Benj-

i just want to dedicate all my time and energy to helping others. i wna be able to hlp relieve other peoples suffering. i dun giv a damn wad i go thru alr lah. or at least for de time being.. i dun wan to go think about it.

i love god. but i noe that i must learn to forgive ppl. if not i will awaez feel i dun deserve gods forgiveness. but how de hell do u forgive sumone hu has caused u so much anguish. its lyk tryin to turn a pig into a pin, its just one letter away, but its impossible to achieve. ahhh, hlp me my lord to find a way to forgive those hu have caused me hurt. i dunno how am i gg to do it. its far too hard.

and anw, ppl hu scandal, noe when to draw a line can?? if u actually jeopardize frenships thru ur freakingly childish, immensely stupid, horrifyingly dumb scandals, that makes u a scum, a jerk. so stop it! u have no right to hurt my frens! SO BACK OFF!!

i dun have time for myself anymore. its 24/7 dedicated to my frens. yups. at least it gives me a sense of purpose.