Benj-

sumtimes things dun really look lyk wad they seem, i truz many of u would hv heard the story of joan, the girl who is in terminal stage of cancer... yeahz...
it wud seem a tragedy to many, but the v fact dat joan is still lving is living proof of a miracle.. tokin bout miracle.. i'll tell u one.. and yahz.. dis happened to me... no lies..

for a period of time, i wud guez i was sufferin alot from alot of reasons.. of coz theres one main reason but im nt gg to sae wad.. heex.. but finally one day after many tears, prayin, shouting, i finally recovered... hmm... dun ask me why, perhaps its because god cant bear to see my sufferin animor.. yupz so dis was wad happened.. u cld sae the seeds of love and faith were planted in me on dat dae.. i cant really describe the feelin but i juz felt a lot of love and faith.. its lyk u embody love and faith itself.. everything was juz so wonderful to me... and den i opened my balcony window and saw my plant.. it was juz a plant i put outside mths back.. and it was dead alr.. coz i din water it for mths.. yahz... and in case ure wonderin why becoz my balcony windows doesnt hv curtains, they are roller blinds, and i nv unrolled them for a few mths.. alrite bck to the story.. lyk i was saying, the plant died, but i juz felt love towards the plant, wierd but yahz.. movin on.. i juz felt dat there was nth i cldnt do if onli i juz had love and faith.. so i took this lil crystal and i kinda willed lov and faith to enter the crystal... and then i put it on the soil and i water the plant.. believe me the plant was realli DEAD! im nt lying.. but the nxt dae when i opened my balcony window again i actualli saw a tinge of green on the plant..! yes! it was incredible.. in fact dis happen lyk juz three wks ago... and now de plant has juz grown a new leaf, its de kinda potted plants with big leaves, yeah and it has one now.. so u see.. miracles do happen when u hv love and faith..

im tellin u dis exp i had is bcoz i believe joan willl be de same.. no matter how bleak no matter how bad the situations seems, a miracle will happen, if only u can find it in ur heart to love and hv faith... how do u love den? simple.. juz reah deep into ur heart feel this sadness and longing for u to be with joan, to be there by her side comfortin and protectin her, yes, this is love, the feelin of wantin to protect and be there for sumone, it is within ur heart and u muz find it there.. and how do u hv faith then, simple by tellin urself joan will not die, dun hope for her to live, dun wish dat she will live... sae it out loud, she WILL live.. dat is faith.. as simple as dat, dats all u nd for a miracle.. because if u think dat love and faith are stupid ure wrong, there are/is the holy spirit, who is all and one at the same time, yes when u love and show faith u act as mediums of the holy spirit.. so dun belittle urself, within u is a memb of the trinity, and at any pt in time u love and show faith.. ure acting as angels of the holy spirit..

alrite laz but nt least.. pray.. pray to the lord.. pray nt for the lord to let joan live, pray nt for her life.. bcoz rmb.. u noe she will live... dats faith... rmb?? but instead pray for her to keep fightin, everydae in which joan lives, is a battle won against the evil one..so pray for her, pray that ur love will be wif her.. protectin, healin her... alrite... ?

god bless everyone of u, and he will awaez love everyone, it doesnt matter if u hv sinned or if u dun believe, ur conscience will lead u.. so dun feel lyk ure nt wrthy to tok and pray to the lord, the lord loves everyone, he also bears in mind dat we are humans and we do sin.. but as long as u ask for forgiveness.. he will forgive and call u his child.. so pray.. let the lord work slwly into ur heart.. he will with love.. truz me.. and as will i, pray for everyone to cont loving, to keep loving...

loves!!!! [aollovin]