Benj-

its so horrible i cant even think about it.

and i realize that i think my mum holds a damn great place in my heart. i realized shes like so vital to me and i know she really loves me alot. which is why i cant stand it when she starts giving me the cold shoulder. haiz. tmr is the day im breaking the news of all my results. ahh wells. i just hope she doesnt stay angry for long.

been feeling really really ill lately. hahas, i think my symptoms of stress is starting to surface again. hahas, yeah, i think everyone sees me as this person who doesnt give a damn and two hoots about my studies, its not that i dont care. its just that when i feel stressed, my body starts disfunctioning.

my nosebleeds are back, and they get more and more serious everytime it happens, it was so bad yest i felt faint and dizzy. it was amazing how much blood came out.. hahas

the wierd cramps in my stomach are appearing again.

and there are new symptoms!! massive migrains that just happen all of a sudden. and nausea when travelling in the car. wow. my body amazes me.

i guess its not a choice whether i feel stress or not. it happens.

anyway, i made chocolate fondue today. was great. missed the taste of fruits coated in chocolate. so incredibleee.. ahhh..

ahh whatever. i feel dead.

replies:

sihui: hahas yahhh!! yest was so fun!! whats teng chui?? are you sure its hokkien?? you mean teck zui is it? lolll.. lets go out again soon!! and send me the photos we took that day when you free ok??

edwina: lol, i dont really remember all the details too, thats why i wasnt too affected by it as well. lol. but the new book coming out already!! whee!! hahas, oh okay, yups i will send the phots asap. cya tmr!!

sophie: hahas, i dont know about greatly greatly loved, but i know im very lucky to have all you guys as my friends!! hahas and you as a bruda!!! hahas my phone.. i only had it for 6 mths!! lol, okay.. i dont know who it was. but whoever he/she is, is damn lucky.. coz got so many dbsk songs!! humph. LOL!! cya tmr!!

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put me to sleep please. i dont want to wake up!!!