Benj-

oh man... its been such a long time since i last blogged.. guess ive kinda been bz.. either wif studyin or chattin online.. it cud be playin too.. but hahas.. yea.. juz din take time out for bloggin..

but i wanna blog about wad i cud sae is de most happy or de most wonderful ting dat ever happend to me b4 lahs... i found a best fren.. and sumone hu treats me not lyk trash nor use me lyk im sum kind of toy... i nv felt so blessed b4

b4 this, i guess i cud sae i made 2 realli big mistakes.. i place my trust in de wrong people, did things dat i shudnt have to do.. wasted my time feelin sad and upset.. and end up feelin lyk ive been sorely used and den thrown away.. but im over dat now..

im realli glad i found a best fren sumone hu i can juz go crazy wif.. crap about everything under de sun.. laugh so much dat my stomach hurts.. even singing!! den invite over to my house to hv more fun.. LOL!! this are de things dat make me feel lyk im de luckiest person on earth

when sumone tells u dat they will be frens wif u 4eva.. its de best present dat u can eva recieve.. esp when it doesnt come wif bears made out of commas and fullstops.. and swt words.. but sincere, real life words... words dat arent done out of convenience but wif real feelings

when sumone tells u dat ure de best fren and bud they eva have.. its also de best present u can eva recieve... esp when it comes wif EXCLAIMATION MARKS!!! LOL!!! its even better den winning big sweep lors.. den u juz sit and umchio!!! LOL!!! yes it snds extremeli ridiculous but dats wad i did aniwae.. LOL!!!!

its realli times lyk this when u feel nth in de world can go wrong.. and esp when u can tell urself dat all dat u did was not for nth.. and dat when u sincereli care for ur frens, dey will give u back de same treatment...

hahas... till now im still in disbelief.. from how nice it feels to be so appreciated.. to be treated as sumone impt... and esp when de person saes it out.. its been a long time since i eva felt this way..
rly rly long time.. but its worth de wait.. realli realli worth it...

i hv no doubts now about a lasting frenship btw two best buds.. i wun doubt animore lyk b4.. hahas.. i may hv met ppl hu hurt me, hu treat me lyk crap, and take advantage of me.. but i hv even more ppl hu cared for me and are my frens hu wud nv hurt me...
my clsmates, esp de prom ppl im gg wif... hu i share de most laughs and joy wif..
angeline, amanda hu i awaez go back home wif and took so many photos together
yj, benja, weiling hu have been realli great frens durin my times in 4.1
and then theres those hu are not in my skool like ziq, ck(hu i tell my stories to) and terin hu helped me even when she nded hlp herself, huan min, my dear mei hu awaez smiles and my cuz, val, hu i made rly good frens wif again
and then theres de lord... hu wud i have none of these if it wasnt for him
and de last person, but definately not the least, aloysius!! hahas.. hu gave me de happiest times of my life and made me believe in frens again.. de culprit guilty of de above actions.. LOL!!! thankew so much!!! and lyk u said, frens 4eva means FRENS 4EVA!!!! and bez frens at dat!! =))

im truely happi wif wad i hv.. and i shall no longer live in de darkness of my past and forget de pain i once went thru.. i wun deny there will be more times when i might be hurt by others again or by myself.. but as long as i hv all my great buds and my greatest pal, i noe i will make it..
i promise myself dat..

[all my life] by K-Ci and Jojo
I will never find another luva sweeta than you,
Sweeta than you
And I will never find anutha luva more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are
Close to me you're like my mother
Close to me you're like my father
Close to me you're like my sister
Close to me you're like my brutha
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

And all my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinkin' of.....baby

Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinkin' of, I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug
I really love you

And all my life, baby, baby, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you, baby
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me
You're all that I ever known

When you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow
You turned my life around
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile on your face all I see is a glow
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile on your face all I see is a glow
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

realli glad i have my great buds and my greatest pal!!! loves!!![benj]