Benj-

i shall blog for ppl todae.. hmms.. i promised i wud nv get angry ever again, i promised i wud try to make ppl smile, i promised i wud onli listen and not speak, and i promised i wud be kind to no matter was.. but todae im gonna release myself from these promises, well heres to ppl hu think ur lifes sux(includin myself):
(start message) "u DO NOT have the followin bloody rights
- to think ur life sux
- to remain angry and sad
- to hate the world
- to hate urself
- to think de world shud change for u
- to think ppl will change for u
- to think the whole world owes u ur happiness
- to hate ppl
- to think dat everybody else is at fault xcept urself
- to complain

dats all i can think of for now, if i do hv more, i wil post them..
u wanna noe why u dun have the bloody rights stated above? because there are a unreasonably large amount of ppl hu are sufferin more den u! a whole load of ppl hu are more unfortunate den u, more tragic and sad things happening in thier life den ur miserable crap which makes u hate life. wake up ur bludy idea man! u noe wads the prob wif u ppl, u are GREEDY, u always want more den is enough, u want more den u can get, and u want more even though u alr have everything.. and when u dun get wad u want, u throw ur stupid childish tantrums and shed ur self pitying tears.. u wanna noe wads sad? try living ur lifes by counting ur fingers, try losing all ur loved ones, try losing an arm, limb, try losing the ability to speak, see, hear, taste and feel, try being sexualli abused, try living with deformity. wad not enuff for u? not enuff for u to think dat ure stil damn hell fortunate? " (end message)

alright.. deep breath.. im sorri i had to sae all those horrible things, im sorri i had to punch u so hard on the face, im sorri i had to smash ur self created misery haven.. but dun u reallit hink dat ure realli mor fortunate den so many others.. wad ure going thru now.. its realli nth compared to wad many others are gg thru now..(myself included). but i do noe dat life is full of happiness.. so much things dat we hv yet to learn about and so much to smile about.. yes ppl out there have to face those terrible tragic events, but we dun hv to, and noone is sayin we hv to, its gods gift dat we can be happi, and its our right as well.. we muz be happi becoz we have been given the ability to create our own happiness.. dun cry.. why cry.. why shed tears.. god gave us tears to not cry of sadness but to shed tears of joy.. we werent given anger to be unhappi, but given anger to stand up for wads right, we werent given sorrow to be sad, but to appreciate how great it is to be happi..

i have experienced sadness, felt unloved, felt despair and helplessness, i do noe dat its natural to wanna feel sad when bad things happen.. i do not attempt to undst the amount of pain u go thru, and i also undst dat life may nt awaez be fair.. i have had my own share of them, and i still will, and so will u.. but dat doesnt mean we shud give up our happiness, our hopes and dreams.. i do not expect all of u to be happi all de time too.. but i do hope dat u will at least try, dats why i wanna make ppl smile.. i lyk seeing people happi.. isnt it so wonderful to see sumone break out in laughter. see sumone falshin a smile.. the joy reflectd in thier eyes.. i tried gvin wad ppl wanted for them to be happi, but i realized dats not the way... to make ppl smile.. wad i nd to do is gv them back hope, love and faith.. alright.. i'll end here, my lord, thankew for being with me.. and to those hu agree, wish me lucks..a nd to those dat still feel sad.. well, i'll do my best =)

benjamin.