why would anyone name their blog the "break up blog" so tell me about stupid man.

anyway, settlers cafe today.

SUMMING IT UP.

FUN.

X)

so im sick of things going other people's way. by hook or by crook, im doing what i want. so there.

pissed, much.

so today was the alevels chinese exam, and i have to say the last passage was fucking emo can? its damn touching lah. like, so so touching. wahhh... i enjoyed the story. it was damn nice.

so i did question 1 for my zuo wen, and i realized no one i asked did the same question as me. ooops? and all my answers are different from others. bleh. dead.

im hoping the sky will fall down tmr. at least thats like something new to marvel at.

enigmatic. what to do what to do...

and thanks people for tagging, im getting damn lazy cann.. haha, will reply real soon, but in short..

thanks eru, whoever you are. :)

yea clara, will invite you one day, we can have a bbq at my place!!! and thanks very much..

and thank you very much dear angeline and shitien, appreciate it.. ALOT. really thankful

be cause there is a need for comic relief in my life.

DOCTOR BENJAMINs HELP COLUMN

Problem: doctor, i tried cutting myself on the wrist, but i didnt die.
Solution: next time you wanna die, die in style, go jump off a cable car after having finish dinner in it.

Problem: doctor, i squeezed this pimple on my face, it bled and it hurts. what should i do?
Solution: next time, DONT squeeze it.

Problem: doctor, tmr is my alevels chinese exams, but im not prepared at all.
Solution: pray really really hard.

Problem: doctor, i keep seeing this gross couple on the train, they really irk me.
Solution: wait for the oppurtune moment, walk up to them and when the door opens, push them onto the track.

lol, so dumb lah

im angry.

im really so angry.

i hate this world for being so unfair, i hate it for being so cruel, i hate it for being so unfeeling.

god, what about all that i believe in? why teach me those things only to destroy them one at a time, little by little, wearing down my resolve? why threaten to take away the people i love?

if my aunt has cancer, i will never forgive you.

im so scared, i really am.

to those irritating philosophers who made life into simple sentences, here are my replies.

"life is a roller coaster, there are its ups and downs"
so when can i stop hanging on for my dear life?

and

"one man's meat is another man's poison"
so when is it my turn to have meat?

haha.


on mon, ms williams was super funny. haha funny.

yesterday i saw an old couple holding hands walking on the pavement, their hair was all white, its like the sweetest thing ever.

but i saw a young couple hugging and kissing on the train. ew. much. go get a room or just hold hands and be sweet. when i want to watch porn i'll let you know, if not, keep it to yourself.

haha

i looked in the mirror today and realized i have a pimple crisis. if there was a f in ugly, that would be me.

project work was actually pretty fun today. :)

why on earth is the laptop so heavy.

i spent too much on taxi fares. fuck.

chinese is 4 days away. ffffff

l.i.f.e => life.is.fucking.enigmatic

look, i found out the secret to life. wahahaha.

-.-

night people

i have no idea why but i feel obliged to type a proper post.

it could be the need to actually reorganise the various shit i've went through in my life. so here goes.

first and foremost, i screwed my promotional exams, period. its like seriously fuc*ed up. i've been using this word pretty frequently lately. damnit. i should probably include my results on this post to remind me of how stupid i am.

math: U
lit: S
hist: U
econs: S
gp: C
chi: B

if they was a "K" score, i could spell my results with "SUUCK" how cool is that.

anyway, i realised that i really am not prepared to retain another year. like anyone would want to go through hell a 2nd time. so being extremely emo, no wait, not really, i wasnt emo, i was depressed. yea, anyway, being depressed, i actually tried cutting myself on the wrist.

it was quite dumb really. trust me. anyway, i didnt die and thats like haha funny.

today the principal said that i could take a retest, heck, everyone could, so here's my 2nd chance at promoting. but im looking at my A levels next year and it looks real bleak. i really want a change of subject combination.

i want chem.
i dont want hist.

please?

so its mugging now. no, pw and chi first. then mugging.

just think, when everyone's kboxing and hanging out. im stuck at home, in the roof garden, cramming my head with facts. which i'll probably forget when i go to sleep. or after dinner. -.-

so yes. life's really fuc*ed up for me. my fault? yes, it pretty much is.

god help me.

take care people.

and thank you everyone.

i appreciate it. really.

thanks... :)

have you ever had the feeling that you really want to cry but the tears simply just wont appear.

to put it simply,

devastated.

i'll try it.

saw this when i was logging in.

FART NOW

thats like haha funny. lol

i think "big girls dont cry" is a nice song. its a nice spin off from the typical vulgur fergie. hahaha.

i think "easy" is nice too. paula deanda was quite hot in the mv. wooo.

so its another 5 more days to the release of my promo's results. maybe a miracle will happen, thats like haha funny though, no, in fact its like hahaha funny, so not going to happen.

ah well. if i do retain. i'll kill myself.

kidding.

but it would be damn sian though. sighhh.

life is a shithole. but hey, when life gives you shit, make shitnade. yeaa..

im off to make my shitnade now, tell me if you want some yah? lol.

sick.

replies:

liwee: heyy!! how are you!!?? go out soon okay? and go kbox with the rest of us! LOL. MISS YA!!

yang: heyyy my dear dear auntie. hahahahas, actually you really dont look like a pink person. no one believes it lahh.. hahas. eh go out soon lah. sooon as in REAL SOOON. b4 i get my promos result. lol

passerby: whoever you are. THANKS!! X))

naz: forget your head, how can i ever forget you. but im afraid you'll be too busy for me. in fact that day i was just thinking about the our time in the reading room together. hahas. it seems just like yesterday. sighh.. how're you doing? update me. X))

angel: heyy!! hows your arm now? better already? go out soon lah. you missed that day.. take care arhh.. cya soon!!

because im simply so touched.

so im dedicating this to you.

THANK YOU CLARA. (you said you liked pink. lol)

you're a real good friend. hahahahas, so corny. but yah.

thanks alot. really.