Benj-

its the holidays after all which means you dont have to spend your time mugging away in the library and worry which teacher is going to chase you for homework next.

so yeah i guess the holidays have always been pockets of time that happens 4 times a year in which i began to mull over more and more past events, recollecting, reminiscing. or what people still refer to as "emo". hahaha okay okay, i admit, im "emo". it cant be helped since its a combination of nature and angsty hormones coupled with a inappropriate usage of time, giving rise to a majorly depressed suicidal crisis.

okay, maybe it's a hyperbole. but if i were to use the words happy and fabulously estatic to describe my feelings now would be horribly inaccurate.

it could be due to a lack of kbox?

hahaha.

but since im on a serious note here. (note serious face :|) hahaha i sidetrack. you know how some symbolic items tell stories of people lives? well i have them too. and mine are songs. my songs, no not literally my songs, i mean the songs in my itunes library. shit im talking to myself. lol. anyway, yeah, the songs in my itunes library are symbolic of certain life events.

like, the christian songs by hillsongs. they tell me the story of my sec 3 life. and that person

and then there's like DANG NI, Too Little Too Late, MU NAI YI(haha)... and a few other significant ones which tell the story of another part of my sec 3 life. and that person. and that person.

and then there was the samantha mumba age of Never Meant To Be during 2007. wah this one. hahaha. BIG HUGE STORY of my life. and that person.

and then there's recent one like Breathless. okay maybe this one wasnt as tragic as the others were. but sad nonetheless. that person?

hahaha.

i dont mean to say my life are purely filled with tragic events lah. but these are the most ermm memorable? hahahaha. sad things are easy to remember anyway.

okay. i think im through "emoing" now.

it's so easy to slip into these lapses. but

i guess i just keep hoping still.