Benj-

same-o same-o

i go to school, drown myself in all the work in an attempt to hide all the hurt. my hand aches from all the recent hw ive been trying to do. my head aches from all the thinking involved.

you know what, i never knew hw was so tough.

my math tuition teacher is suppose to be coming and helping me with more work. yes, he's coming already.

i hate myself for being a coward. to be so afraid to own up to my problems, one and all. and to resort to what i feel is the most distasteful thing in my life makes me hate myself even more. seriously HW??

i dont know what ive become. facade or truth? i begin to lose consciousness.

maybe the world hasnt changed, i did.

or was the world so cruel and dark all along. and i was always the selfish and self absorbed one from the very beginning.

maybe, i think so.