Benj-

omg, finally stupid blogger is working again.

woah, the past few days have been a bitch. first its being sick then the internet decides to go and fail me. the days without internet is pure torture, its like being confined in a box, sealed and shipped away to some dark corner of the universe like Malta(like where the hell is that?).

ok shit im being very melodramatic.

hahaha.

so instead of accessing E-lects i celebrated my newfound 'freedom' by playing DOTA. and the worst shit part is i didnt enjoy it. F***.

sometimes you dont have to be a woman to be a doormat. you just need to be... ah, nvm.

so is this one of those times where everything starts to take a turn for the worst? i dont know. and i dont like it. because suddenly the world around me seems a whole lot darker and more menacing. people are becoming horrible, dark, insidious people with foul intent lurking at every corner.

shit. im making this sound very depressing.

well shit bitchshit aside,

thank you very much, all of you, for the lovely lovely birthday present.

and thanks ff and erika for taking so much effort to go find it and get it. really wouldnt know what to do without friends like you.

damn...

im feeling..

AMBIVALENT