Benj-

i've never felt so hurt before.

really i havent. i mean its one thing to know im stupid and that im just not as learned compared to others. and i know im not hardworking and plain lazy.

but it hurts very much to hear people speak to me that way. to make it seem as if im of zero worth, to feel like i amount to no more than trash.

okay, i know its useless and pathetic of me, but there and then i really had this urge to cry.

i really never felt so hurt before. partly because i didnt expect it and partly because i know deep inside it is in some way, true.