Benj-

how do i put it? the past 4 days have been excruciatingly hard to bear, pardon the melodrama but really... i think i would truely be better off dead. urgh. im fast approaching 19 and yet im still stuck in some sort of angsty teenage timeframe refusing to grow up.

this life really isnt meant for me. i cant take this mundane shit. i cant take these do or die situations. what if i really flunk out the promos? what if i dont make it.


if only i stayed at some sort of high rise building. so high that when i jump i wouldnt feel a thing.

i would like to thank carine and ff for caring so. i really appreciate your care and concern. im really sorry for not reciprocating, it must make you all feel shitty right? sorry im such a shithole.