Benj-

i feel so alone. everything threatens to tear me apart. i am overwhelmed by all that is happening and i have no idea what to do.

i feel like im going crazy. my head feels light headed and im smiling when im sad. ive no idea wad are the feelings im going thru. i nd to break down but i cant. i nd to cry, but i laugh. everythings running amok and im acting as if everything is fine.

am i really on the verge of insanity?

the world will not accomodate people like me. perhaps i do belong in the asylums.

im not kidding.

i really need to see a shrink.