Benj-

i remember all the times when i promised myself i would never get hurt again.

but it's impossible isn't it?

sometimes... i feel that i should just close myself away.

i recall the times when i wanted to enter the asylum.

the times when i just wanted to hide away at home for all eternity.

the times when i went to sleep hoping i never wake up

praying praying praying with all my heart that the lord would just relieve me of everything because i was too cowardly to just die.

so what's new again?

this isn't emo.

it's insanity.

i let you all down.