Benj-

running on borrowed time.

its the most apt description of what im going through now. and seriously, i think ive peaked. ive been using dozens of supplements to supply the energy im not getting for sleep. i think i slept less than 12 hours over the entire week. and redbull, chicken essence, milo, food are all giving me a sugar rush which lasts for a mere half an hr. FATIGUED. im beginning to feel extremely tired and thoroughly exhausted.

im so tired i wanna cry, really. im feeling so shagged its making me so depressed. omg, i just wanna mutter a whole string of profanities to express this rage im in. (*&@(*&*(#*@&^$!#!^$(&T$!#*!#!^#!#*!P!(*&#*(!#

i cant study history. not in this state.

im going to fail everything and what upsets me most is i studied the most for chem but its fucking difficult. ive never given up on a paper b4, NEVER. but i was so tired i was beginning to slip out of consciousness and i knew i was going to fail anyway. 0's a U, so is 39, why bother getting the 39? its a U anyway.

im really quite upset now. and i really wished death was waiting for me on my bed.

a eternal slumber doesnt seem so bad.

really.