its all these bloody scams again. some people have so much time on their hands that they keep telling others they won a whole big load of money.

well you're welcome to give them all to me, i'll even give you change. in hell notes that is.

what a bunch of retards.


anyway. prata tmr!! oooooo.

if i won 10 million dollars from the net, i bet the next day i'll be robbed, kidnapped, mutilated, murdered, assaulted all at the same time. so i think i'll just stick with playing with monopoly money and keep pretending Queen Astrid Park is mine!! bahaha.

i never could understand why Orchard Road is cheaper than Queen Astrid. bah.

haircut with carine and cafe cartel later. fabulous would suffice. hahaha. sorry carine for making your teeth hurt...

im so full of anger which is unlike me really. all of a sudden, im so pissed at these other generation people. ahhh whatever i bet i'll get over it.

yeah, clara, a drink sounds good. :)

i guess in the end i never really meant what i said. and i dont think i want to regret anything. so yeah.

i feel disorientated.

its really hard to describe.

but on the way home, the images that filled my mind were of really gory and frightening stuff. i dont think im crazy. i really dont think so. but maybe all the recent anger and frustration building up within me has left me a little more than just ....

i dont know.

it hurts more than a little inside.

but there's really nothing much i can do about it.

NEOPETS PEOPLE. its the new in.

and im so totally engrossed in this ancient game. which incidentally is also sparked by this subconcious need to try and be as rich as jere. i only need to win a 17 million jackpot once. and you would think it wasnt that hard...

1 scorched treasure scratchcard, 1000 neopoints. average chance of winning, chances that the card has jackpot... to get 17000000 , only have 30000, 2147658723
217465328765t5876573257856674%&%^**(&(&@*(#(*@&$)&$(*@&$U908472864343^&*^&*(&(*@478
EEEARRGHHHHH KABABOOOMMMMM!!!!

and i wonder why i nearly failed math.

hahaha.

to put in simply.

i'll probably be stuck playing meerca chase 3 times a day for the rest of my life. did i mention i never even got the fish negg before? and whats a fish negg anyway, i bet it's gonna be real smelly. and whats with meerca chase, its not like he's chasing anything, and how come i always get a question mark on the wheel of excitement, and why do they call it mystery prize anyway, its always only 46 neopoints. dont ven get me started on the wheel of mediocrity, its a measly 10 neopoints...............................................................................................................................................



im only like this after going to chenting's blog. it has that effect on people. shhh

sorry kell and jere, today i was kind in a foul and down mood. its cause i wasnt feeling too well. so sorry if i was unpleasant in anyway.

being sick sucks.

my throat still hurts.

my head's kinda spinning.


no kidding. its really tragedy style drama.

hahahh.

ah, i catch colds faster than you can say "oh i see".

and then with the onsets of headaches, runny noses, intermittent sneezing, coughing. its like drama, othello tragedy style, all over again. ouch.

and i just discovered i've ben using plenty of literature associated terms. well, all part of the aiming to take h3 literature program. and grandmas would fly. (prays silently for grandma to fly) whooooooosh...

and i would probably fail it as quickly as how the grandmama falls.

splat.

HAHAHH
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ms chan: that's the problem with men, they never have visions
me: aiya, vision for what, the sky will still be blue tmr whatt.

i bet that's why ms chan smacks me on the head alot.

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i try not to get emotional. but its like the singapore weather. it never rains but pours. and on all other days, its sunnysunnysunnysunny. with an occasional forecast of cloudy weather.

"and today we forsee thunderstorms"

im sick after all. HAHA

i just grabbed the watch and cried.

and i realized i never did let go of anything.

lichu is spending a tremendous amount of effort trying not to go crazy doing the proposal for council investiture. i dont think its going too well though. she just told me that she talks to herself when she does proposals.

wierddd right?

kellie is being really quiet. which is extremely unlike her. occasionally she just stares at you with that spastic look. and she just told me the plant on top of the table is fake. like duh, i dont know meh.

wierddd right?

apparently im the only sane one here. i hope i do not get too affected by them.

lichu just sighed VERY loudly. i bet when she reads this post she will laugh like crazy.

my handphone just rang very loudly in the library. it went DU DU. HAHAHH.

i think im going crazy too.


ahhhhhh

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nice miss symbolic is like an oxymoron.

really.

nearly a week has passed and the weekends are upon us again. but then it will just soon fly past and it will be another monday again.

time has been flying- jet plane style.

WHOOOOSH.

urmm. haha

OMG. I SAW NAZ TODAY!!! ahh, it was so exhilarating but so strangely familiar. its like she never left. ahhh, how i do miss her.

urgh, i still feel the frustration.

symbolic my ass la.

i'll give you symbolic

!^#*&#%$%$&#@()@@&^#%@%!%#^&!*(!)@&%%!&!*^@$#@*@)!*@^%#@%@

hows that for symbolic.

omg. haha. did i just do that? ah well, i'll delete it later.

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jere pulled erika's hair today.

the result: the scariest day of my life ever.

AS PROMISED, TO THE BOY WHO CRIED WOLF...




hahaha. you, yes you reading this. the one with the guilty conscience.

YOURE DEAD.

hahahaha. okok, kidding lah. i think i trust you after all. i think la.
hahahh..

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well the thing about living in your own world with your friends is not wholly based on some random ravings of a semi-looney. i failed hist. sorry angeline, i didnt pass everything after all. but while spending time with my friends. i really forgot about it.

maybe crying about it would be a bit of an overreaction but its such a bummer. really. ah, but no point dwelling on it, i just have to try harder. i think.

oh yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC! haha, hope you like the wallet. and you should be like thanking me for the rest of your life and days because i had to undertake such an ardous journey there to get it. HAHAHH. HAPPY 17TH!

have i been in love before? errr....
hahahh.




i rather not have been.(i think the space in between is for dramatic effect.)

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me: ARHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
lichu: (just stares into space for 5 seconds)
lichu: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

oh, i forgot to mention during that 5 seconds she was pouring water on herself.

there are only two instances when the you really start to live in your own world.

the first case is when you're with your friends.
you know how you talk at the top of your voices without any regards to the people around you. you're simply oblivious to them, its like they dont even exist(i say like because no matter how much you're in your own world, the train is still bloody packed regardless. urgh)
oh and then you have crazy people like me who laughs way too hysterically. of course, crazy people like minghan and shihui who suddenly start singing wierd tunes and making wierd noises. jeremy and kell's whose actions are so unfathomable, they just "crack" and appear beside you.(yah haha, inside joke lah)

i think i made my point.

haha.

oh the 2nd instance is when you're with the person you like.
you become unaware of EVERYTHING around you. time is of no concern, if there are people around you, they are mere ornaments that adorn the fabulous scenery around you. you simply enjoy every moment that's going on. even the sky is exceptionally blue.
when you talk on the phone. the world sort of shifts into a fast forward mode.


ah well
so it would suffice to say im spending half of my life in my own world.

i think i can remember the times i spent my entire life in my own world.

but all good things come to an end. i think.

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jer: your earring quite big arh
erika: hah? my urine?
erika: my urine quite big?? WHAT THE HELL??

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA
i spent the following two minutes of my life laughing in pain.

i think the emphasis is on the pain.

lolll

there goes the weekend. bah.

and that they say, is as simple as that.





























BAH

the weekends pass so quickly. not forgetting i spend nearly half of it sleeping. that doesnt leave much for homework or anything else for that matter.

i havent got back my history results. which is quite irritating really.

OH! naz is back!! HAHAHH!! i cant wait to meet up with you!!

i wish it was christmas now.


that was entirely random. but yeah.

hahahh


jer: money makes the world go round-
liying: the world is round what.

HAHAHH. liying says the funniest things.

perhaps stifled would be a good word to use.

withholding everything within can really wear you out. it could be the weather or it could be those "think about stuff" season, but of late there has been plenty of "emo" going on with me.

all of a sudden i want to take a really really long night bus ride and looking at all the cars, lights go past.

i try not to dwell on the past but it clearly isnt working.

also i've been seeing a whole lot of baskers recently. my heart really goes out to them. but what's the point of sympathizing with them when i dont offer a single coin? i feel really disgusted at myself.

im caught in this really ambivalent mood.

everything evokes strong emotions in me. i swear people think im crazy.

oh well. on a side note.

i passed all my mid year exams. i think it was a bit of luck as well. and to my friends who arent satisfied with your results, lets work hard together!! study groups, sessions, the works. yea

i really wish i was on that bus ride now.

我看不開 也放不開 因為我曾見過愛情真的盛開

我要等待 一直等待 等那一個夜晚從回憶回來

當你擁抱著我 那一瞬間 我像飛到空中

而當我緩緩降落 我不再是我 我有了夢 我在夢中

what a fine way to put it.

i really want to sleep lah.

but because some retarded person who's spasticity so annoyed me, i decided i absolutely have to type this.

the person's msn nick goes

"im sleeping now (and some rainbow emot thing. wth lah.)"

and then he comes online.

you get the point?

its like someone knocking at the door asking "anybody there" and you answer "NO, no one here"

get the point?

urgh.

whatever. too sleepy to bother. hahahaha

jere and kell are crazy.

going out with them is crazy.

hanging out with them drives me crazy.

they do crazy things.

the moral of the story,

jere and kell are crazy.






but crazy suits me just fine. X)

hahahh.

i think the phrase "oh i see" is wierd. because the thing is you see what? got thing for you to see meh?

i: yeah, im 18
someone: oic

heh? you see what. see me turn 18 arh?

here's another example

i: i ate wanton mee just now
someone: oic

well im quite sure you didnt see me eat wanton mee just now. but since you say you see. then you see lor

hahahaha

i like typing bullshit. it declutters my mind.

hahahh

because im impossibly lazy. i cant even be bothered to blog anymore.

i shall leave out all the redundant speeches that i wanted to include originally. because im trying to be part of this SAY NO to REDUNDACY campaign, i have to refrain from making casual bullshit. hahaha. that being said, this entire paragraph has been hopelessly redundant.

HAHAHH

anyway, happy 17th you inconsiderate, unkind, horribly irritating, ill-mouthed friend. hahahaha. i hope you liked the surprise we planned for you.

and happy 18th CLARAAAA AUNTIE!! hahahaha. when are you freeee??

and happy birthday to cheryl as well!! and its okay to be thick, really. hahahaha

and sorry lummie for the late gift. hoped you liked it.

tmr got alot of homework leh. yuck. and im still sort of in this holidayish mood. hmmm.. today i also saw alot of underwear. HAHAHH. yuck. i mean they dont call it UNDERwear for fun you know. if it was meant to be seen, they would have coined the term OVERwear.

urrrr....

HAHAHH

yawnnnnn