Benj-

it turned out pretty serious after all. so its a 2 days mc for me. with loads of horrible pills i need to swallow. i wish there was something i could do about my health but apparently not.

anyway. im pretty much focused on my studies now, it helps when you're just thinking about what you're suppose to put in your essay. lol

if its one thing i've learnt over this incident is, dont try to help, never try to help. mind your own business, or rather mind my own business. dont care, dont ask, dont bother.

dear lord. tell me what am i suppose to do. ive been like this for so long, only to realize i may be a victim of a personality disorder? are my values system that wrong? are my beliefs that irrational?

the answers are probably yes.

i guess if all of you are right, then yes, im suffering from certain mental disorders. simply put im crazy.

well if it helps.

i would rather be in a asylum.

then change who i am.

this way, i can be who i want to be, and you dont have to worry about people like me.