Benj-

oops, almost missed today's post.

i have bad news, for myself. lol. it seems like im gg to spend the next two years being miserably unahppily busy. while people get 5 days work week, i get 6. and while people sit around playing psp i sit around doing alot of work.

its really funny because i dont think ive ever put in so much effort for anything before. but i always knew i had okay work ethics and habits but i dont understand why it doesnt apply in studies.

or in anything else for that matter.

it starts tmr. and it happened so fast i didnt even know how to react. one moment im in a corner scribbling and spamming the calculator and the next thing i know im in a room with 4 people spamming me with all their comments and questions.

but im quite affected by the fact that they simply make whatever decisions they like without even asking me. and its so funny that my ns side is trying to rescue me by pulling me out and the 'i' side thinks they are saving me by keeping me thr.

and no one had the courtesy to ask where i wna go.

i mean even a servant has some rights, no? ok no.

really dreading tmr. its going to be tough i can tell. rly.

spent the day with yiz out yest. short yet sweet, like always. but i feel like we dont talk so much anymore. hor?

but who cares, enjoyed it, so thats all that matters.