Benj-

yeah, im not exactly sure why i made my blog a private one.

its just a mood thing i guess

or maybe i just no longer see a need to express myself to others but rather a need to reorganize and make sense of my own thoughts.

and i would like to type what i really feel instead of paraphrasing and euphemising everything.

there's this thing about sincerity that encompasses tactlessness and honesty, sometimes, i think.

haha.

i never thought blogger pre-loaded skins were so appealing. there's something really enticing about simplicity. i think its suppose to reflect my some subconcious desire for things to be simplified and all that jibberjabber. haha

and to those who still take time to read this blog, thanks for willing to listen to the incessant ravings of a not so okay person. lol. and sorry i dont know how to stick the old tagboard here so you'll have to make do with the comments function

dear grandpa, having you in heaven makes me feel very safe because i know you are there watching over me. somehow i feel even closer to you than before. thank god. and thank you. (:

dear god, i wish i was closer to you.