Benj-

perhaps stifled would be a good word to use.

withholding everything within can really wear you out. it could be the weather or it could be those "think about stuff" season, but of late there has been plenty of "emo" going on with me.

all of a sudden i want to take a really really long night bus ride and looking at all the cars, lights go past.

i try not to dwell on the past but it clearly isnt working.

also i've been seeing a whole lot of baskers recently. my heart really goes out to them. but what's the point of sympathizing with them when i dont offer a single coin? i feel really disgusted at myself.

im caught in this really ambivalent mood.

everything evokes strong emotions in me. i swear people think im crazy.

oh well. on a side note.

i passed all my mid year exams. i think it was a bit of luck as well. and to my friends who arent satisfied with your results, lets work hard together!! study groups, sessions, the works. yea

i really wish i was on that bus ride now.

我看不開 也放不開 因為我曾見過愛情真的盛開

我要等待 一直等待 等那一個夜晚從回憶回來

當你擁抱著我 那一瞬間 我像飛到空中

而當我緩緩降落 我不再是我 我有了夢 我在夢中

what a fine way to put it.