Benj-

i wish i didn't act the way i did in school. i hate how i behaved in school today. like some bloody effing bastard throwing idiotic tantrums and ranting away like a barking madman.

and it doesn't help when i keep harbouring thoughts about how much of a loser i am and how much everything that happened is like my bloody fault. seriously, if there was this dark deep bottomless pit, i wuld be the first to jump in. at least the world would be rid of one particularly irritating nuisance.

yeah.

i apologoise to everyone for being an asshole today.

i liked valentine's day regardless of how things turned out and what happened in the course of the day. i liked today as well, it just, wasn't happy. but i still liked it.

obviously i have to.

seeing how monday is the last day we have together.

i hate living now.
hate myself too.

but what's new anyway.