Benj-

3rd dae in pj, orientation dae 3, gotta admit, todae was considerably better den de previous 2, made a few new frens, tok much more and laughed ALOT more.. hahas, thx nat and eunice, hu spoke 2 me in de morn, den we've been tokin alot more since...

de gang was pretty split todae, due to de difference in breaks and games, ah wells, we'll get better daes frm nxt wed onwards... yea!

todae surprisingli wasnt all that bad, cept for de part where i was made to perform in de finale, hahas, its not dat bad lahs, but i.. hmms, wasnt exactly my choice, and a skit abt hamburgers aint rly my kinda thing either, but hahas, i'll make do lah

station games were pretty fun in a wae dat we rly got closer and laugh ALOT ALOT MORE, but seriousli de games were... hmms... lyk de ancient gameboy game, "mario land" so old skool and traditional... fun in sum sort of wae, but rly rly ancient.. i think my ah ma got play b4 lors.. [chuckles]

but i guess our ogl, kenneth was rly nice, he send us all an sms sayin we rocked todae, hahas, he din hv to but he did aniwae, so kudos to him!! woots!!

im amazed how different i can be sumtimes, how i cn actualli shift from moods to moods, it isnt mood swings, its realli shifting, when im in skool, with de gang or wif frens, i rly can forget all my unhappi stuff... i dunno why, but when i go home, and i start thinkin, i juz become veri sian

even till now, b4 i slp, i wud juz suddenli start cryin... not lyk as if i want lyk dat, it justs becomes so habitual alr, and i wud clutch my fone... den start cryin... den after dat fall aslp, seriousli its juz not possible for me to forget, i was prepared for this, but it jus isnt as ez to deal wif as i tot i cud... even now, whilst typin this, i alr feel lyk cryin...

i didnt even try and forget u, bcoz its simply impossible, de moment i close my eyes, its juz all de fun times dat we had, and when i open them, its rememberin u are no longer there... gone lyk de wind and as intangible as dreams... it rly hurts me so...

shifting moods [benj]