.

but im juz unable to stay strong.

my lord, i rly nd ur hlp.

ah, i shud juz go to hell la.

replies:

sophie: hahas. yes. i love swinging!! lets go!! bwahahas. thx bruda for talkin to me abt my prob todae. but i still dunno wad to do. haiz.. i hope de solution will juz come to me soon..

edwina: hahas, i try.. i will rly try.. thx alot edwina.. hahas, dun rawr leh... so scaree.. hahas

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"Benj was quite emo los, felt so sad to see my 'sista' lidat, yet he kept on saying he is fine.i roughly understand wats wrong la, but I cant help him..feel so pathetic..sighs"

i got this frm soph's blog.. thx alot for caring so much. pls dun feel pathetic.. de fact dat u care alr makes me feel much better. and u did helped me, i rly did feel much better. plz cheer up.. dun feel sad coz of me ok??

i noe alot of ppl feel frustrated when i dun wna tell them my problems.. dey feel dat i dun trust dem enuff to tell them. but thats rly not de case. its bcoz i care so much dat i dun want to burden all of u wif ur alr heavy problems.

i dun wan to cause ani unneccessary sadness or stress. i want u all to be haPPI!! dats all i ask for.

anw, had quite a long tok wif yufei on msn, hahas, thx for caring so much as well. i hope u undst.. i noe ure a great fren, but let me be one as well. hving u as a fen alone makes me happi. hahas

alright.. i'll try not to emo alr. coz my frens are gettin veri worried. smth i seriousli dun wan.

aniwae. i love dis song.

cry [mandy moore]

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended so soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment that I saw you cry
cry..moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
I wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
Was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

hahas, yes, my feelings are so deep inside. in places no one will find.

and yes, sumtimes i feel lyk crying.

ah wells. i hope dis is my last emo post.

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sophie: hahas. okaes. but still i think it was rly a wrong time. though i loved it. and even if i cud choose, i will still choose to go.. hahas. swingin is so fun. lets do it again real real soon.

siok xin: hahas, coz everyone loves me dats why hate myself, coz i cant do anithin for those hu love me!! hahas i try not to think so much la. hahas yes im a himbo. but hu cares. its fun! LOL!! benj hearts siokxin too!!

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i rly wish i cud trade my happiness for all my frens to be happi. sadly, ive done it b4.. so i cant.. but i hv no idea wad i can trade..

im so tired..

shall go slp.

why i typed this short silly post? hahas no idea.

replies:

sophie: yups updated le. but its another freakin emo post.. sorri arhs.. actualli hvn recover leh, until now my stomach still abit guai guai de.. hmms.. hahas, u also arhs?? i shudnt hv ask u to go play.. >.< sry!!

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firz off, wna apologise. im rly sorry george dat i caused u to b unable to eat breakfast wif de rest.. im rly rly sorri..

wah laos, i rly hate myself la

im so blessed. i rly am. i hv such indescribable frens in my life and by my side. i rly hv no idea how to thank dem for showin such care and concern for me.

yest coz i was feelin upset coz evryone was so unhappi and i wasnt able to take it. i ran away. literally. george sent me a sms apologisin and askin me to cheer up[when things were clearly my fault]. and after econs tutorial, alvin, soph and timot saw me outside de general office, and they came to hug me, asking if i was ok.

todae, angela, naz, siok xin and syafs didnt follow me and de rest for lunch, and dey saw dat i was sad so dey started shouting across dat they loved me..

den when i was followin de rez to lunch, soph and timot noticed i was quite unhappy and kept askin me nt to blame myself and to cheer up. constantly askin if i was ok..

and when i had a mild case of heatstroke todae, soph offered me drinks, oi shan kept askin me if i was fine, alvin and timot were supportin me in case i fell.

and dos wonderful ppl lyk edwina, oi shan, soph, syafs and yuzhe hu keeps typin encouragin and nice stuff on my tagboard tryin to cheer me up..

i question myself, why on earth i get such great ppl in my life. wad i hv done to deserve sucha great gift, blessing and miracle.

and i feel rly undeserving.. i rly dun deserve such ... such.. i dunno wad words to use.. ppl arnd me..

im far too fortunate.. and i rly wna let u all noe dat i rly love all of u so much.. i rly rly rly do. and i juz cnt imagine life wifout all of u. u guys are de reason dat i wna juz keep on tryin.

and i rly dunno wad i can do for u all.. i just feel so helpless when i see ppl sad.. yes im repeatin myself.. juz goes to show how clueless i am. i suck

i rly wna thank u lord, for ur grace and love. and i rly pray u will love all of dem juz as much as u love me..

i rly feel lyk i dun deserve my frens.

i hate myself and im far too lucky.

haiz.. bye for now

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sophie: ure de best rbuda i eva had too!! i love U TOO!!! SO MUCH!! im juz gonna sae. i rly dunno how to not hate myself.. but i rly love all of u.. im sorri for causin u guys to worry.. i will not let it happen again, i undst when u sae everybody can hlp me solve de prob, but i rly dun wna add to all of ur probs liaos.. i still can carry it. i treat u as my bez bruda lors. and keep sharin ur probs wif me k? coz i wna hlp u all carry. i rly wan to

hantu: i rly dun think im nice.. im far frm nice.. more lyk pathetic and useless. de onli thing i'll sae nice abt me, is my frens.. coz u guys rly rawk.. and i juz dunno wad to do wifout u guys.. thx alOT. ALOT

syafs: syafs!! dun make me cry pls!! i rly love u too!! plz promise me u wun eva abandon me as a fren ok? coz ure just one of a kind.. and a fren i cant bear to lose.. im nt de wonderful one, u are. im rly sorri i din follow u all todae. im rly rly sorri.

yuzhe: heys, im ok wif u all gettin angry.. i undst, i juz hate myself for nt being able to do anithin to make u all happi. i rly hate myself for being so useless. and worst, i actualli ran away.. its juz so cowardly.. but thx alot for all de encouragin words.. it rly does hlp. thx so much

edwina: i cant bake lehs. im happi lahs, knowing i have so many frens hu love me.. im rly rly touched and happi. i juz hate myself coz i feel i dun dserve u all. i cant do anth, and i din do anth to deserve such wonderful ppl. but thx alot. i rly love all of u too

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and de same goes for my old frens, i rly love all of u too. i will nv forget how much u all hlped me as well. and all of u tgth wif my new frens, all hold a special place in my heart. i love ALL of u

no. todae didnt rly go well.

i hate it when my frens are angry. i rly do. i hate seeing them so upset.

haiz, todae alot of ppl were pissed during h2 econs. everybody was lyk bu shuang dis or dat.. and i at firz i tot mayb i cud lyk try to cheer everyone up. but den alot of bad vibes and pretty unpleasant language.

i rly cudnt bear it. and yea it might seem rly childish and all. but yah, i ran away. literally ran. when george called me, i was lyk.. juz run faster. and den sophie and kingyin called, but i didnt want to pick up.

im rly sorry guys. i noe i was rly a ass back den. but i rly didnt noe wad else to do.. i was lyk so lost. im rly not angry wif u all. in fact i was angry wif myself. i just saw evryone flare up and i cudnt do anth abt it. NOT a SINgle thing!

i rly hate myself.

how useless can i get right?? and not forgetting cowardly.

haiz. arent frens suppose to be happi tgth? arent we suppose to laugh tgth? hv fun tgth? i rly dun undst. am im being too naive??

i rly love my frens so much. but it rly hurts to see evryone so upset. it rly hurts alot. no i didnt cry in skool, how cud i? but i rly feel lyk cryin now la.

yes. im emo. weak. pathetic. useless. etcetc

oh how i hate myself now..

im fortunate coz there were ppl hu were there to make me feel better. thank u all veri much. rly rly thanks

well, at least i got one happi thing.






















NEO!! hahas. neos make me happi. no matter wad. i guess its coz i awaez feel de warmth of frens in dat machine. it may be a ex and to sum, retarded, machine. but to me.. its a haven for us to juz 4get everything and juz hv fun.

hahas. im gonna show it off. its one of de nicest ive taken as well. though there was onli soph, yuan and me. but still it was rly rly great!! i love it!!

well due to de horrible curfew my mum imposed on me, i had to go home straightawae, and sides, soph was still feelin a little unwell.. so yeos

i miss my old family!! i manage to see shitien todae. hahas shes awaez bz wif band.. aj band so hiong can?? lols. miss ya all mAN!!

haiz. todae rly didnt go well for me. I HATE MYSELF. yes ty veri much.

god i nd hlp. i nd to be less useless. i nd ur help. plz.

bye

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sophie: yups he did. hahas, its ok la. i dun mind. but i dun think i helped him much though.. lols. i hope i din add to his probs man. i loved todae neo. i rly do. thx bro, it rly made my dae less dreadful. thx

edwina: hahas sure u dun wan arhs?? dun ltr regret k?? hahas. im not stupid meh?? yah im not. i just realize.. im useless. yups. not stupid. haiz.. nw, RLY GLAD TO SEE U IN SKOOL TODAE!! XD

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it rly pains me to see my frens sad. it rly does.

but i hv no idea wad i can do, or say to hlp.

dat rly sucks. it rly does.

haiz, got a qs todae. heart or mind?

hahas, i guess for me de answer is veri obvious. i will choose de heart. awaez. i guess theres just no why, its just coz i noe i can trust my heart.

yea, no doubt, de heart will sumtimes make decisions dat hurt. AlOT. and sumtimes it may seem rly stupid and retarded, hahas, trust me on dat, been thru it and sTILL gg thru it.

dats why im stupid. i am. but i noe no matter how stupid it seems, i will still follow my heart. its just a veri natural thing for me. hahas

but i noe de lord will protect me and bless me. i juz noe it. and i trust him. so yea, i'll follow my heart.

anws, i keep gettin comments im "too nice" and u noe wad? i seriousli DUN think so. and theres no such thing as TOO nice. lyk seriousli. its just dat i care alot abt how my frens feel, and for dat matter, how everyone feels.

i noe how its lyk to hurt, to feel upset. and i hate it. and hu doesnt? dats why i wna try my bez to not let ppl feel this way. so wad if i hv to giv up juz a lil bit or give in a little bit, or juz be obliging? i rly dun care. as long as i can make ppl happi, and its within my means, why not?

i just dun wan ppl to feel sad. i juz dun. i rly rly noe wad being sad feels lyk. and i rly dun wan de ppl i love to go thru it. i juz dun.

hahas. gettin damn emo.

feel lyk cryin. haha

it hurts being sad. it hurts lyk hell

and i wish no one has to hurt.

no one has to be sad.

will my wish ever come true?

will my dream of makin everyone happi come true?

nah i dun think so.

but im not giving up.

im gonna keep tryin.

yups. i will.

coz no one deserves to be sad.

love ya all.

replies:

sophie: hahas yes!! dat dae was rly rly great. haha sure arhs, bring ur guitar soon!! i be ur vocalist!! BWAAHAHAS!! whEE!!

ttk: YAH!! hahas, lets take again soon too yaH??!! wahahas, miss all u guys >.< meet up soon ok? U TC TOO!! XD

edwina: bwahahas, dun be jealous lahs, go get a bf too!! den u can play de same thing!! bwahahas!! or if not, u can awaez by my 4th mistress.. LOL!!! tc k? come bck to skool soon hors? rly miss u leh. rest well!!

sophie: heys, bruda~ dun thank me leh, dats wad im suppose to do. i wna help u, and im more den glad to be able to share part of ur unhappiness. i rly hope i can make u happi too!! its not dat i dun believe in u.. I DO! but lyk my blog saes, my purpose is to make ppl happi. not add to ppl's troubles. u undst? all i want is for all of my frens to be happi. i dun wna go care bout my probs la. its not impt. ur probs are mor impt. hahas. tc k??

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let me repeat myself AGAIN!!

I LOVE MY FRENS!!!! I RLY RLY DOO~!!!!

bwahahas. sry, yah super high, but yea. i man it frm de bottom of my heart. hahas, i think i can safely sae my frens are my source of energy, my strength, and my reasons to keep living on.

and i wud nt xchange anione one of them even for lyk a zillion dollars. ok dat snds so primary skool. but yah u get my meaning.

hahas im so happi wif dem. no idea why. mayb coz im awaez laughin wif dem. yes at times i hv been sorely abused and violated. but still i enjoy every min i hv wif them!!

it hurts me to see my frens in pain. it rly does. and most of de pain comes frm knowing dat im not able to help dem. if i cud, i wish i cud just take awae all ur problems and pain. i rly wish i cud.

but i cant.

im not god.

but i wna help. i just dun noe how! other den being sad and depressed, which is not in de least bit helpin at all. kns.

i love to see ppl smiling. i love to see ppl laughing. and most imptly, i wna see my frens HAPPY! i will do wadeva it takes to juz make my frens smile or laugh. even for dat short few seconds. and dats my promise!

i rly love my frens. ALL of dem.

pls be happi.

replies:

i sorri, my tagboard is gg haywire, and i cant see de tags, and am unable to reply. so sorri!! will reply ASAP

omg. a new neo!! bwahahas!! so happi laH!


todae was a dae of total fun la. no lessons. and 3 hrs of manga drawin. hahas, 5 of us went to manga tgth. george, kingyin, timot, syafs and me. hahas, we drew hideous looking creatures. of coz, mine was veri nice la.. LOL!!

oie dun giv me dat look lor. IM GOOD.

wahahaha.

den after dat de 5 of us juz waste time playin games, laughin ourselves silly la. LOL!! heart attack is so fun!! and syafs was so vulgur. TSK. LOL!! and we played "cai quan", "sos", "cancel de lines" etc etc. it was rly damn fun.

and we made a LOT of noise. :/

hu cares.

:P

den after dat, six of us went to j8 to eat la. was suppose to b a cls outing. but alot of ppl werent able to make it. sians. i gave george a hard time also la. sry. i rly din mean it.

haiz.

nvm. we stil had loads of fun.

weeheehees. so alvin, sophie, timot, yufei, yuzhe and me, headed dwn to j8 to eat LJS. i tell u arhs~ timot and yufei is DAMN CHILDISH!!

timot.

threw his fries and crumbs across de table. kick my leg under de table. -.-

yufei.

mix tomato sauce, tartar and wadeva he cud find. obviousli he was tryin out a magic potion which seems to be for making ppl disgusting. yufei, dunid make liao. u alr disgusting enuff! LOL!! and yes. he was playin ice. EW -.-''

yes. childish ppl. im surrounded by nimcompoops and never land kids.

grow up. PLEASE

wahahas. den after dat we went to popular. and den we went for neo!! weehEE!! lol. i love neos. im gonna take more! MORE!!

den alvin suggested we watch TMNT. yuzhe and yufei had to go. :( ah wells. so we said gdbye and went to watch de movie.

it was pretty good leh. and de animation was not bad. although i fell aslp thru certain parts. GRAHHH. paid 7 bucks to doze off. GRAHH!! aniwae, catch it if u lyk action. its not bad. i giv it 3 and a half stars.

lyk anbdy cares hw many stars i giv. LOL!! XD

yes. todae was great.

and yay me!! i fix de internet!! i rawk!! weeheee~

alright. loads of tuts man. YES TUT[TOOT]!!! LOL!! grr. dun wna do. bo bian. gotta at least do lit. baH. humbug.

ciaoz~

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edwina: I WHERE GOT!!?? i didnt lors.. wahahas. it was an act of god. LOL!! EEE dun come find me!! PLS!! leave me alone!! AHHHHHH!! GO AWAY!!! ARHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! XP

hantu: BWHAHAAHS!! yes I AM!!! WHEEE~!!! lols

tim: why are u depressed lor?? is u make fun of me lEH!! gRAH!! u BIG BULLY!! stop bullyin me. or i'll trash talk u sumore!! BWAHAHAHAS!! niwaes, todae was great!! i wan SUMORE!! lol

sophie: yah lors. nv hlp me.. bleah. ok den wheres my sister in law den?? u also faster find lAH!! tsK. LOL. i wan more of todaes!! lol

angela: yes my dear!! >< LOL!! i linked u tOO!! and i linked u firz!! WAHAHAS!! missin ya >< LOL!!! :p

resilience wkshop.. bahh.. it was juz a waste of time. yea, i agree it was quite fun and interesting. but heys, i din rly learn anithin out of it. i admit, de speaker was funnie though.

his stories were abit hard to believe though. i believe in god's miracles. but i dun believe in human lies. hmms.

and when he was mentioning de "feeling depressed" everydae part, suddenli everybody turn and look at me. OIE!! hahas yes im guilty. but dunid stare at me right?? and yu fei was lyk " dun kill urself arhs" and tim was lyk " oie, dun so emo lah" grr.. LOL!

im depressed and i hate myself. but its ok. coz i love my frens, and i noe i hv their support too!! i wun go de la, i cant bear to leave all of u. but hating myself, is rly nt smth i can control. haiz.

aniwaes, i was sorely bullied todae. by yet once again de evil timothy!! grr. i do not undst wad goes thru his mind, but i hv a pretty gd idea he derives pleasure frm degrading me.. GRAHH!!

he told me i had BLUBBER POWER!!! and everyone noes blubber means LOTS of FAT!! grr.. hes lyk comparing me to a fat sEAL!! or WORST!! A BIG SICKO HUGE WHALE!! wah laos.. im so freakin depressed man.

and to top it all, he asked me not to be so SENSITIVE!! LYK EXCUSE ME!! HUS BEING IN SENSITIVE LORS!!!???

grraaHH!! im so angry.

and den, i had a overzealous guy hu kept proffessing his love for me.. ewW. george arhs.. STOP TOUCHIN ME LAH!! LOL!! but den again, he touches everyone.. which probably explains why ppl run awae frm him.

i feel violated. yes.

yucks.

lol

but i had a fun dae la. abit scary and upsetting, but other den dat.. was still great. bwahahahas. i rly love my frens!! >.< and my dear bruda.. hu didnt seem to b helpin me when i was being bullied.. hmms.. wad kinda of bro i hv arhs?? tsk. LOL

stupid KUKU!! i swear i saw a stupid KUKU todae!! while i was on 188 home todae, there was dis stupid KUKU hu was riding his bic in front of de bus. yes. directly in front of de bus.

and u noe wad? he juz kept riding. and when de bus caught up wif him..

....

he rode faster.

-.-

lyk.. HEY!! use ur brains cN??!! move one side la!! BUT NOOO~ he had try to ride faster, and he was lyk panting lyk siao.. lyk wth lah.

SEE!! STUPID KUKU!!

it was kinda funnie la. but pissing as well. LOL

tmr got cls outing. wheee!! take neo!! bwahahas.

ciaoz~

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edwina: im not strange lors!! i juz love neos!! bwahahas. AIYA DUN ENVY!! coz we can hv de same fUN!!! LOL!!

yang: heys auntie dear, ITS NOT TWO CENTS WORTH LOR!! i value ur advice veri veri much. i noe ure right. but i guess, im juz being me. which is precisely why i hate myself. but i guess, if i wasnt de fool i am, i wudnt hv such great frens lyk u. right? hahas, we win some and we lose sum la. hahas. meet up soon again k??

siokxin: ME!!?? lols, yah im damn behind on my hmwk too!! hu cares la. i still hvn adjust to jc doing hmwk life yet. giv me a few more wks. :/ LOL!! dun wry, u can peh me too!!

sophie: bwahahas, i dun think neos are limited to gurls leh. its abt close frens lor. coz u wun take neo wif ppl u dun lyk right?? LOL!! i love takin neos!! hahas!! tmr!! KK!!??

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saturdaes rock. i love dem. period. haha

went out wif ade, che, clara and shitien. we were supposedly suppose to catch nada sou sou. but too bad, de tickets were sold out for de 3.30 show at vivo. ah wells.. bo bian, had to cancel movie watchin coz de nxt show was at 7.30.

sorri che!! nvm, we'll try again!!

so we decided to go for carls jr. it was NICE~, hahas but pretty ex lahs. so i and ade shared while shitien and che shared. clara din eat. >< said she was too full. de beef fries were nice.

yups den after dat went shoppin. vivo is big lehs. and a lot of nice stores lah. and i absolutely fell in love wif this freakin nice outfit.. lyk wah laos man.. it was juz bludy nice la. i will get it!! but its 79 bucks..wth la. nvm, start saving. hees

okaes, after looking arnd, shitien had to go off alr. she had a badminton match wif her dad.. cnt pon. LOL!! so de four of us decided to go orchard to rent movie watch.

bludy hell la, there were no more rooms.. grr. so we had to cancel it as well.. aiya in de end, we went heeren and eat wanton mee. we tok abt loads of stuff.. as usual.. and ade complained her wanton mee not nice.. LOL!

den go and take neos!!!! WHEEE!!! and we actualli took TWICE!!! bwahahas. wah laos.. i was lyk freakin happi la.. TWO NEOS LEH!!!! we decided to take de 2nd, coz de firz wasnt nice. as in de decor din rly make it. so we bu shuang, went to take another one.


hahas de firz one. our photos demself were veri nice. its juz we din hv enuff time to decorate it nicely. hahas but its still damn nice

















de 2nd one was much better. and de photos were even NICER. i think cocoa rowks la. and we look juz absolutely great in dem.

bwahahas, 2 neos.. WE RAWK!! i wna do this wif my clsmates too!! bwahahas. I WILL.

yest i was kinda.. hmms.. nostalgic? coz he toked to me. and suddenli, i was reminded of last time. and being de stupid me again. i was wonderin mayb things will become lyk b4. i guess sum things are hard to get over, and even harder to forget. i guess best frens are juz not things u can juz cast aside.

but theres no pt hangin on either.

i dun wna think la.

i miss kbox >.<

i wna take more neos! XD

i wna go skool and see my clsmates!! :))

ive not met liwee for a rly long time la. :(

hahas i love saturdaes. whee!!

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hantu: hahas, eee, i dare not self love, dun hv de criteria for dat.. lols. thx for loving me!! lol!! love ya too!!! XD

siokxin: ooo.. jason cute ehh?? lols!! yah!! we are, but u all nv sae anithin >.< nvm!! nxt wk!! join aje arhs?? rly arhs?? lols. i stil cant confirm yet.. i wish sumone cud make up my mind for me. bwahahas.. cya tmr!!!

yuzhe: bwahahas!! ty yuzhe!!! hahas, thx for ur support!!hahas yES!! im NOT airpORK!!! im superman!! :/ LOL!! yes i shall shoot back nxt time!! bwahahas timot u be careful arhs.. LOL!!! yuzhe u rawK!! cya tmr!!

sophie: yaH!! we siblings RAWK!!! how come we got diff surname arhs?? LOL!! yes get over emo-ism. we can do it!! lyk real.. LOL!! cya tmr!!! XD heys!! lets go out and take sumore neos!!! hees

edwina: heys DA SHIFU!!! im glad to hear ure happi 24/7. are u sure ure not lying?? bwahahas. but i see ur posts got alot of "fking" lehs.. dun tel me u use words lyk "fking" when ure happi arhs?? LOL!! cya tmr!!

syafs: benj hearts syafs TOO!!! and yes glam partner!! WE RAWK!!! miss ya lots!! cya tmr!! and i nv take neos wif u b4!! LOL
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good fridae.. yay~ holidae.. i lyk holidaes.. coz i dun hv to wake up at lyk 5.30 am in de morning, and i can stay up late.. bwahahas, and be lyk a pig, and wake up at lyk 1 pm in de aft.. LOL!!

i got alot of freakin math tuts lahs.. its so irritating.. grr.. and i dun feel lyk even gg near dem.. yux..

i wna go out todae leh.. but plans kena cancelled. sian diao. nvm, tmr den. tmr shall go watch movie. nada sou sou. mr bean. ninja turtles. hahas

im lyk so freakin bored now, and since i dun wna go touch my math tuts, i hv absolutely nth to do. games bore me, tv progs are juz plain Zzz. mayb i shud go back to slp.

i wna go kbox! and sing songs.. lyk duh la. hahas. i actualli wish i was at skool, coz den i'll be wif my frens.. bwahahas. i nv tot i cud eva actualli want to go to skool. how cool is dat?

im still not sure on wad cca to join. grr.. hockey or track and field? answer.. answer..

pending.

mood: bad!

i dun wna think.

lol

my sis is gg to be lyk 1 mth old tmr!! woots!! time rly flies man.. it seems juz lyk yest i was in de hospital, seeing her for de firz time.. hahas. happi 1mth mei!!! XD

i lyk sun yan zi. hahas

im bored.

bwahahas

bye~

bwahahas, "mistress no 2" nazeehah!! LOL!! my siao lao pos!!



hahas am and my "mistress no 1"angela!! bwahahas!!


hahas. syafiqah!! one of my dearest frens.. and fellow glam partner.. i gt TIEee u dun hv~ lalala.. LOL!!


edwina!! my master in suaning ppl.. lols.. hey shi fu!!


sophie!!! my "bruda"!! and my fellow CL!!! and u noe wad? WE RAWK!! hahas


hahas nazeehah and syafiqah!!! i juz love talkin to them.. u guys juz rawk!! XD


yes. dun ask, my camera has just been polluted.. and violated.. i nda disinfect it.. BWAHAHAS!! hahas, yu fei, de tall smart guy.. hahas, a great fren as well


firz grp foto of de dae!!! bwahahas, its damn nice la.. i was holding my arms arnd my "mistress" abit too tightly.. >< smdy was pushin me la.. sry angela..


gotta admit.. one of de nicest foto yet.. hahas, probably coz it has ppl lyk george and teck liang and mary, whom i nv taken fotos wif b4!! hahas thx guys!! its a rly nice foto!!


another grp foto!! bwahahas!! but its not nice coz my face was blocked!! ZZzz.. hahas no lah, i think its damn nice too!! hahas, lyk it aLOT









hahas yes, todae is camwhore dae.. and i love takin fotos!! hahas, though i dun exactly hv the qualifications la.. but still i love takin fotos wif my frens.. at least im juz happi wif them.. dats wad matters i guess (:

and now, trash talkin time.. becoz i hv been treated veri badly by dat stupid timot again... grr.. and of all things he had to call me AIRPORK!!! lyk GRAAAAAAAHHH!!! coz dat bludy name juz reminds me of HSD!!! lyk EWWWW!!!

timot, u suck!! call me airpork!! u GOOD!! timot is a real evil person.. one shud do well to stay awae frm him.. for fear of recieving mental trauma or physical injuries.. if one does feel threatend, pls do not hsitate to notify de police.. BE ON UR GUARD!!

bwahahahas!!! im lyk so evil.. but he started it.. hahas XP

now lets see, im lyk at a lost.. oh yah!! went to northpt wif yuan and naz todae.. we saw alot of chung cheng skool studs.. hu were lyk.. juz.. erm.. hahas, neighbourly skooly.. snds wrong yah? hahas

we ate a ljs den went to de shops, or rather de gurls went to shop.. for perfume.. LOL and dey made me wait.. TSK.. LOL!! but it was ok la.. i dun mind.. but nxt time, i shall make dem wait while i go find stuff too.. haha!!

yups.. ok and todae gp was damn fun la.. laughed until lyk siao, i think ms raj is cool.. yups.. hahas

i still hv a bludy load of math tuts nt finished.. yux.. i dun wna do leh.. grr..

i miss my old frens.. ><

i love my new frens.. XD

i hate myself.. :(

hahas

alright, bye for now!

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edwina: heys shifu!! hahas its true ma, ur blog is so angry de.. hahas, muz be happi abit lah.. how to show me?? i noE!! blog smth happi!! bwahahas, lyk me!! XP

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yay, its raining, haha, isnt dat lyk random?? but yea, i lyk rain.. when im not caught in it, dat is.. bwahahas

im so god damn tired.. lyk my shoulders are aching big time and my head is spinning, how de hell am i supoose to do tutorials lyk dat?

seriously, jc life does NOT agree with me, im so sick and tired of facing hmwk everydae, when i put dos wrk on my desk, my mind juz turns off, and im off to singin or slpin again.. lyk wth la.

i guess im still nt use to it yet, im gonna giv myself 1 more wk to get use to it, and i probably gg to start half muggin.. benj muggin.. hahas, dat snds so wrong..

"dates" over de long wkend.. i hope i can go for all of dem.. i hope my mum will be nice and allow me to go, i hope my wallet will be filled wif money for me to spend, i hope this and i hope dat.. but sumhw i noe i wun get it lah..

TSK.

now lets see, i lyk gg to skool, hahas, i dun lyk gg to jc, but i lyk gg to skool, coz im so happi to see all my frens.. i actualli dun wna pon skool, coz i wna be able to meet them.. bwahahas.. i love my frens..

i miss my old frens as well!! but nvm, tmr can meet up again liaos.. bwahahas, watch nada sou sou!! did i spell it right? hahas, hu cares..

den sat watch teenage mutant ninja turtles!! LOL!! i think it will be cool, i use to lyk them, until i realize dey are ugly.. seriousli they are.. and wads the thing abt pizza? why cant dey eat wanton mee?? or char kway teow?? or sushi?? of all things, pizza.. -.-

i lyk pepper lunch.. bwahahas, so random..

im a cls leader.. sumhow dat tot kinda scares me.. it makes me kinda stressed.. im so afriad i wun b able to pls everyone.. im so afraid i will screw up.. im so afraid i wun live up to ppls expectations.. im so afraid of this, and dat and those and these... blah blah

but u noe wad, i noe my frens will be there to support me.. bwahahas, and if i rly cnt make it, i will let go.. i think i'll make a bad cls leader leh..

aiya i dun wna go think..

hahas

okaes, i nda go do my tutorials man.. and hist is lyk.. zzzzzzzz, sianess.. i probably die.. ahh wadeva.. juz go do lah..

bye~

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syafs: totalli, sum ppl rly arent worth it.. but i guess its juz me lah.. i even feel bad when im treating de person i dun lyk, badly.. lyk wth lah.. hahas, call me stupid man.. but i still believe ppl are suppose to be good.. hahas too idealistic alr lah hors? hahas <33 u too!!! cya tmr!! and i miss talkin to u!! :(

yang: hahas, orhs.. and i was lyk tryin to figure out wad it meant.. hahas, oh yah u starting skool soon right?? how? scared nt?? oh yah and wad course hv u decided to take?

sihui: S!!! omg, u actualli tag my blog arhs?? bwahahas, miss u alot lahs!! u tmr got go not?? im great lah, rly happi in aj, u leh?? u dun snd too happi on ur blog arhs.. hahas, tc k?? and update me!! bwahahas, coz i dun get to meet u much >.<

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todae.. hahas, wad can i sae arhs?? im nt rly sure..

its ok lah.. at least dere was no hmwk due or wadeva.. bwahahas

todae syafs nv come, are u ok syafs?? tc yah?? missin u!! hahas X)

pw.. hahas, i dun rly wna tok abt it lahs.. yups

oh yah, i guess i rly shud apologize to timot.. i guess dos are rly mean stuffs to sae.. rly sorri arhs..

sumhow i think i hv a psychological prob.. no, i dun think im mad.. but yea.. im afraid of ppl lying to me and hurtin me.. im so afraid to an extent, im nt sure i even dare to get close to de person.. im afraid of gettin to close to ppl, coz im so afraid of gettin hurt again..

it sucks, coz im afraid of trusting ppl.. and i love ppl, i wna trust them.. but i juz cant..

god hlp me..

mayb i am mad..

haiz..

alright, bye.

oh yah, hahas i hv a new godbrother.. okae.. snds super corny man.. LOL!! heys sophie!! "BRUDA"!!! LOL!!! wah laos.. bruda juz snds corny la.. bwahahhas.. hahas, so bruda arhs, got ani probs muz tell me ok?? im nt sure if i can hlp or not la, but at least, hlp share abit ba.. lol..

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hantu: lOL, chicken lover?? hahas, snds kinda wrong.. ok, now i noe wad to get for ur bdae!! chicken rice!! and btw.. de plant thing.. is random.. BWAHAHAHA!!! kdkd lOL!!! XD

angela" hello DE*R.. LOL!! hahas, making fiends is lyk cute wad.. and u recommend one ma, so how can dun lyk? LOL!! tc!! cya tmr!!

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hahas, its been a short while since i last post.. sryy, shall update now..

sat

not much lahs, was a pretty boring one.. hahas, since i din go to de cls outing.. sucks.. nvm, im sure dere will be more chances.. seriousli, wkends are horrible if i dun go out.. grr..

sun

great dae! hahas, met up wif all my dear old frens to go support shitien at de victoria concert hall, wooTS!! shitien u rawk!!! hahas

ade, jas, mabel, taikoon, xiner and me met up at je mrt, tk was de latest.. tsk, he kena scolded by xiner.. LOL.. hahas, den we went orchard to find things.. catched up on de train.. hahas, we went heeren to shop a bit lahs.. den had to rush off to vch le

cheryl met us there, and de 7 of us, went into de hall, we were nearly late, heng we got in, in time.. hahas.. juz made it.. bwahahaas

de concert, was ok i guess, though its not fantasticalli gd, but still applaud dem for tryin their best (: hahas

here are de photos i took dat dae

me and tk, hahas, he was tryin to hide de pimple on his chin.. bwahahas

me and ade, bwahahas, i look stupid.. and my face is cut.. but i lyk it aniwae.. bwahahas.. i think ade looks pretty la..

mabel, ade, jas, me and xiner!!!

dun we juz rawk!!?? bwahahas

me and cher!! bwahahas, de rock and de grass.. hahas..

mabel and me!! hahas, i think mabel is pretty too, (:

and i think de light effect actualli quite nice.. bwahahas

hahas all 8 of us!! includin shitien de star!! hahas, dun we juz make a great bunch.. miss ya all!!! >.<

hahas im gonna show off now.. bwahahas, my brand new wallet!! hahas, its my bdae prez frm my rly great frens.. ade, angeline, che, liwee, shitien, sihui and taikoon!!! thank u all so much!! i rly love de present.. its rly nice.. LOVE U ALL!!!

i was rly loss for words when dey gave my my prez.. hahas, i rly do love it.. i rly do love all of u too!! hahas.. so emo hors?

hahas, aniwae, will be meetin all of u soon!! lookin 4ward to it!! XD

mon

i hate mondaes, period

its such a freakin long dae, and de last lesson of de dae, is lyk freakin pE, its nt dat bad lah.. but still its tiring u noe.. kns..

went home wif shitien and alvin todae, hahas, we juz suan each other lahs.. stupid shitien, abandon me.. ure not a good fren.. bwahahas, kdkd, but u betray me.. TSK

hahas, long post wif lotsa fotos.. i applaud myself.. bwahahahas

im kinda happi la..

seeing u reminds me of ... im juz so scared things will end up de same..

hahas random.. but yah..

alright, i nda go, ciaoz!

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hantu: lols, ur peom is nice wad.. juz cheem.. hahas, but why are u describin de plant ure holding?? are u lyk a plant lover or smth?? dats kinda wierd.. hmms, doesnt dat mean u cant eat vegetables?? bwahahahas!!

edwina: wah, got ppl lyk dat ask ppl nt to be emo de arhs?? so forceful de.. LOL, but i appreciate it aniwae. thx alots!! i try la.. sumtimes i juz cant hlp it.. if i dun vent my feelins on my blog.. i hv nowhere else to do it le..

yang: dearest auntie!!! yups i noe de hotline of coz.. but wads wif de 29 buzzes?? dun rly get it lehs.. lols.. hahas, and i noe ure tryin to sae, ure amanda's best fren.. LOL!! im so cleva.. lyk real!! LOL!!

yanz: heys manda!! i missed u so!!! hahas, yah lors.. so long nv talk.. sry dat time, i was awae.. nvm, sure gt other chance de!! or if u wan, u can awaez call me too (: ajs not bad la.. my cls ppl are rly great.. hahas, im realli happi there, hahas i will be happi to see a happi amanda too!! hahas de best fren thing.. haiz.. i try nt to go rmb la.. it still can make me cry sumtimes.. hahas, emo yah? sry if i brought back ani bad memories, i hope i can find one soon too.. u tc too my dear amanda!! XD

alvin: yups sure, i will, but its not lyk i can read it aniwae.. bwahahas.. but i still add aniwae.. (: cya tmr!!

siok xin: sry lah!! dis post veri long leh!! and im nt horrid lors.. i feel loved.. bLEAH!!! ure cute la, but bimbotic.. bwahahas!! hahas ok cya tmr!! and if u highlight my hair, i'll pour curry on u.. BWAHAHAHAS!!!

sophie: u gd lors.. still hv.. sobs.. i dun hv.. i feel so sad.. haiz nvm.. i shall wait.. mayb god will b kind to me... hahas. i dun care!! ure a gd bruda if im a gd sista.. or u can call me a gd bruda, den i'll call u a gd sista.. wan?? LOL!! hahas, hugs too!! cya tmr!! and if alvin sees dis, he probably make sum comment again.. -.-'' i better bring sum tape tmr.. bwahahas

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omg my rplies are lyk soooo long.. hahas, but i hope u guys lyk it..

ciaoz!!