Benj-

been bloggin lesser recentli.. i dunno if its becoz of the growing workload and stress i and everyone are facing.. or is it becoz im juz simply not in de mood?

told my mum all my results on mondae.. she was fumin mad.. said sum pretty nasty and mean stuff.... nearly caused me to hyperventilate.. ahh wells.. its not like i din expect her.. i alr knew wad she was gg to sae aniwae..
budden.. (i realli have to thank my tuition teacher and god) my mum went to call my tuition teacher to ask if de paper i did was realli tuff.. and my tuition teacher said it wasnt and den she went on to speak up for me.. she said i had realli improved and have been constanly workin hard for my math.. de reason dat im not doing well is bcoz i have a serious psychological prob(lols.. yah im mad), she said i was too nervous and i kept focusin on how badly i wud do and it became a self fulfillin prophecy.. and den she also told my mum not to freak out and play it cool wif me.. she also told my mum dat i shud learn how to relax bcoz she said it was no longer a workin hard problem.. coz i alr did and i knew my stuff.. but i freak out durin de xams..
so now my mum is totalli not mad at me.. shes realli realli nice to me now.. she even told me not to worri bout de firz 3 mths.. cannot den cannot lors.. nvm lah.. dose were de exact words.. but sumhow it made me feel worse.. i feel lyk i let her down.. oh man.. i realli wanna work hard..

durin de past 3 daes, i had a veri troubling time too.. my friend was seriousli messed up by relationships probs and he realli nded hlp and sumone to share his probs.. well dat was pretty much all i could do.. it was realli saddening for me to see my friend so sad and all i can do is juz listen.. i realli wanna do more.. well i gues i did and it worked

i told de lord dat i wud give up de most impt thing to me if he were to let my friend and his gf be happi together.. hahas.. it worked.. de lord realli answered my prayer.. thankew so much my lord.. budden now.. i feel im about to lose de most impt thing to me alr.. it realli makes me damn depressed but i noe i will tell myself its worth it so dat sumone else can be happi instead... i juz wish it din hurt so much..
i realli hope de bth of u can stay happi together... god bless =)

not realli been in a happi mood recentli.. maybe dis is just part of life where we go thru a realli dark time.. but i noe dat dis darkness wun last foreva and happiness awaits me as long as i keep livin and try stayin as positive as possible..

(life goes on "leAnn rimes")
Oooh, life goes on, and it’s only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board say goodbye cuz you cant go back
Oooh, its a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where Im at, is my life before me, got this feeling that I cant go back

loves!!! [aollovin]