Benj-

i just realize how wrong i can be... loving may not make people happy.. and i can never make everyone happy, but at least i can try... but sumtimes it requires givin up my own happiness... its okay at first.. but when it builds up.. i kinda crack and become nuts again..

god plz giv me patience and the gift of understandin... also hlp me tide thru my unhappiness and make me let go of the past.. i realli dun want to be held back animor...

lovin ppl isnt as hard as it seems.. why did i eva say stuff lyk dat... love has no meanin, and i dun intend to giv it one.. everyone's perception of love is different and hu said mine was the onli way dat is so super wrong..

love is jus love.. and dats wad i hope to do... no need to force love out.. it comes naturalli after a while... god thankew u for makin me understand.. i noe u hv ur defination of love and urs is the right way... but i rly think as long as they love, theres no problem is there?? i noe i cannot force everyone to love u.. i dun want to hv to rob away happiness to do that.. im willin to lose everything and willin to accept punishment, but i rly wish dat everyone can join u in eternity, isnt dat wad u want too?

loves!!! [aollovin]