Benj-

todae im suppose to go out to orchard for a cls outing.. budden as i can onli go out once every wkend, i hv chosen to go to tmr's band concert by ajsb.. i feel bad pangsehin my cls, but i feel equalli bad pangsehin my old frens..

dis sucks.

readin sihui's blog realli brought back sum bad memories..

"vacancy for best fren"

best fren.. i had one b4.. a real good one.. but it seems life does not permit me to own this sort of happiness. i blame myself for wad has happend, but it does little to comfort my pain and hurt.

i too, want sumone dat i can share everything wif, my problems, my happiness.. but den again, it looks lyk it will nv happen.. i wish for sumone hu cud undst me, watch out for me, sumone hu wud catch me when i fall..

because im so tired.. of gg on alone, dun get me wrong, i have alot of wonderful frens hu are by my side.. lookin after me.. but still its nt de same.. and yah, it seems lyk wad sihui's saes, everyone has one.. while i dun..

i rmb when i used to be realli upset, my bez fren wud be there, not onli to hlp me shoulder part of de prob, but make me happi, make me laugh..

u can sae im useless.. but i still wish for one

but no one owes me anth.. im probably askin for too much..

dis sucks

sumtimes life juz sucks

and todae is one of dos daes..

i nd to sing.. hope it makes me feel better

bye

replies

sophie: yah man, yest was rly rly great, thx for such a great time.. and dun wry, im sure dere will be much much more!! XD

siok xin: LOL!! yah lah, he rly looks lyk one right?? hahahas.. eh im not a himbo lors!! even if im one, its all ur fault lahs.. im not FAT!!! am i?? omg im FAT!! hahas yah man.. i hv so many fotos.. i rly deserve a pat on de back.. wahahas..

hantu: LOL!! ur poem is so CHEEEM~ lols, but heys it was nice la.. though i dun undst de plant part.. LOL!! wad plant?? de one u holdin?? lols.. thx for de cheem poem!! its nice la

ttk: yea i WILL!! hahas dun wry, i'll go see it now!