sometimes sch starts out so bad, you just wanna take an atomic bomb and blast the sch to smithereens. especially when its unneccessary things like stupid bias lian who make groundless insinuations. go get your facts right b4 you jump to conclusions.
and then as usual, tbk makes a whole big scene about bloody nonsense, one of this days i'll stuff your spare turban into your motorcycle's exhaust and then you can just blow up while im in a taxi pointing a really rude sign at you (from a safe distance of course).

WAH this is bad. talk about lack of magnanimosity. time for some reflection and quiet time with God. (:

of course, the dearest lord always makes things better by making sch end with a really good workout. vball, running, a little soccer, more vball. and then a short escapade to amkhubs ntuc.

so in the end the day didnt end so badly after all. thank god and goodness, lol, for friends like that.

a little appreciation goes a long way. (:

i think people who post anonymously on blogs are cowards. if you got smth to say, say it out loud. dont say it and hide. loser

zzz, i need to be a little less antagonistic.

STILL FEEL LIKE PLAYING VBALL!

omg, its like an addiction. save me

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random things i hear on a train

girl A: you're like the stupidest girl in the whole wide world
girl B: what! YOU're like the stupidest girl in the WHOLE UNIVERSE
girl A: (to girl C) omg, thats so childish, i was just telling her she's like the stupidest girl in the whole wide world and she told me i was the stupidest girl in the universe. ahahahahaaha(laughs in a rly annoying way)
girl A: Whaaat, its true whaaat. i mean it
girl B: (laughs somemore in a REALLY annoying manner)

bueytahan. seriously, i was about to laugh out loud at the idiocy of that convo but that would be to laokui. but seriously, so this is what the younger generation talk about nowadays.

rolling fried rice sushis and stupid girls in wide worlds and universes.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

happy family. lol, it just came to my mind. as usual my head's filled with countless random things.

i think, whats saddest, is the souring of friendships.
has got to be absolutely the most zzz thing ever.
if only life was all about laughing happily(and laokuily) and having endless fun.

((((:

there are some parts of school now thats really unpleasant. its so unpleasant i just wanna go home and sleep it away. and you know, umbrella area sucks. its damn hot and makes me even more zzzz.

hahahaha zzzz.

its so nice to say.

zzzzz
zzzzzz
zzzzzzz

shit, i got alot of lit hw suddenly.

heng tmr no lessons.

cant stand the sight of ths f*ckshit, turbanking

so my mum, turns out was being really nice and reasonable about everything. and thats exactly what i want, now i can finally stop being rebellious and really study cause i dont want to let her down. and i feel really bad cause... cause im just bad. LOL.

im just a positive learner.

k, i dont wanna start confabulating a whole bunch of mushy, dreary things.

and for the dont know how many umpteenth time, i'll still say i cant do without 1408. think i would just fade away in nothingness. okay thats very exaggerating, haha. and its been a really long time since i last saw the gang as well. kbox sounds really awesome. hahaha

i need another sentosa-like outing.

vball tmr, YES.
need to run as well. getting huge.

how is it possible that im absolutely poor. like so poor i cant even draw money from my bank cause the minimum withdrawal amt is 20 bucks. i really need to reflect on my control of finances.

money! fall from the sky! nono, dont fall anywhere, fall into my bank accnt please. just 100 mil. and i'll be contented. haahaha

you'll never believe this. even i dont believe it. but..

I DID MY MATHS AND CHEM TUTORIALS.

QUICK QUICK GIVE ME APPLAUSE!!!

lol!

wth right. im SUPPOSE to finish them. and here i am making a big deal out of it. but i really did them, all by myself, on a weekend, at home, and chem is not even due tmr. WAH

and i could play dota without feeling guilty and feel really great owning the damn ais.

hahahaha

super junior's 'its you' is stuck in my head.

im determined to make sure my mum eat her words. and everything else she accused me of. bah.
[utters a really rude word under my breath]

okay that was really lame. ahaha

whats the definition of a friend?

friends help one another when they're down and in the dumps. they might scold you and act a little bossy when they see you doing silly things. but its only cause they care. they dont leave you. sooner or later they just respect their friend's decision and give them the support they need.

friends who give up on one another simply cause they are dissatisfied are not friends. they are picky. they pick what they like and discard what they dont.

eh you think what, buffet ar?

bah, lousy friends make me pissed. no, not friends. lousy people.

something about blogger seems weird. i think this post might get unpublished or smth. lol

its been quite a while since the stupid exams and the f*ed up results. life moves on, as usual.

sch has been great. great in ways i wouldnt have expected.

i wonder how come i've changed so much.

hahahaha

oh and you cant keep pushing people. sooner or later, they'll just push back. really

i feel really stupid. no, not the kind of stupid i always mean, but honestly stupid, like as in, dumb, brainless, retarded, unintelligent and all the other synonyms you can find.

if only i could just take that drop-out form and just... get away from this hell.

i cant stand the sight of my exam papers, looking at it always makes me cry. cry because i feel utterly pathetic and useless.

i dont want to go on and on about this.

PES A. wth. so i rly need to go run and gym and blah blah now. if not it would be hell when i go in.

i like basketball too. but volleyball's better.

think i wouldnt make it if i wasnt in 1408. thank god. even if its sometimes inhabited by hovercrafts and machine guns, its still pretty awesome.

(:

thanks, yz, pam, erika and maybe even darren. haha

feel like vballing.

the stagnation is due to constant mapling and dota which im glad(and sad) to say has come to an end.

recently its dawned upon me that people always judge you especially those you didnt expect would. and im just going to say i hate it. im sorry if im not fit enough to be your friend. and that you think im simply a pushover so you think you can subject me to your stupid and shallow antics.

woah, cant believe i just said that.
i think its because im in a really foul mood. and everytime i get back my pathetic good for nothing grades, i really wanna break down but that would be too weak and nua for some people. so i have to suck it all in and bear with it.

in the end i thank god for friends i can be myself with. its these people who i know will always appreciate me for who i am and not what i do.

and btw im not a pushover. i just choose never to get angry at my friends.

dont piss me off.

and now, i wish i can just hide some far away place form everyone and really break down.

running on borrowed time.

its the most apt description of what im going through now. and seriously, i think ive peaked. ive been using dozens of supplements to supply the energy im not getting for sleep. i think i slept less than 12 hours over the entire week. and redbull, chicken essence, milo, food are all giving me a sugar rush which lasts for a mere half an hr. FATIGUED. im beginning to feel extremely tired and thoroughly exhausted.

im so tired i wanna cry, really. im feeling so shagged its making me so depressed. omg, i just wanna mutter a whole string of profanities to express this rage im in. (*&@(*&*(#*@&^$!#!^$(&T$!#*!#!^#!#*!P!(*&#*(!#

i cant study history. not in this state.

im going to fail everything and what upsets me most is i studied the most for chem but its fucking difficult. ive never given up on a paper b4, NEVER. but i was so tired i was beginning to slip out of consciousness and i knew i was going to fail anyway. 0's a U, so is 39, why bother getting the 39? its a U anyway.

im really quite upset now. and i really wished death was waiting for me on my bed.

a eternal slumber doesnt seem so bad.

really.