Benj-

in some ways, im thankful for the exams. because in that neither short nor long span of time, i was able to just focus solely on one thing. i didnt have time to ponder over other nonsense, i didnt have time to evaluate my self worth, yadah yadah.. all i had to do was focus and just think how best to answer the question.

yeah, my fingers are still smarting with pain when i write but it feels good. no, im not masochistic but the pain helps take my mind of things. really.

school works for me as well. im kind of glad people arent easily affected by bad vibes, our class is still as hyper as can be. and i just cant help but smile and laugh at their antics. carolyn and her fei mu, which i still have no clue about its meaning. and jeremy who was blowing air on me after gp ended. what in the world.

hahaha.

there's no sch tmr.

im kind of afraid you know. every day just gets harder and harder.