Benj-

i wont go down with this ship

i wont put my hands up and surrender.
there will be no white flag above my door.

because i have things worth fighting for.

sometimes when times are bleak and things seem awful. your friends make all the difference. from their subtle actions, to their outright support.

when you're caught in doubt and pessimism, drowning in cynicism and skepticism, thinking you're alone in this huge world. it will be small things your friends do which make all the difference.

i feel bad because i dont always do that for my friends. but there are those who remind me that i'd always have a friend in them. and i think thats precisely why i always take them for granted.

so good Lord, dearest Father whose constant presence i always neglect, remind me to always cherish and appreciate those things you and those who love me, give to me. and remind me to always return their love because they are those who deserve to be loved.

but those who go all out to ruin my day. i hope you step on dogshit tmr.

i need to go shop. but i realize now's a really bad time cause im so fat. ):