Benj-

"i dun undst why im hurtin so much, i guess its becoz i nv now wad ure feelin, i nv noe if im in ur mind, and i will nv noe if u rly care...

and its because u nv show it to me... why do i bother gettin so upset? why do i rush home everydae juz waitin for u... why shud i think of u, why shud i care?

i feel stupid, i feel lyk im juz dreamin so much so im in a state where im startin to distort de facts frm fantasy.. i can no longer fool myself into believin dat u care... i dun want to animore, i dun want to go to bed every night feelin sorri for myself..

i find my happinesss in u, but i guess u dun, mayb im not dat impt after all...

and if u find dat im being difficult and problematic, i'll tell u, its because i think too much of u, and u will nv undst how it feels to juz wait endlessly, juz waitin until its impossible to get smth...

i hurt so much not coz i think too much, but coz i think of u too much... and if u dun undst dat. den u nv knew me at all, i wud giv all i hv for time wif u, but wadeva time u give me is but spare, leftover pockets of time dat u feel u hv nth better to do...

but yet in my heart i noe this will go on forever... and its onli because r ivzoob olev blf...."

i hope dat anyone hu reads this, will respect dat i may nt want to talk about it, and dat if u hv questions u feel u rly nd to ask, plz do, but plz allow me to decide whether i will answer dem.. thx

r gslftsg f xzivw [benj]