Benj-

some things were just meant to be found out.. and the outcomes are definitely not pleasant. and it happend todae to me, i wun sae i rather i din find out, but at the same time, i wud hv lived juz de same wifout. i tot it wudnt make me sad but yet it still hurts, it still hurts... but im fine.. i will keep livin and keep smilin.. i guess its time to end it alr. but den sumhow or rather, i feel realli realli saddened, till now i find myself in a state of denial.. im obviously a fool and an idiot for believin.

but i realli hv to thank some ppl hu make life so much easier and hlp me carry on and look forward to tomorrow. and of coz makin me smile every chance dey have,
aloysius, ziq and ck hu awaez manages to make my dae no matter how bad it was. spendin time wif u guys juz makes me feel lyk nth in de world can get me down. and esp aloy hu awaez makes me laugh lyk siao, make me forget all my probs, makin fun of each other and argueing over hu sings betta.. hahax, it was rly truely enjoyable
cheryl and clara hu have made skool so much more bearable and fun, and we've spent so much times makin fun at this and dat.. esp me.. hahax. but i dun mind. it was funni! =))
yongjian for spendin time, hangin in and out of skool, esp the bus rides home..!! rock on!!
clara lee, zhiying and my library mates hu hlp me destress every fri when i come and visit.
and ALL my classmates hu nv fail to lend a hlpin hand and show concern when im unwell. i rly do appreciate it..
and my family hu tries their best to make me feel betta and understand wad im gg thru.
and last but not least, god, hu has never eva left my side, carin for me, answerin all my prayers in one way or another. makin things happen, for me to realize dat i hv so mny things to cherish and love. ure the best fren and family anyone cud eva ask for.

bad things happen sumtimes, unhappi events occur, its a part of life dat we cannot escape from and it is dis inevitable things dat make us truely understand wad happiness is and how precious it is.
sumtimes it seems lyk we are torn from our dreams and deprived of happiness, but actualli, if we were to open our eyes and juz glance around, there are still so many wonderful, happi things dat makes us smile. no doubt sorrow and anger may rule us sumtimes, wad matters is we rmb to forgive ourselves and others, den forget our unhappiness and move on. life waits for no one, so move on and move happily, forget ur fears and doubts. life is beautiful, onli if u learn to be happi.

i thank everyone once again for makin my life such a joy, wifout all of u.. i simply wudnt noe wad to do.. thankew all.

loves!!! [aollovin]