Benj-

i really wished it was all simply a bad dream. i went to sleep with the problems ringing in my head. when i was just about to wake i told myself that everything was simply a nightmare but when i opened my eyes i realized nothing changed.

it's so sad. it's really so sad that i entered a stage in which i have to wake up wishing reality was naught but a bad dream i could just simply wake up from.

and the saddest thing is, i still wished it was all a bad dream. and that tmr when i open my eyes, it would all be gone.

how stupid and naive.

and utterly unrealistic.