Benj-

the stagnation is due to constant mapling and dota which im glad(and sad) to say has come to an end.

recently its dawned upon me that people always judge you especially those you didnt expect would. and im just going to say i hate it. im sorry if im not fit enough to be your friend. and that you think im simply a pushover so you think you can subject me to your stupid and shallow antics.

woah, cant believe i just said that.
i think its because im in a really foul mood. and everytime i get back my pathetic good for nothing grades, i really wanna break down but that would be too weak and nua for some people. so i have to suck it all in and bear with it.

in the end i thank god for friends i can be myself with. its these people who i know will always appreciate me for who i am and not what i do.

and btw im not a pushover. i just choose never to get angry at my friends.

dont piss me off.

and now, i wish i can just hide some far away place form everyone and really break down.