Benj-

i guess in the end i never really meant what i said. and i dont think i want to regret anything. so yeah.

i feel disorientated.

its really hard to describe.

but on the way home, the images that filled my mind were of really gory and frightening stuff. i dont think im crazy. i really dont think so. but maybe all the recent anger and frustration building up within me has left me a little more than just ....

i dont know.

it hurts more than a little inside.

but there's really nothing much i can do about it.