Benj-

Sometimes stuff just become increasingly meaningless. You look at the life you're living and ask what are you actually living for.

I've come to realize change is inevitable. No matter how much you abhor it and regardless of whatever futile resistance you put up. If circumstances would permit it, i would want to remain that naive and silly person i used to be. You know that kind of "i can live outside from reality no matter what they say and what they do" mentality? Yea, i yearn for that dumb mentality.

it simply would hurt much less than facing certain truths in your life.

but i guess it's time to stop those airy-fairy nonsense about idealism and deal with reality. It's not time to be a helpless weakling at the whims of everyone. You have to protect yourself because no one will do it for you. It's pointless to place all your hopes and dreams on people who will just disappoint. POINTLESS.

i hate what's happening to me. but i guess it cannot be helped. As much as i want things to be simple and fine and dandy. FAT HOPE lah.

damnit.

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yang: hahaha omg if it is the same guy, i think he should be placed on ads, warning people to keep away from him. its god damn gross. hahahaha.