Benj-

i think i forget things easily or maybe its like i get easily distracted.

haha, but things that always has to do with the the heart usually fades away aft a good nights sleep. and once im caught up in other things they dont dominate my mind anymore. but everynight b4 i slp, i always get caught up in a dozen emotions, feeling like some schizofreak. haaahaa.

does that mean i accord very little to things because i forget them so easily? but if its so, then why is it everytime i think about things like that i feel sharp stabs in my heart. okok dont laugh at my corniness la.

i think im really a good pretender la. i can pretend everythings okay when im occupied with smth else. which is good i guess but it sometimes make me seem like im callous and careless. lol which i dont think i am. -ish. HAHA

yay running this sat. i put on weight cause i measured myself today. eech.

life is very funny. you usually dont get what u want. like how i want As for all my results and as low as can be for weight. but i usually get good grades for weight and horrendous grades for exams. LOL. if i can exchange the 2 ar, i'll be uber happy.

God always answers. ALWAYS. even in ways you dont expect nor want.
but i dont need him to give me what i want. just knowing he's there is enough for me.
i say that leh but i think i still secretly wish for things from God dearest. lol. what a hypocrite. okok. i change my mind. MY LORD PLS GRANT ALL MY WISHES!! PLS~!