Benj-

i think its just one of those bad nights. one of those really bad nights when i feel really awful about everything. everything sucks. i hate everything. at times like this i feel really thankful i have things like family.

which no matter how much i hate or how much im upset with will never give up on me.

i dont have much things like that in life.. not many people who are like that in my life too.

i think i deserve this.

i deserve this (what i think is a) awful life.

wanna run away to another world.


i know all these will pass by tmr morning. but right here right now, i feel like im in a personal hell.

which i deserve too.

lol