Benj-

i think have a value system that differs greatly from others. hahaha, and i mean it literally. it's like how people value being successful, being rich, being powerful, being better than others. i don't.

okay maybe that's like what my mum says, i don't possess that fighting spirit, that need to want to keep improving, to keep myself at the top. hmm, i would say she's right, it's not that i can't do challenges, i just don't like them. but i also know that contentment is bliss. when you're nowhere but in the pits, the only way is up.

i don't like the feeling of towering above others because it's a really long way down if you fall.

ahahaha, so full of crappy bullshit.

anyway, i didn't blog on the 29th. damn. hahaha, ah wells. what's the big deal about the 29th anyway, it just delays the arrival of my birthday.

i think i want my 18 birthday to be a bash. like a real big one. but how the hell i'm going to go about doing it, i have absolutely no idea. maybe i'll go out all night and party it away. LOL. like real. maybe i'll like spend it at macdonalds. with the party balloons, clown, miniature playground... WHOOPPEEE the birthday party they hold are so FUN!

yeah, Freaking.UNinteresting.

bahaha

so everyone's mugging now, i guess i should too. i definitely need to revise all my chemistry. math is fine i guess. OH and lit. i definitely need to improve on it too. mugging, ben mugging. hahaha, sounds wierd.

i don't like broken glass.