Benj-

been pass vivo city a few times now... seems to bring a few memories back... nv been there though, think i shud try gg there one dae..

sumtimes i wish i wasnt so quick to pour my heart out to ppl, but its just when u get a feelin u rly can trust dat person, dat u can awaez rely on, a sense of calm, happiness when ure around them... i shud nv trust this feelin, bcoz in de end, i awaez end up wif NTH

i cud sae this is de 3rd time, lols, 3 times and i still hvn learnd my lesson, but no, i wun change hu i am just to protect myself from being hurt, if it has to happen another 10 times, 100 times, i still wun change hu i am...

i noe hu are those dat hv awaez been there for me, awaez watchin out for me, ppl hu rly care, and to those ppl, i thank u sooo much for everything... i wun mention hu they are, but if any of u are readin this, u will noe hu u are.. so thankew v much..

i guess there is sumone special, i shant mention more, but i do appreciate it, and ure indeed wonderful..

but this 3rd time wud be de worst i guess, at de back of my mind, i hv been tellin myself, mayb things will suddenly turn out better, but the facts speak for themselves, nth will change... i cant keep going on waitin as well, i cant keep hurtin myself this way.. but...

...lettin go makes me feel lyk i no longer hv a reason to live.

my lord, help me

[benj]