Benj-

i dont know. but im tired of any emotional baggage i have been carrying for what seems like the longest time. i know i always lived by the one principle about follwing your heart, as corny as it may sound.

and im not regretting anything or am i wishing everything would have happened otherwise.

but sometimes i wish ben would just do away with all those jazz and just get on with life like a normal person would. worrying about Alevels, worrying about good scores, worry about the car i'll be driving, the job i'll have, blah blah etc etc.

im quite tired of dealing with everything that has to do with feelings. and i wished i relished those days when everything was numb.

feelings are overrated. for me at least.

things would be so much simpler if giving girls spa boiled eggs and old man pieces of gold would constitute the bulk of my life and whatever time i have left, i spend brushing my sheeps and cows and talking to them.

fantasy was always my kind of thing