Benj-

i have no idea why but i feel obliged to type a proper post.

it could be the need to actually reorganise the various shit i've went through in my life. so here goes.

first and foremost, i screwed my promotional exams, period. its like seriously fuc*ed up. i've been using this word pretty frequently lately. damnit. i should probably include my results on this post to remind me of how stupid i am.

math: U
lit: S
hist: U
econs: S
gp: C
chi: B

if they was a "K" score, i could spell my results with "SUUCK" how cool is that.

anyway, i realised that i really am not prepared to retain another year. like anyone would want to go through hell a 2nd time. so being extremely emo, no wait, not really, i wasnt emo, i was depressed. yea, anyway, being depressed, i actually tried cutting myself on the wrist.

it was quite dumb really. trust me. anyway, i didnt die and thats like haha funny.

today the principal said that i could take a retest, heck, everyone could, so here's my 2nd chance at promoting. but im looking at my A levels next year and it looks real bleak. i really want a change of subject combination.

i want chem.
i dont want hist.

please?

so its mugging now. no, pw and chi first. then mugging.

just think, when everyone's kboxing and hanging out. im stuck at home, in the roof garden, cramming my head with facts. which i'll probably forget when i go to sleep. or after dinner. -.-

so yes. life's really fuc*ed up for me. my fault? yes, it pretty much is.

god help me.

take care people.