Benj-

i'm suppose to be blogging all about my trip to korea. but due to.. hmm.. new circumstances, i don't really have the mood to do it.

my head hurts. my body tires. i have this incessant nosebleed. this irritating cough. and i have lips bigger than a gorilla.

i feel so tired.

but when i sleep, the nightmares start coming.

tmr is valentine's day. it doesn't make my mood any better. i really can't be bothered to go dig out those gifts i bought. in fact i don't fel like going to school tmr.

i put the blame on myself. all of it. and god you know why. so what am i suppose to do to make things better?

i'm fighting this really strong urge to just ...

damn it.