Benj-

i'm blaming myself for all that happened. it makes everything so much easier. at least this way i don't feel angry nor disappointed. only sad. hahahaha. the lesser of two evils huh?

i'm sorry then. because i guess i must have made some mistake or maybe many. i can only guess. but all the same i'm still sorry.


orientation in aj is... hurm... kind of fun lah. if you know how to get high that is. it would be better if... but nvm then. tmr might be the last day i have with 17. hurm...

so i'm starting to follow this hurm trend. hahahaha, i think naz started it. loll.

you know i think i won't even ask to die anymore because i never do. and it's kind of sickening when everytime you fall sick and you half wish it's something so serious, it's terminal. but the thing is, it never is. you just take a few pills and viola, you're well again. hahahaha

i think the day when i wish i didn't have to die would be the day i do. SO WIERD. hahahahaha